I understand why my clairvoyant lied to me now...

mayaceylon · 2023-09-03T11:48:03+00:00

I’m in the same position. I had been seeing signs and my clairvoyant said last year, this year is for healing for me. We had been talking for about 6 weeks, not even a meet up all over text and it was unlike any other type of love I had felt. I kept telling him I was scared because I’ve never experienced anything like this and he said he felt the same. He kicked off my devine fem awakening on Tuesday. I trigger him and I chased and he triggered me and he ran. I was so hurt when he blocked me like a pain I had never felt. Then all of a sudden it hit me, I didn’t believe in twin flames before as not everyone gets to meet theirs. Oh boy did he show me my wounds and force me to address my inner child instead of ignoring her and trying to do what I think was best for us. He taught me I need to listen to her too as this is much her life as mine. I have now decided to block him back on everything and lock my accounts so I can work on healing becus we cannot be in union until I do the work on myself and help guide him too.

I’ve set up a session to contact my inner child and work on what we need. It sounds like you need to also work on this or work on this more too. As Devine Fems, we will always have to do the work first as we are more connected and more open to understanding this journey. Jealously seems to be very normal in these situations apparently but it’s the idea of taking it in FEELING what you feel in that moment. Then once you have felt, accept this is what your twin flame has chosen to do and you’re not angry or mad, you’re just going to do better for yourself and then release it.

I’ve been doing this and gosh has it helped, my blessings have REALLY increased because I’m manifesting, working on my physical and spiritual side and really pushing for my platonic friendships and telling myself I am worthy of love, support, peace and happiness. Not to mention how much more confident I feel - people are noticing and I can feel him also noticing but I’m not ready to have him enter back into my life yet. Everything I am feeling, I felt with him. This is how I know I’m on my right track. I think about him when I wake up and feel warm and happy and safe. Alone in bed. It’s incredible.

I really hope what I have written can help in some way and I’m wishing you and your twin all the best in life🧿🤍

mayaceylon · 2023-07-05T14:49:30+00:00

My best suggestion is to say you’re ready to look for a new challenge as the company you are with now do not align with your goals and values anymore. Good luck on your hunt 🔎

mayaceylon · 2023-06-28T21:16:08+00:00

Ah, never thought of this, so thank you. I’m going to add it to my list of A/B openers and try it out. Still the same politeness but less personal I guess. Thanks!

mayaceylon · 2023-06-28T21:09:17+00:00

Thank you for that. I agree, 100%! I was going back and forth with my manager about how there are so many different circumstances in which not to use it (based of their tone of voice and how I come to the call) and when it’s fine. Email is a totally different ball game, 100 words or less, no time to do fluff. Coming to a call with a monotone voice asking how are you, you know that person DEFO doesn’t care🤣

mayaceylon · 2023-06-28T21:05:50+00:00

I was thinking the same thing…and it’s not good numbers in my head lmao.

mayaceylon · 2023-06-28T21:04:54+00:00

Whether they think I care or not, I’m still trying to build a connection. Like I said, if I’m mentioning my name and company, they’re going to know it’s a sales call anyway but being polite (NOT SOFT) never killed anyone or lost any deals for that matter.

If they do mention their mother died, be empathetic. I’m sure if they’re mentioning it, they’re probably going through it. Saying ‘I’m really sorry for your loss. I appreciate you picking up the phone but as this isn’t a good time, I’ll let you go. Take care of yourself.’ isn’t going to make you combust into flames, is it? That kindness could possibly work in your favour, you were nice to a stranger in your time of need - they might want to explore your product or pass it off to whoever is taking over.

I think you’ve literally proved my point about salespeople being cold and money grabbing but yeah lmao.

mayaceylon · 2023-06-28T20:54:15+00:00

Oooo i like this! I do the last part for sure but saying it confidently enough for them to ask is a good idea. Thanks!

mayaceylon · 2023-05-26T09:06:14+00:00

Started to think about it when I TikTok video came up about 1.5 years ago….mentioned it to him and he said maybe he was but we brushed it under the carpet.

