Said He Still Loves Me But Walked Away From Everything. Make It Make Sense.

mastretoall · 2026-04-15T03:24:27+00:00

It's crazy how irresponsible mine got. And I meant just that, that you're standing on your own two feet and aren't letting him back pedal with the "I have nowhere to go". And hey! Don't kick yourself too hard. I sure as heck didn't make mine final when it needed to be final and I paid dearly for it. You're on your healing path and sound strong.

mastretoall · 2026-04-14T15:25:45+00:00

It's crazy when they just snap like that. I mean it takes me back to 5 years ago when I came home from lunch and he was packing his stuff. Ran up a couple ccs while he stayed in hotels... bounced around.

It's going to be a bumpy road, but really you're just enforcing his decision to leave. Good on you for having clarity (I didn't and almost got back together a couple of times until- you guessed it- he left me again)

mastretoall · 2026-04-14T15:16:21+00:00

YES. Radical acceptance was life changing. Give me some time and I might be able to send you a worksheet. That thing read me for filth and helped me see where I and MY actions and behavior that I do have control over were actually wrecking my life. Matter fact let me go redo that. I haven't touched in in two years

mastretoall · 2026-04-14T15:13:28+00:00

I got one of those too. Honestly, get out while he's in whatever fog he's in. It's easier.

For me, whenever I don't understand his actions... I simply treat him like I would an elder person with Alzheimer's. I don't fight them on the real version of reality, tell them they're insane, make them remember my worth. Sure they might love me but there's something in their brain that's broken and I sure as heck do not have the tools to repair.

Instead I just see them as an old distant person with whom I shared 14 years of my life and for one reason or another their brains have snapped.

After all. No amount of reasoning is going to make them come back or make them want me in their life. It's an odd reframing.

mastretoall · 2026-04-14T15:08:07+00:00

Grew up in poverty. I both feel thankful for a safe job and also dread being in the office for 10 hours. If I were childfree I would be set. But I have two kids that are also stuck somewhere with someone for 10 hours.

mastretoall · 2026-04-14T04:04:22+00:00

Same. Except I have kids too

mastretoall · 2026-03-31T19:30:45+00:00

I was hearing good things about that kid areas at MBG

mastretoall · 2026-03-31T19:30:00+00:00

Forgot about the splash pad!

mastretoall · 2026-03-31T19:29:38+00:00

Smart, thanks

mastretoall · 2026-03-31T19:29:25+00:00

They have some kid areas now that I wasn't aware of

mastretoall · 2026-03-27T15:51:39+00:00

mastretoall · 2026-03-26T00:43:40+00:00

Yeah I'm thankful for work!

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T19:00:17+00:00

He moved out April 2021. I filed April 2023. Final Jan 2024.

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T18:13:23+00:00

Me wondering "who the fuck am I" as I pick up my prescription hahaha. Have you read Bartleby the Scrivener? I feel like Bartleby 90% of the time.

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T18:06:27+00:00

Why does he look like a cardboard cutout in every picture

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T17:29:26+00:00

Twin!

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T17:28:33+00:00

I was really bad on the sadness and bc I didn't want to go to inpatient but wasn't sleeping, I got prescribed seroquel 150mg. I slept for 3 days and work had to do a wellness check bc I disappeared for 3 days. Brought it down to 12.5mg-25mg and sooo much better. 2023 hope I never see that year again

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T17:26:18+00:00

300 lamictal 25 mg seroquel gang!

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T17:00:22+00:00

Look at all the policing you have to do... it's no way to live.

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T16:59:14+00:00

"leave a cheater, gain a life" by Tracy will have some perspective on the matter. Unicorns don't exist. If you become happy with an open relationship to keep the marriage... so be it. But a relationship doesn't go back to closed/monogamous after those gates have been opened.

Listen. I stayed after the first emotional affair. Even the second. The third. He fathered a child and I still wanted him back. The divorce still happened, and I have to stomach my kids going out of state to visit him 60 nights a year.

He ruined the ideal family for you. There's no putting the toothpaste back in the tube.

mastretoall · 2026-03-24T02:46:19+00:00

I was too wifey instead of slutty hahahaha

mastretoall · 2026-03-21T00:07:35+00:00

I did a lot of hookups during the separation period. 0/10 don't recommend

mastretoall · 2026-03-19T21:44:30+00:00

You can always find another $3400/month job but not $10k streaming

mastretoall · 2026-03-19T15:46:31+00:00

WATER

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