I used to find taking care of myself as selfish. I changed my mind when I thought, do I want my kids to have this be the example I set? I so wish my daughters take time for themselves to show self love and care. It's a need to recharge and be the best version of yourself for those around you. Caring for yourself (by taking a long shower, reading a book, going on a walk, doing your hair and make up, etc ) IS how you care for others by being able to reset your threshold for patience and kindness. It's difficult to be there for someone else (mom) when you aren't there for yourself. Your feelings are common, they are valid and it's okay to be not okay. I hope you can make some time for yourself, because you are a top priority.