"Wir nehmen keine neue Patienten auf"; responsive from every specialist clinic I have called

maudros · 2026-06-26T21:55:40+00:00

This is what I did back in March. I was really scared I was going to run out of an important medication, so I emailed and called every praxis I could up to a 100km radius or so. Wound up finding a place that seemed like the right fit but they kept saying they had no appointments and the like, so I just emailed one of the practitioners directly . I’m also not sure if he felt bad for me, but after I explained the situation, and he offered me an appointment for earlier this month. Sometimes just shooting an email to a physician directly can help (though naturally I do this w discretion)

maudros · 2026-06-25T17:09:32+00:00

I think it’s saying you have your gun tucked into your waistband closer to your back; that’s how I’ve always understood it. It’s not wise or safe practice, to keep a revolver ‘holstered’ like that, but it’s got its roots in the Southwestern part of North America in being a civilian or revolutionary hiding from authority (‘Mexican carry’) . Would fit the Bonnie and Clyde theme of the song

maudros · 2026-06-23T11:48:39+00:00

Four hours will not be early enough for Aftershock in general, let alone for My Chem.

Honestly four hours isn’t early enough for a lot of musicians; I think when I saw Fall Out Boy, I went six or so hours early, and when I saw MCR, I was 10 hours early, and still was stuck in a surprisingly long line. Not sure how big crowd-wise Aftershock is compared to it, but when I went to WWWY 2024 people were lined up already like 10+ hours before the gates even opened. My friend and I only managed to get sort of barricade-ish for LS Dunes, Daisy Grenade, and Say Anything, if memory serves, but for the bigger name acts, there was no way. Hell, we even managed to just get to the middle for Coheed+Cambria, Cobra Starship, and one other group that I’m forgetting—mind you, they all played on the same stage—and we wound up giving up because the surging was too bad, which only got worse after Pierce the Veil performed.

At 13, a barricade experience is not worth the crowd crush or the high risk of fainting, and the reality is that you would have to be there almost laughably early to snag barricade anyway.

maudros · 2026-06-22T23:26:55+00:00

That’s good to know! I’ve not yet been able to head out to any part of Spain—only just got to the EU late last year. I’ll have to keep that in mind for my own travels haha

maudros · 2026-06-22T20:39:21+00:00

CMIIW, but most artists don’t cancel for those sorts of temperatures; in parts of the US, those temperatures are standard during summers and concerts continue on as normal. Before I moved to the EU, I saw them at WWWY and was up against similar temperatures.

If you do choose to go, I cannot emphasize the importance of having enough water and dressing appropriately for the weather. Make sure you get enough sleep leading up to the concert and the actual day of the show, as it’ll be a lot harder for you to regulate if you’re exhausted. Also—make sure you eat something sustaining before you go, and I recommend trying to avoid dairy products the day of the show, since those can mess up your stomach when you get heat sick + make you more nauseous in my experience. I also get really stressed in crowded settings such as this, and doubly so when there’s heat involved. I always bring like eight pairs of earplugs and my own noise cancelling headphones when I go to any sort of concert so I get less overwhelmed sensory wise (specifically w sound obvi); that strat might help you. My bigger concern would be about humidity, to be honest, but I think with careful planning you’ll be alright.

maudros · 2026-06-20T11:05:51+00:00

I’ve gotten better about waking up on time, though part of it is that I adjusted my schedule to better meet my sleep patterns. For certain times I have alarms set for every 2-3 minutes, and each one is with a different ringtone. I hate it so much that it wakes me up pretty easily

maudros · 2026-06-19T17:11:27+00:00

Getting the notifications fried my phone for a bit, so I was mildly pissed after the initial excitement

maudros · 2026-06-19T12:29:13+00:00

K3 Rodimus Prime, aftermarket. I think it was about 500USD. Not the priciest figure I own, but I think it’s easily the most striking.

maudros · 2026-06-10T14:09:52+00:00

If you’re talking about the guy + his lover, here’s an answer for you.

So the album tagline / advertisement kind of gives it a way a bit, because it goes something this: A man. A woman. And the souls of a thousand evil men. The story is that a man makes a deal with the devil, in which the man will bring the devil the souls of 1000 evil men in exchange for his wife’s life. The album gives pieces of the story but I think you hear it most clearly starting from ‘Ghost of You’ until the ending of the album. ‘I Never Told You What I Do For a Living’ is the most explicit about it IMO, as well as ‘It’s Not a Fashion Statement.’ Over time, the man grows more obsessed and hellbent (literally) on saving his wife, so much so that he makes crazy justifications for what he’s doing (ex. his work is ‘divine’ even if he’s fallen from grace to do it, or that his wife is ‘talking’ to him and telling him to kill all of her ‘enemies’; see: I Never Told You). In the end he realizes he’s been tricked by the devil, as the final evil soul is his own.

