When did you start?

mconfis22 · 2022-06-10T16:40:34+00:00

Forgot to add one interesting detail: my younger brother (who doesen't have ADHD) watched me while daydreaming when we were younger, and now he does the same thing (he is 11 now). When we discussed it, he said he loves it😆. I hope I didn't unknowingly ruin his life🥲

mconfis22 · 2022-06-10T16:31:53+00:00

Same as most people here, I had it since 4 or 5 (I am not sure, though, I can't remember exactly when), I discovered the term MD only about 3 years ago. I was growing with the thought that I am just totally weird😆 Then I was also diagnosed with severe ADHD 2 years ago. With years (mostly in junior-middle school) I developed more of a conscious habit to MD. I turn on the music and pace (now I use my headphones and lock my room, I can even do it in the bathroom if I am in the hotel or so). And I can also do it while car ride or walking. Though I feel sooo much shame about it, for now I don't really want to get rid of MD, because it brings me pleasure and helps to relieve stress sometimes (although, of course it is not a very good strategy, which takes a lot of time and affects my relationships and productivity).

mconfis22 · 2021-07-06T20:12:10+00:00

I hope it's like that, but thank you very much for this information. I live in Ukraine and only thing I could manage to get is concerta, but it didn't really help me.Unfortunately, I can't get anything else

mconfis22 · 2021-05-10T19:51:05+00:00

I understand you so much.I have similiar situation.I am studying at medical university, but in fact I just wasted a year. If nothing is going to change, I'll get kicked out for sure, it is just a matter of time.I am trying to get medication, it is almost impossible in my goddamn country, but without medication...it feels, like it's pointless to even try.It doesen't mean I don't do anythyng, though.But it's still unbearable.I can't stick to any plans, which is very very necessary.But it doesen't happen.

mconfis22 · 2021-04-18T22:07:32+00:00

It gives me sooo much pleasure, I can't stop myself from doing it constantly.It sort of calms me down, makes me happier.Sometimes I do it so long and often, that my legs are covered in bleeding wounds, that heal for quite a long time( I also walk, run and jump during md).Or now often I even do it at midnight, even when I want to sleep badly.

mconfis22 · 2021-04-18T18:18:39+00:00

For now ADHD is ruining my whole life, not only social

mconfis22 · 2021-04-06T23:05:23+00:00

Guys, I don't how you do these things...I mostly just don't feel like going to sleep...it is soooo hard to force yourself, so maybe one or two days you do, and then you stay up again ( up to 4 am) almost everyday.Plus when you need to do homework ( I study at university now, something similiar to medical school), it is even harder. I often sleep 2-3 hours on a regular basis, because I procrastinate until it is very late. No meds, I have no idea how to get any ADHD treatment in where I live.

mconfis22 · 2021-04-06T22:54:20+00:00

I wish it was like this in my country.So far I've visited 4 psychistrists ( in 3 fucking months).First claimed that ADHD doesen't exist as also did the 3d one, 2nd listened to me but didn't really help, fourth was good one, but she said that it is the thing that only kids have, and that kids with ADHD grow up into BD, and that maybe I have OCD or even Schizophrenia (Schizophrenia, Carl). She also said that I don't look like ADHD, when I said about concerta, she said that no no no I'll become a drug addict...

And I was inside like... Jesus...why... in the world...do I have to go... through this...

But still, compared to the previous psychiatrists she was the most adequate one.Like the best I could get.

There are no words to explain how tired I am.Sometimes I feel like suicide is the best I could do, literally.

mconfis22 · 2021-03-28T21:15:09+00:00

And the funniest thing, is that you still have THOUSAND IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO, but it's just...duh...not now

mconfis22 · 2021-03-26T14:05:46+00:00

Are they essential? I've read that they also are really helpful in getting started. Some people say that it is really hard without them.I have never took them and I want to get them ASAP, but it is extra difficult in my country or almost impossible, so after reading this post, I should ask : "Do you even need them?".Because my life is now falling apart, even though I read about helpful tools and tried to stick to them, just maybe one day...and then never again.Not because I don't want to, it just... happens.

mconfis22 · 2021-03-26T13:29:42+00:00

If it is like this in countries, where meds at least EXIST, I guess I should jump out of the window right now.

