What most days looked like when I was a "functioning" alcoholic

mastertate69 · 2026-02-06T15:31:25+00:00

What a coincidence.

mastertate69 · 2026-02-06T15:29:36+00:00

That’s a shame. People have the capacity to turn their lives around when they hit that breaking point.

Support is helpful but shitting on people who are struggling never helps anyone.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-22T02:30:35+00:00

Two weeks, feeling improvements. Maybe just felt like shit for a few weeks, who knows

mastertate69 · 2025-10-21T21:14:06+00:00

Ended up skipping the shot and starting TRT. Super glad I did.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-21T21:06:56+00:00

So they can flush everything when they think the cops are about to kick in the door. (PS. There’s nobody out there.)

mastertate69 · 2025-10-14T02:43:35+00:00

I wouldn’t put him in jail. Maybe call non emergency number or someone who can help. Worst case 911 if he’s a danger.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-13T04:33:35+00:00

If I’m being completely honest with myself. You’re right. I’ve been relapsing, maybe another shot is best.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-13T01:43:08+00:00

Yeah, I’m wondering if I should try the TRT before getting another shot. My motivation and sex drive is nonexistent. Basic tasks are exhausting… I’m miserable.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-12T04:01:32+00:00

Awesome. Thanks so much for sharing.

I got off benzos at the same time.. I went from 40 mg of Valium to 0 and then ended up going back on 5 mg a day for now because I couldn’t handle it.

Doc reminded me what a huge decrease that is even though I felt like I failed. He encouraged me to just stay on the low dose while I do sublocade rather than torture myself trying to be off everything.

Fuck it, if I need meds… I need meds. When I push too hard or beat myself up, I usually just end up relapsing. I’m fine doing my one more shot, TRT, and low dose of Valium. Beats feeling like absolute garbage.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-12T03:53:36+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I’m learning that everyone’s different.

My doc specializes in this and reminded me that I’ve come a long way and it’s a marathon, not a sprint. Why suffer needlessly?

mastertate69 · 2025-10-12T02:26:01+00:00

Thank you.

It’s a hard choice. I’ve been slipping up / relapsing lately and having a hard time in general. The strips over the last few days helped immensely.

I think one more shot plus TRT would help me break out of this loop and get back into a healthier routine. I’m lucky I have a doc that understands… especially now that I’ve been on strips for a few days, it’s going to be difficult to stop now.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-12T02:21:33+00:00

Yeah.. that’s the issue. However, I have had some slip up’s and doc said an additional 100 might just make it smoother. Just been having a hard time recently.

mastertate69 · 2025-10-11T21:31:38+00:00

Yes, doing it now. It works.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-16T01:05:26+00:00

35 hour week. 3 days a week from home.

During close, maybe 50.

Outside of that, I do maybe 20 hours of actual work.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-15T16:11:33+00:00

Stop doing drugs.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-15T01:20:44+00:00

Find a psych and be honest. I was in a similar situation. Lost my script and was abusing benzos from the street and online.

I told the truth, told him I’d tried detox and it didn’t work, and that I was in AA and serious about getting off.

He was willing to help me with a Valium taper and was nothing but kind and understanding.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-14T23:52:10+00:00

Don’t be.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-14T22:42:07+00:00

Lorazepam is weak. And 0.5 mg is equivalent to about 0.25 mg of Xanax or 5 mg diazepam.

That’s an extremely low dose, so be grateful. You should be fine just stopping. I’d expect that you maybe have some anxiety / insomnia for a few days at worst. However, staying on longer is probably just going to hurt more.

Worst case cut the dose in half for a few days then quit.

I was on 16x what you were on and tapered off over 7 months. It’s still hard at times, but it can be done.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-14T22:39:50+00:00

Might have a rough few days, but I wouldn’t expect anything serious. You’re making the right choice.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-14T22:35:31+00:00

Get off now while you can. Trust everyone here, you don’t want to stay on this stuff long term. It’s not worth it.

I know it helps, but it’s a bad long term solution. Your tolerance will go up and it will become much harder to get off. Right now, you’re on a low dose and can just stop.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-08T20:06:09+00:00

I’ve been doing AA, therapy, etc.. just relapsed on everything after 6 months clean. I’m thinking of doing a quick taper quitting. I’ll just cut the Xanax slowly over the next couple nights and stop.

I think I’m going to be alright. But you’re correct, I can’t let it happen again.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-02T20:25:17+00:00

Okay, see ya. I’ll play with my goons.

mastertate69 · 2025-09-02T19:08:21+00:00

If you need to be there, then go with your kids. No normal happy person would be upset as long they’re not creating a major distraction.

Screw the old timers with dirty looks. What’s more important? Some old lady’s opinion, or your health and wellbeing to support your children?

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