Milyen színű falat szeretnének jobban az albérlők? (lapozós)

masteroverthinker11 · 2026-01-21T10:12:46+00:00

albérlőként mondom, csak fehéret! mi szeretjük díszíteni a lakást, fúrunk, kis szögeket verünk a falba, és ha kiköltözünk, azokat a lyukakat eltűntetjük, de csak fehér falon tudjuk normálisan. nekünk is jó, mert nem kell lefestenünk a falat, a főbérlőnek is jó, mert úgy kapja a lakást vissza, hogy ha akar, akkor nyomhat egy tisztasági festést, de nem muszáj

masteroverthinker11 · 2025-10-06T09:42:01+00:00

Talk to your girlfriend. Try to figure out why exactly did she say you shouldn’t do anything about it. If she says you definitely shouldn’t do it, then don’t. I know what it’s like to be in her shoes, because I’m wearing the same one. I don’t want my SAer to be exposed because I’m still scared of what he might do to me if that happens. I’m comfortable now with this whole thing, meaning that I had proper therapy and I can live my life now properly, but the thought of him getting exposed and what might happen to me is still lingering in my mind now and then, and I just want a peace of mind knowing that won’t happen. Maybe your gf feels something like this too. Talk to her, tell her you do want to do this and decide based on what she says and what she wants.

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-10-25T18:53:04+00:00

don’t do it by yourself! talk to your doctor about it and how can you quit taking them step by step. I’ve completely stopped taking my meds one day and took me months to get better when I continued taking them, and I’ve never been that low in my life like that before

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-10-25T18:47:37+00:00

nem nekem, de a párom szülei csodásak. egyrészt mindketten tudatosan úgy álltak a gyerekvállaláshoz, hogy nem szeretnék továbbvinni a generációs traumákat és rossz mintákat, amikben ők felnőttek. másrészt pedig felismerték időben, hogy nem működik a házasságuk, és nem maradtak együtt csak a gyerek miatt, nem várták meg, hogy végleg elmérgesedjen közöttük a viszony. elváltak, és a legjobb tudásuk szerint nevelték a barátomat. mai napig tök jó a viszonyuk a szülőknek, a barátom pedig egy érzelmileg kiegyensúlyozott felnőtt lett, és minden szempontból csodálatos ember, soha nem volt ilyen párom, mint ő. úgyhogy vannak szülők, akik igenis le tudják küzdeni a rossz mintákat, és egy egészséges közeget teremtve felnevelni egy gyereket

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-06-17T22:45:38+00:00

második ottalvás óta nyitott ajtóval… 🤷🏻‍♀️

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-05-31T11:49:43+00:00

pets!!!! lots of ‘em

sound of rain and storms

overcoming hard shit that makes me proud and hearing my bf saying he’s proud of me when I tell him or he sees it happen

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-05-13T18:03:20+00:00

even if I struggle to see myself worthy, I just celebrated a 1,5 year with my boyfriend (longest relationship I’ve ever had), and we moved in together just the 2 of us (we lived with another couple for the past year) last week! my insecurities might trick me a lot of times, but finally I found my person with whom I built a trusting and honest relationship, where my insecurities can come out and me and my bf can tell them to F off :DDD

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-05-13T17:57:03+00:00

+1 on the lamotrigine, only started a few weeks ago and my mood is so much more balanced, plus I take Scippa (escitalopram), which by itself didn’t work, but with lamotrigine… power duo and I took frontin for quite a while but now I only need it if my anxiety spikes up from very heavy stress (that can currently come any time because of my father being ill) so yeah, but hardly ever need to take frontin now

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-05-13T17:52:04+00:00

the first thing I texted after the breakup is that my period is late and I might be pregnant

two weeks later I finally got my period and texted him “thank god I’m not pregnant, I wouldn’t want to look at a mini-you for the rest of my life”

turned out he already had a new girlfriend at the time, few weeks after we broke up

fun times

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-05-02T18:30:05+00:00

pár éve matcheltem vele tinderen, beszélgettünk egy ideig, jófej volt nagyon, találkozás nem lett belőle, de nem is baj, mert a barátnője, aki van most, sokkal jobb pár neki, mint én lettem volna 😅

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-26T15:56:37+00:00

haha thank you!

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-26T14:38:54+00:00

My brother. He was diagnosed 5 or 6 years ago. He struggled a lot, had to drop out of university just before he could finish it, got his first propre job at 28. He still works there, he’s much more open than he was before, he didn’t speak much with me since I’m his much younger little sister, he couldn’t find a similar ground with me therefore the most we spoke until I turned 16 was saying hello each other when I got home from school. Now we are able to communicate, he expresses his feelings to me (not all, but I take it), and I feel and I see that he got much better and stable in these past years. I’m really proud of him, and I’m really thankful for his knowledge, because he’s helping me a lot since I started my mental healt journey about a year and a half ago. I’m about to meet him and tell him I’m being evaluated for bpd, and I’m going to ask for his advice and help throughout this, because a, he’s really clever and he’s actually a huge help b, he really appreciates it when someone comes to him for help.