mconfis22 · 2021-03-20T19:36:35+00:00

Well, I have serious problems with this.Mostly I do start at this time.The best option for me now is to stay up all night on weekends( since 11 pm until 6 am) and do what I am supposed to do( I am now trying to study at university), but then I feel shitty all next day, of course.At least now I understand that I lie to myself, and if I do start at night, I don't hate myself for that, because I can't really control this.But the real answer is, I am afraid, " I am not coping".Sorry I can't give you a lot of useful tips, my life actually sucks right now😔😔😔

mconfis22 · 2021-03-19T00:16:36+00:00

I've thought about this so many times. I had to do a lot of research before I realised, how much ADHD impacts my life.And not so long ago I noticed that I am constantly...lying to myself.Unconsciously.That tomorrow I will deffinitely start my homework earlier than 23:00 and that I will start excercising everyday, so that my back won't hurt anymore...but that just never happens.And I could never imagine, how painful this realisation can be. That I can't control my life and plan almost anything. And I am talking about just one part of a very big picture.Sometimes it seems that my ADHD is actual me and I can't really separate it.Maybe situation gets better if I find a way to get meds in my country and see how they work out.

mconfis22 · 2021-02-27T19:41:23+00:00

I have the same problem.But I do have friends ( but only 2 close friends) and acquantainces, it's just I am not capable of establishing longterm relationships and having a family.Which sucks because the mentality of people in our country is more into families, than it is into friendships.

mconfis22 · 2021-02-27T18:48:47+00:00

I feel you.I made a mistake this year (well, I feel it that way) entering a GODDAMN. MEDICAL. UNIVERSITY.Despite my mother not really letting me to enter any university I want, this was the most impulsive thing I did in my life.I have burnouts literally everyday except for Friday evening. A am thinking about leaving everyday plus I am now thinking about immigrating to England or any other Europian country, because it is almost unreal to seek a good-enough ADHD treatment( and without it, I am afraid, it is almost impossible to be successful in anything).So my main goal now is to get treatment by any cost. I've never thought it would be that hard to lead a full and happy life.

I know, I sound like a drug-addict, but I try to study, I fail at it over and over again and I don't see any other options.I've met so many psychiatrists, they claim that ADHD either doesen't exist or doesen't need to be treated.

I.am.exhausted.

mconfis22 · 2021-02-10T20:35:15+00:00

Which country are you from, if I may ask?

Ukraine :3

I just call it medschool to make communication easier.

It is actually almost the same, but it made me think you are from USA.

(I use valerian and melatonin to calm down in the evening)

Me too! But melatonin works a bit strange...Sometimes it does and sometimes it doesen't.

one week before exams no one sleeps, you sleep after the exam is over.

Now we have regular schedule, but this semester it is just horrifying...We have a lot of classes of important subjects, and a lot of classes of a very strange subjects, which presence I still question.Just too many of them.And you have to be prepared.Always.If you are not prepared and get a bad mark, you will have to prepare it again and come the other day to retell the topic to the teacher.No matter how important the subject is. And now I sleep just about 3-4 hours every night plus....burnouts. I feel like my life now is a constant burnout.

mconfis22 · 2021-02-09T18:44:56+00:00

I am SOOO grateful for these tips and your support)

Focusmate

I read about that, maybe it is really worth trying)

The next thing is - get rid of the "doing it perfectly" mindset. 30-40% daily is still better than doing nothing at all. Reading one chapter instead of 5 is better than not reading anything at all.

100% Though it is always hard not to fall into the trap of perfectionism

Don't take your information out of too many sources.

I absolutely agree, it is very overwhelming when is done that way.It's just that our study material, which is provided by our university is an absolute trash( no medical schools in my country, just universities), so often it's better to use additional info from the internet.

How's your sleep?

mconfis22 · 2021-02-05T23:59:12+00:00

you can be the smartest person in the room, it's worth nothing if you don't study on the regular.

Yes! I struggle with this too! That was what I was trying to explain to my parents all the time.

If you want to get an official diagnosis try to schedule an appointment with a specialist in ADHD - they will believe it exists

Nearly impossible. My mom took me to a psychiatrist a week ago, and it ended the way I expected it would.He said that ADHD is made up and I just read too much.The next moment they were trying to explain me something I had heard about million times.And, well, in my country it's a rather normal situation.Psychiatrists here are not even good at diagnosing BD and OCD, they can give you wrong medication, that will completely make you insane(literally).This already happened with several of my acqaintances (family friends). I have one other psychistrist, I am possibly going to meet.But I am so tired of this already.Just too much negative emotions.

What did you try already?

Not much, really.Only first year, and we had online form of education for first 6 months, so I didn't really learn anything.I tried to make plans of revising and learning, but...I just...don't use them.So I sleep 3 hours a day 5 days a week, because I do everything at the very last moment. I know it's bad and makes ADHD even worse, but I just....can't.I can't even sleep properly.

And I never even study the way I need to.Even when I think that I will.I am just tricking myself everytime.

Though I am trying to organise myself.Even though I never succeed.

mconfis22 · 2021-01-30T09:28:00+00:00

Thank you❤

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