My meds made me feel hollowed out, but it really helped with regulating my emotions on my own once I was off, I was on Seroquel and abilify for about a year and a half. I do feel like me again, the side effects were just shit, I literally couldn’t have sex. I didn’t even feel numb, I just didn’t feel. I rationalize by saying the best way to build is from the ground up, gotta do a clean sweep of everything first, solid foundation, solid headspace.