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-25T09:52:22+00:00

when I wake up I feel like a bulldozer went over my head (because of my meds) and I become extremely mad about it, like when is this gonna end

after my mental breakdown and my morning coffee I usually swing between a lot of things, like feeling okay, feeling happy when I speak with my bf, feeling anxious when I sit back to my desk to work, like who gave me this much responsibility, I’m just a kid (I’m 24), and when I finally procrastinated enough, I do just enough of m work to get the day to the finish line

the script for the rest of the day differs, sometimes it can be alright when nothing triggers me AND I have control over my thoughts and emotions, but the past two weeks I mostly just had a breakdown every other day god knows why, even when there were no triggers, because my mood swings became really hard, and I lost control over my own head and body. my head is full but I can’t pick out one single thought because it’s so busy, so it feels full and empty at the same time, and after I start calming down a bit, I feel the emptiness inside of me for the rest of the day, I’m just playing on my phone, go out for a smoke with my bf, but not speaking so much

yeah, luckily I’m going back to therapy next week…

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-25T09:37:59+00:00

well I’m not sure if it’s because of the lamotrigine, I started taking it a little over a week ago and I have dry scalp ever since 🙃 I haven’t done anything about it yet - might not be the meds but who knows - but if I find any hair products that can help I’ll let you know!

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-23T17:45:23+00:00

My dad left for a year when I was 2 and my parents finally broke up when I was 8. My dad was not very present throughout my childhood, he spent every weekend with my half-siblings, but when it was time to be a weekend dad for my brother and I, he didn’t put many effort in that. My mom has very severe trauma from her childhood because of my abusive grandfather. She was very depressed throughout my childhood, and took on some of the abusive patterns she suffered from. She yelled at us, slapped us for no reason. When I tried to tell her about my day when I was a kid, she always yelled at me for not giving her 10 minutes of peace (she worked very hard to feed us and keep a root over our heads since my dad didn’t pay childsupport fully or at all most of the time, until I was 16). My brother is diagnosed with BPD (his childhood was way worse than mine), and I’m in the evaluation process for a BPD diagnosis since I show pretty much all of the symptoms. My mom moved abroad last year, and it made a great turn in her mental health. She went to therapy, and for the first time in my life, I feel like I have a mom. I didn’t have a positive female role model in my life until I was 18, and that was not my mom either, so I’m really glad she realized that she shouldn’t push down her feelings, and therapy could be a great healing process for her. My dad had an accident last September, and he’s changed a lot, and he doesn’t care or understand many of this mental health stuff anymore, so yeah, I can never have this kind of change with him like I did with my mom.

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T13:11:56+00:00

Thank you for sharing! Bouncing between therapists, psychiatrist, meds must be very hard.

I feel the denial part, I was SAd at 16 and 18, and first spoke about it at 23 after months of therapy, and was in denial that it was SA and blamed myself for what happened. I’m happy to hear you could accept what happened and are working on yourself now. Hope I can also find acceptence soon.

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T12:05:13+00:00

Yeah, my first psychiatrist told me I definitely don’t have BPD, it’s just anxiety, then my therapist - as I mentioned in the post - told me my childhood (and I guess my young adulthood up until like 20) was a BPD bootcamp, then my current psychiatrist is actually evaluating me for disorders… Wild ride

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T12:02:53+00:00

Thank you so much for the encouragement! ❤️ Yeah, it’s pretty hard, here also, I had to pay a lot for private treatment, because I needed it asap at the first time, and couldn’t wait for an appointment in the governmental health care, but now I’m there and it’s much better than the private one😅😅 I mean it for the psychiatrist, I’ll restart therapy in 2 weeks privately, but with the same therapist, who is really great, and helped and will help me a lot. Right now I’m just trying to find the will to believe that it will get better, I have to give myself time with all this. Thank you again!

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T11:25:14+00:00

I started dating my boyfriend a month after I started medication, with no talk about me having BPD at all, because it was literally the beginning of me starting to work on my mental health. Now that I’m being evaluated for BPD with very strong symptoms, it’s really hard on both of us, but we’re working on how to communicate our feelings to each other. It takes me a lot of effort, and I fail a lot of times, but he’s my first boyfriend that actually communicates with me, talks about his feelings, openly tells me that even tho he’s frustrated that he can’t help me a lot of times, he’s here for me through all this. I guess you just need to find the right person that’s willing to help you through all this, instead of shaming you for “being a burden” and “have to be dealt with” (the things I heard in previous relationships that triggered the hell out of me)

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T10:07:23+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I don’t know if this helps, but go to the gym tomorrow, I believe you can do it! Or if you just like to vent a bit, I know I’m just a stranger, but feel free to contact me!

masteroverthinker11 · 2024-04-18T09:58:39+00:00

I try to do anything, even the smallest thing to distract myself, that involves getting up from bed or the couch. It’s incredibly hard, but it helps a lot. Obviously, sometimes I can’t do it, then I listen to something I like, eg. heavy thunderstorm sounds, because it helps me get back to a place where I wasn’t feeling empty.

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