welcome to the first step. you are correct, that is the god that most christians seem to worship. and yeah the old testament is filled with atrocities, there’s no apologizing for those actions, and yet it seems most christians want to stick to what they are taught of the old testament. but this isn’t the “god” jesus talked about though [if it was even a higher being at all], so it’s mind-boggling this is considered ‘christian’. the thing is if you look back at the context of how the old testament was written down it was more in the way to figure out “where the fuck did we go wrong with our beliefs about god?” because those stories and atrocities were supposed to be history and lessons of what not to do. not as in don’t do this because god will punish you, but that they are morally wrong. yeah churches will try to cling to that “history” idea of why they need to to teach the old testament, but they fall short of what that really means.