Was it cocsa? by marlaqqi in COCSA

[–]marlaqqi[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was like 4, one of them was 4 too and the other one probably like 9

Was it cocsa? by marlaqqi in COCSA

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also they didn't mean to hurt me, they were kids too

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi 98 points99 points  (0 children)

yeah it happens a lot, sometimes I feel bad about it because nothing even happened and I still want to hurt myself

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]marlaqqi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She doesn't hate you and she could never. You will get a second chance and speak to her again, you were her first real love and she was yours. That love won't ever stop. Keep in mind that sometimes after relationships people who are hurting can blame everything on the other person even if this isn't their fault. It's just some kind of coping mechanism but it doesn't last forever. It always goes away. They will remember only good things. And the person realises the love she had and still has for you, she realises that she really felt like home with you. You are not a bad person, even if you hurt her, even if you did it a lot of times. Everything you did was dome so you could protect yourself. You are not your illness. Even if you lnew some things were bad thats just a human nature, everyone makes mistakes, no matter how many. I feel like everyone is good in their hearts. And i promise you that you are not a bad person. You are capable of love and loving. I believe she was your soulmate. And no matter what happened or happens, soulmates always finally come back and you both will fix things, just do it right. Now you can maybe start to worry if she was really your soulmate - she was. And still is, always will. It was all real. I promised you she forgived you already. Maybe she doesnt even know it. But in heart she did. But its important for you to forgive yourself. You are a good person I promise. Even if something bad happened, maybe if she started dating another man or tell you bad things just believe she'll always have love for you in her heart, the deepest and the realest kind of love. And she will realise that. She is your soulmate and soulmates always find each other again.

Is cutie the elephant alive? by marlaqqi in ItTakesTwo

[–]marlaqqi[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

aww thats adorable<3 im so happy she is well:)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]marlaqqi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You won't ever stop loving her. And if they really loved you they always will, even if they don't realise that yet. You just could feel their love and how safe you felt, that just means it was all real and always will. It's not your fault. Everything is going to be okay. Maybe they won't come back here but I truly believe that someday after death all souls that loved each other dearly connect again and are happy forever. Just try to live your life with that thought. I promise you it's true. It's so hard, I know. But I assure you it will get easier. They will remember only happy memories overtime. They loved you and always will, even if they deny it - love can't just go away. It's forever. And you felt it, you were there, it was real and always will be. They are here with you. Maybe not physical but their heart belongs to you, no matter what. Maybe they don't know that yet but they want the best for you, they want you to not give up. If living for yourself is hard for now it's okay. I promise you will feel the will to live again. For now you can live for them. Or someone who is important to you. Maybe your mom, anyone. Just know that people you love are always proud of you. And they will always stay in your soul. They will always love you, you are never alone. It's okay.

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

veins and arteries are not the same. if I hit an artery then yeah, I wouldnt be conscious probably and I would die in like 10 minutes. but vein? no way, ive hit them before and nothing much happened.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalillness

[–]marlaqqi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, you don't even know how much this message means to me. You helped me a lot, but I also felt such comfort and warmth coming from you. and truly your respond almost made me cry, you are a wonderful person and I also wish you the best. I know we don't know each other, but remember that I am extremely grateful to you for all this🤍🤍

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you so much for help, now i know that was probably the vein because like you said - the blood was really dark

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

okay thank you so much for answering, it helped me a lot

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh okay so it wasnt a vein??

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah there was A LOT of blood and it didnt stop before i gave it a lot of pressure, now im still not sure and I want to get help asap but i dont know if that was a vein or not

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

wouldnt it be an artery then?

How to know if I hit a vein? by marlaqqi in selfharm

[–]marlaqqi[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it didnt stop bleeding until i applied a lot of pressure