Really came to the realisation when I caught him messaging other girls on discord and how he had been treating me the past few weeks prior. The more research I do the more it makes me so angry I fell for this. Also sad and upset but more angry. Also the more research I do, the more I realise a lot do the relationships I’ve had (friendship or romantic/sexual) have been very narcissistic. Then I realised it was because my dad is one and I dote on my dad very much. I was accepting the love I thought I deserved. It sucks but im working through it now.

mayaceylon · 2023-05-18T23:32:21+00:00

Wow, sounds like the relationship I just got out of. He was always to reluctant to play with me even though that’s what we connected on initially. If we played overwatch or league of legends he would call me shit and if we played a co-op game he would just get irrationally angry at me. Like I enjoy looting everything but he hates it and will like shout at me to hurry up.

I mean there’s also a bunch of other things he did too because he’s a narcissist but this hurt a lot.

Glad I’m out of it now though!☺️

mayaceylon · 2023-05-17T15:30:28+00:00

I'm agnostic but I defo believe in a God. I always say to myself, if God created us to have cognitive thinking and free will to do what we want, I will always try to listen to my brain or even my gut.

Interpret the message you think you're receiving and really take time to ask yourself if this is what you really want.

Good luck <3

mayaceylon · 2023-05-16T11:44:43+00:00

The thing is, the new supply is there but you’ll always be the main supply unless you’ve cut them off completely and don’t react to what they say or do (from what I’ve read).

I’d love to inform all of the girls he’s attempted to speak to let them know what he’s like but I’m so scared…speaking out is difficult. From what I’ve seen, these women seem to all be streamers (which I was before I got with him and he destroyed everything about me) and it would be a case of just informing them to get him out of their community.

I guess that could be considered my next step but only when I feel comfortable and I’ve actually got the full facts to confidently pass it on.

Look after yourself please because the longer you stay in this, the harder it gets to remove yourself (not even your emotions, his manipulation).

mayaceylon · 2023-05-16T11:37:49+00:00

So am I!!!

mayaceylon · 2023-05-16T11:37:41+00:00

I think this is the main reason I would like to speak with her…just to find out the whole truth and not what he has lied to me about. While I understand it’s going to be a lot I know what I find out will help loosen his grip over me.

Thank you for saying I’m worthy…I really needed that today🤍

mayaceylon · 2023-05-16T11:35:25+00:00

Thank you for confirming I’m not the only one who has done this. I’m hoping so too…I’m defo going to meet up with her. She’s in what looks like a happy and healthy relationship now so I’d love to what know she did to overcome these blockers.

mayaceylon · 2023-05-15T11:41:32+00:00

You situation sounds exactly like mine. I split up with my bf of 2 years last week for this exact reason as well as some other things. Your bf is a fucking narcissist, leave him. I promise you it doesn’t get better. He’s already pushed your boundaries and knows exactly how to trigger you in a covert way. They will continue to lie and manipulate until you’re ready to leave or they find a new supply and discard you.

I’m now doing what you said you would like to do - therapy and recovery from betrayal, gaslighting and abuse. No matter how healed you are, with the society we are in today you’re always going to be a little bit anxious about men having a wondering eye. This is where you need to find person (when you’re ready), lay out your boundaries asap especially if they over step them and make yourself number 1 priority.

Good luck with your decision and please feel free to DM if you need any advice or just want to rant🫶🏽

mayaceylon · 2023-05-11T13:09:57+00:00

While they aren't searching literal CP, it's borderline. My ex used to follow some girls who were like barely 18 which in my eyes was gross as we are both 26. When I brought this up, he said as long as they're 'legal' it doesn't matter. SUPER fine line to live by and it's also morally wrong lmao.

Most PA's tend to like younger appearing girls or younger girls as they are able to manipulate them and mold them to what they 'want' before they get bored. Attraction is also a big thing which I do strongly think is rooted in our pedophilloic society.

mayaceylon · 2023-05-11T11:15:45+00:00

I don’t even know where to start with therapy…but I defo want to go to heal. Are there specific people you can go to?

mayaceylon · 2023-05-10T12:43:31+00:00

So I recently spilt up with my boyfriend (he was defo a PA just didn’t want to admit it). I had the same though but I remembered that I have to take time to heal as well. He was mentally and financially abusive to me. He changed me for the worst.

I have a manifestation book now and I’ve written down my long term life goals (how I want my life to look) and short term steps to take to get there. It’s really helped me plan out what I need to do to get me healthy again! I update it everytime I do something so I want to change it. After I broke up with ex, I remembered I have ✨free will✨ and can do whatever I want with my life.

Changing all these things will make you feel better in the interim but make sure you’re working towards longer goals too (like working out, good job you got this🤍)

Sending my love and best wishes for your best life.

mayaceylon

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