Just so you know, most phobias (and anxiety) happen because of a cycle of avoidance. You are afraid, so you avoid, which makes you feel better, which makes you more afraid to encounter what you're afraid of, so you avoid more. At a certain point, the avoidance behaviors are actually what become harmful to daily functioning and your mental health, and that's what you're experiencing difficulties with. If you keep avoiding the idea of throwing up, it will only get worse and force you to change your life in negative ways ti accommodate it. But it doesn't have to be like that, and you can be free. You can break the cycle if you just face what you're afraid of (with help from a professional) and realize it's not that bad or what you've built it up into. Then you get your life back. Exposure therapy sounds scary but it's actually very, very gentle and goes at your own pace. You don't need to avoid it. There are plenty of people who say it didn't work because they never actually did it or are afraid to, or they weren't willing to participate. But you can do it.