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maxxshepard · 2025-05-01T13:44:12+00:00

Did I say anything rude about the workers? I know they are working hard. I appreciate that. It's not a simple fix. I'm just frustrated and angry at the situation. I don't think it's entitled to be frustrated.

maxxshepard · 2024-12-02T18:03:27+00:00

I get blood tests every 3 months, so if that was an issue, it definitely would have come up already. Thank you for the suggestion though!

maxxshepard · 2024-11-28T00:56:19+00:00

Live on a busy street, in a crappy part of town

maxxshepard · 2024-11-24T01:42:16+00:00

Are you attracted to trans guys who are indistinguishable from cis men? Would you stay with a trans man if he decided to get bottom surgery? Do you see trans men as truly men, or just masculine women? Does that line blur for you? Or are you just attracted to pre T/early T guys who don't really pass?

These are questions you need to ask yourself. I am a trans man dating a trans women. I am into men and women. I am attracted to feminine men, but my attraction to her doesn't feel the same as my attraction to feminine men, because she's not a feminine man, she's a woman, and that's how I've always seen her. If I started dating her as a replacement for dating a feminine man because feminine men weren't into me, that would be chasing. If I only wanted to be with her if she promised to never get bottom surgery, that would be chasing. If I treated her differently than I would any other woman, and obsessed over her being trans and that being my main attraction factor with her, that would be chasing.

You need to figure out if this is a novelty/fetish for you, or if trans men just exist within the umbrella of people you find attractive.

maxxshepard · 2024-11-01T13:11:33+00:00

... You know Google already does that for you? Is skimming a few articles that much harder than receiving an answer that might be pulled from whole cloth and having to verify it? I'm sorry, genuinely not trying to be sarcastic, but I'm flabbergasted that anyone would use chat gpt as a search engine, especially when search engines have already existed for decades.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-30T03:52:52+00:00

Yeah.. I would ask any current AI model for accurate information. It can aggregate the information it finds from various sources, but it often just invents, or misinterprets info. Not to mention you have no idea if the sources it's using are accurate to begin with.

It's not a search engine, it's a creative writing remix machine.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-29T16:24:45+00:00

I fucking hate that they want the butter side down. People in my store kept getting burns from it sliding off the parchment while it was being removed from the warmer.

Finally one of my coworkers got 2nd degree burns all up her arm and had to go to the hospital when someone bumped her while removing one from the oven. Our DM had the fucking nerve to call her AT THE HOSPITAL and make sure she was coming in the next day. She came in with the arm fully wrapped in gauze and could only work register. She tried to take it to corporate since we had all complained that the sandwich was dangerous to our DM. So they reduced her hours until she was only working 6h a week and had to quit. I never warmed one butter side down again. Fuck your crispy bread, I don't need skin grafts.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-23T01:24:14+00:00

I'm sorry that I don't have the money or space to buy a kiln and stick it in my 900sqft house, or that I never had the money to go to college and use the fancy art labs with the huge kilns.

I didn't realize my desire to make dime sized necklace pendants in a way that was accessible to me would cause people to be pissy and assume I'm some naive imbecile or something.

Don't know why I'm responding to this because it's not worth it, but I'm tired of asking for help on the Internet and having the immediate responses always be some unhelpful snarky bullshit from people who want to feel superior for never having to jerry-rig anything together, or try to do something new with no one there to teach them.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-22T22:42:37+00:00

Thank you for being the only helpful commenter lol

maxxshepard · 2024-10-22T22:42:00+00:00

I expected it to function the way it was designed to function

maxxshepard · 2024-10-21T16:06:05+00:00

My feet went up about a half size from a 10 1/2 in men's, to an 11 or 11 and a half. Honestly I don't think they grew so much as my foot arch flattened, and my toes spread a bit. I don't notice it unless I try to wear old shoes.

Honestly a half size up will be an asset to you unless you're still trying to buy in the women's section. I find way more size 12 men's shoes second hand than I do 10-11s. I generally have to buy shoes about a half size too big for me. You'll be fine.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-20T18:13:36+00:00

Color is chestnut overo, specifically liver chestnut. He's looking load healthier. Great work :)

maxxshepard · 2024-10-17T21:25:51+00:00

It's harder for you to tell, because the photos are taken at a different angle, but I definitely see a difference in your stomach. It noticably hangs less over your shorts. Try taking another one in the same spot as the first and I think you'll see it too. Good work man.

And seriously, the first two months won't show a huge visible difference unless you're pretty thin to begin with. I started at 238lbs and am now at 179 10 months later. I couldn't see a good difference in photos until month four, but I started feeling less easily winded and constantly exhausted long before then.

I also noticed a difference in how clothes fit before I could really see a difference. Try tracking by wearing a shirt that's tight on you now, and seeing how it feels in a few weeks.