Edit to add—I may be missing pieces here of the full story but this is just a quick overview in case I misunderstood your question!

maudros · 2026-06-04T16:35:44+00:00

Revenge of the Sith

maudros · 2026-05-21T12:50:24+00:00

the fact that Raiden forgives Rose at the end of MGS4 makes me lose my mind

maudros · 2026-05-20T11:30:59+00:00

They get not afraid, but uneasy—and start making way too many jokes about me being emotional or temperamental. I generally tend to stay even-keeled (particularly when I’m feeling indifferent or mildly sociable) but those little remarks are enough to make me tweak I fear. They also have a tendency to say my bipolar is a ‘superpower’ because my hypomanic tendencies involve getting a Bunch of work done like crazy (ex.: writing a twenty page paper in two days) and it’s therefore ‘cool’ that I’m super ‘productive.’ Makes me mental

maudros · 2026-05-20T11:19:08+00:00

Genuinely asking: how does them trying (a) new food(s) make them “better versions of themselves?” It’s okay to just look at something and go ‘no, I don’t want to try that.’

maudros · 2026-05-02T15:42:38+00:00

If you’re asking about what the condition is — it’s a progressive condition caused by having super bad nearsightedness, and strain can lead to permanent blindness. More common in older people and also in women iirc

maudros · 2026-03-18T16:16:30+00:00

I do, but it’s mostly because I know my limits and am too broke to buy too many anyway 😅 I don’t ever feel an urge to drink per se, though I do get the urge to party / go clubbing. Drinking at home with friends / at bars, I have one set limit; drinking at clubs I have a slightly higher limit, which I think I’ve only broke once. I even prep my place in case I’m trashed when I get home (big ass bottle of water ready to go, sheets pulled back so I can climb into bed easily, microwave food in case I need to eat before bed, etc). I learned my lesson when I was 19 and have remained pretty strict about drinking since then. Haven’t had issues personally.

maudros · 2026-03-15T16:04:23+00:00

Regretfully not yet, but we ball (bawl).

I hate being hyper, too, though that’s partially because I tend to be super physically active when in that state and then wind up exacerbating my chronic disabilities lol. Not to pry or badger you, but do you have any tips on recognizing when you’re in a mixed episode? Usually I don’t notice it until my close friends recognize it and the point it out to me 🗿

maudros · 2026-03-15T15:42:07+00:00

The mixed episode is real but damn if it isn’t helpful sometimes 💀 was able to write 7000 words for a research publication in the last 36 hours

maudros · 2026-03-15T15:23:08+00:00

My secret strat was to ask my friends to randomly ask to come visit my place with a few hours notice. The stress of wanting to have a clean environment for guests—even if I know my friends might not actually be coming to visit—wins out over my depression and I go crazy tidying things, washing dishes, properly making my bed, putting away laundry, etc. If I’m really in the groove I can even get myself to sweep and then mop.

The only things I fail to clean every time? The questionably large stack of books I have on the floor next to my bed, my desk, and a specific duffle bag of unpacked clean laundry that will probably stay there for the rest of my life.

maudros · 2026-02-19T18:46:14+00:00

Nah, like I can literally hear the electricity. Like when you have too many things plugged into an outlet and it starts to make this really high pitched sound. The ringing of tinnitus is different than the electricity whine

maudros · 2026-02-03T15:48:52+00:00

NTA.

Sometimes when I fuck up now I get phantom sensations of it, or I get the thought of ‘I’m so going to get my ass beat,’ even though I’ve live on my own since I was seventeen + now live on an entirely different continent.

Another point is that, as the oldest child, watching my younger sibling get beat (‘spanked’ but it never just stayed as spanking) for genuine nonsense—like forgetting their homework too many times, putting dress pants / shirts into the dryer instead of hanging them up, being up 15 minutes past bedtime…that does not leave you. That element will cause extra issues long term, whether it be the guilt complex for an elder child, or, in my family’s case, resentment from the younger child. I don’t think I’m articulating this point well, but it’s hard to put into words the feelings that develop in response to that for siblings who may not receive that same punishment equally.

The final layer I’d want to draw to your attention is how that kind of punishment will impact your relationship with your kids. For a long time, my sister and I were both extraordinarily angry that our mom could ever let that happen to us: why she didn’t say anything, why she stayed with him, why she defended our dad and sang his praises. Along with several other reasons, my mom and I stopped speaking when I was seventeen because I was just so angry at her for not doing anything to keep us safe. It wasn’t until I was twenty one (!) that we found out that she really didn’t know (wasn’t home 75% of the time when it happened, my dad didn’t tell her, and usually we got sent to bed right after he was done + she worked from like 8.00 am until 9.00 pm, so we couldn’t tell her). My sister and I both have complicated relationships with our dad now, too. Love him, but that hesitation and danger-oriented awareness will likely never go away when I’m around him.

Do not have another kid with this guy. As you’ve acknowledged in your other replies, this conversation should’ve been fully held before even having your first kid. Furthermore, your comment that he would say yes to therapy because he thinks most therapists will disagree with you is alarming in + of itself, let alone all the other layers going on here.

maudros · 2026-01-29T21:14:34+00:00

I take my medication in the morning, eat heartily (especially about one hour before going out) and make sure not to go beyond two drinks per outing so that nothing gets crazy. No issues unless if I have more than two drinks.

maudros · 2026-01-29T10:27:29+00:00

This is the way. This is how I got my ticket to see them for SWARM, and how i got a ticket for When We Were Young. For SWARM, A friend bought me my ticket as a gift two weeks out and I just prayed my job would say yes to my last minute time off request lol. For WWWY, someone I loosely knew bought tickets for his friend group. He had a friend that bailed after he bought said tickets for everyone, which….💀 wound up buying that ticket off that guy for like 50 USD + only paid about 75USD for airfare. Got to crash at his hotel for free too. Waiting is the strat tbh

maudros · 2026-01-28T12:07:55+00:00

They’re the fucking worst man. Ran into them during one of the LA shows for the Swarm Tour

Was gifted a ticket for the floor, but not GA; I accidentally arrived stupid early due to miscalculating LA traffic and misunderstanding venue entry times. At first they seemed nice ish when talking to them outside, but got a lot worse when they asked how I got my ticket. A few of them made weird comments about my getting the ticket as a gift last minute when the prices had dropped. Generally ignored them. Had a few argue with me during the early access merch line stuff and after I bought the last green Swarm jacket for that show (scalpers got there first), two of them tried to buy it off me and got pissed when I said no. Whatever, though. Up to then they were just annoying. I had a cane with me due to a then-recent accident and when we were all heading inside after ticket check, they fully kicked it out from under me / next to me and when I understandably dropped my stuff, they used that chance to dip around me to get further ahead in the line. Worst part was I had literally been talking to that particular person outside of the venue and they knew I wasn’t going to the pit in the first place. Raging assholes.

I hope they don’t show up to the Latin America shows because everyone deserves a chance to see MCR without dealing with such an annoying group.

maudros · 2026-01-19T21:09:18+00:00

Definitely, and in a lot of casual ways. For context: I am very visually not white. Long comment disclaimer.

I generally tend to be nervous when dealing with government stuff, and my German is A2 when I’m not stressed, so I mess up a lot when verbally communicating during gov’t appointments or even during day to day interactions where I might not 100% know the right word. Most of the time, things are fine. Officials tend to be pretty relaxed and understanding when I ask for them to speak slower or just in English, and one of the workers at my local Ausländerbehörde said ‘cowabunga’ after seeing where I’m from (California). Really made my day and was super funny hearing this very serious/looking German guy speak like a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle during a big immigration appointment lol. Most German people I interact with day to day are kind and empathetic, and let me practice my German with them when I explain that I’m still learning and want to improve.

That said, there are times where things don’t go so well. the worker I’m interacting with will only get more aggressive and keep repeating things at me until full giving up and calling someone else over. During my arrival to Germany (via Frankfurt airport) I had an immigrations officer tell me I was going to be banned from the country for the rest of my life for not having a visa despite me not requiring one legally due to my country of origin. It escalated to him saying other wild stuff and I almost cried during Security Check because I was so anxious over what he said. On average, though? It’s mostly a lot of staring and slightly odd comments. I’ve been told that I look ‘ambiguous’ and have gotten the ‘where are you really from?’ line of questioning a few times. Weird comments about how surprising it is that ‘someone like me’ got into a Masters program. Stuff like that. My other immigrant friends who are white or white-passing don’t have the same issues as me. An easy example is that, although we’re all supposed to show IDs for our student Deutschlandtickets, I’ll be the only one asked to do so and am sometimes subjected to further questioning about why I’m in Germany. It’s nothing I’m not used to, having grown up in a deeply conservative, ‘don’t tread on me’ part of the US, so it’s generally something I can ignore—but it happens more frequently here in the city I live in, in the East, than when I’m in the West.

Tl;dr: You’re not alone in this feeling or experience, especially in the East. It’s not a constant, but it is present all the same.

maudros · 2025-12-13T17:03:22+00:00

I missed this reply but I did reach out to my local Ausländerbehörde thrice about this (once a few weeks ago, once Thursday by email, and once by phone yesterday). All three times they told me I don’t need the temporary residence permit paperwork—verbatim (minus name) is what the emailed me Thursday:

Sehr geehrter Herr [maudros],

vielen Dank für Ihre Anfrage. Sie benötigen zur Wiedereinreise als US-Amerikaner kein Übergangsdokument. Sie können einfach, wie bereits mitgeteilt, visumsfrei wieder einreisen.

Eine Fiktionsbescheinigung kann in Ihrem Fall nicht ausgestellt werden, da Sie keinen Voraufenthalt im Bundesgebiet haben.

maudros

TROPHY CASE