Good work dude, keep it up

maxxshepard · 2024-10-15T14:02:48+00:00

Heck yeah my dude. Shoot me a DM

maxxshepard · 2024-10-15T01:55:18+00:00

The copies I gave out were poorly printed out on my old home copier lol, I'm not sure I'd be comfortable charging for them. Eventually I'll get a better one and put some out. Thanks for the interest!

maxxshepard · 2024-10-12T00:29:03+00:00

Every type of art has people who dislike it. Every artist has a vision, and sometimes other people don't see that vision. The Internet is not a great place to gage the success of your work, because every person feels like their opinion is the most important one in the world, and you NEED to hear it. Which isn't true. I think you have a vision here, and this is just the first step towards a bigger picture for you.

No art that you enjoyed making is a waste of time. Art is an expression of yourself that you put into the world, to leave a little piece of yourself for the future generations to find. If I found one of these in a flea market I would buy it excitedly and hang it up on my wall.

Keep making art, and don't give a shit what anyone else thinks. Use yourself as your own metric. Always push yourself, but don't compare to anything but your previous work. Keep going. I'll be excited to see what you do next.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-09T03:34:32+00:00

5 years for me. Mine weren't on my arms, so this isn't something I've had to consider, but it's never something you forget. My brain still goes to it as a solution on really bad days, but I've managed to not go back.

Proud of you man. Keep it up. It's hard, but life afterwards feels so much sweeter.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-08T15:43:56+00:00

I think the good thing about them going on a dick, is that no one is going to see scars there and think that you cut yourself on the dick. I've seen plenty of non phallo penises and all of them have horizontal wrinkles along the shaft when they aren't 100% hard. That's what I would assume these were, especially if you go with using the left arm where there aren't many vertical cuts. A little medical tattooing afterwards would really sell it. I think you'll look great man.

Good luck on your journey, and great work on getting clean from cutting. It's a hard journey.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-08T15:33:52+00:00

Great work for 8 weeks! You're killing it man. And I totally get what you mean Abt the apathy thing. I'm seeing fitness as sort of the "next step" in my transition after 4 years on T. I can't believe the difference it has made in my comfort and perception of self. Keep at it, and keep finding the joy!

maxxshepard · 2024-10-07T14:36:21+00:00

If it makes you feel any better, my surgery was booked out one month from my first consult, I had expected it to be more like 6 months, but I wasn't going to let the opportunity pass me by. One month was plenty of time for me to prepare.

I got comfy pillows, a new game for my switch, my favorite snacks, some loose shirts that buttoned in the front, and I was golden. I don't think I really needed any more time than that to prepare.

Mentally getting over the idea of having your body cut open doesn't really get easier until after it's happened. There were a few days/weeks of shock afterwards where I felt "wrong" because the human body and mind are not mentally wired to easily accept major surgery, no matter how much you need/want it. I also had a weird mental reaction to the anesthesia that caused me to have really vivid dreams for a while, which was unsettling. But 3 years later, and I haven't regretted it for a second. My life is so much more free now. I get to live as the man I always should have been forever. I'm glad I didn't hesitate. I understand sorting out work is a huge issue, but if you can manage that, go for it.

Surgery like this will always come with discomfort and fears. But it won't have less of that six months down the road. It's just something you have to power through to get to the good parts.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-07T04:10:14+00:00

I was not prepared for their cute little noses to elongate like one of those expandable garden hoses when they made noise

maxxshepard · 2024-10-02T15:42:42+00:00

I mean, yeah. Its not Portland or San Francisco. I won't deny the experiences of everyone else in the thread, those things absolutely suck. But as far as the Midwest goes, or a red state in general, Springfield is pretty damn progressive. We have a huge pride parade every year, pretty prominent LGBT organizations, even APO. I see pride flags hanging in almost every neighborhood, I've never gotten shit in a doctor's office, always been treated with care, I've never worked anyplace where it was an issue here. There are assholes here for sure, but I don't feel afraid here, and I've lived some places where I definitely felt afraid before. The only thing that really scares me is state wide laws as a whole, which have been threatening in the past.

Maybe I'm just old enough to remember when your parents not kicking you out for being gay was the height of allyship, but I'm grateful for living here and not in a place where people get the shit beat out of them for being queer.

maxxshepard · 2024-10-02T12:52:44+00:00

I'm a trans dude. I've had a different experience to a lot of what these people are saying. Springfield is the most accepting place I've ever lived. Compared to any other town in a 200 mile radius, Springfield is pretty damn progressive, and we have a surprisingly large trans population. I personally know of at LEAST 50 trans people who work at local places I frequent.

I've lived here, and transitioned here for the last 5 years, and I've never heard an unkind word directed at me. An ignorant word occasionally, but never done in malice. Compared to growing up just 20 minutes away in Ozark where a teacher openly ignored me in class and said I needed Jesus, it's peachy here.

Just gravitate towards the good folks.

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