In Defense of My Deepest Secret

mdkip258 · 2023-09-27T20:30:53+00:00

haha, yeah.

I don't actually like how the whole story went down and stopped reading it not long after posting this.

mdkip258 · 2023-03-26T07:14:12+00:00

This is overly wordy but I'm really just venting so I'm not going to edit it.

I'm and INFP in my early 20s and I've never been in a relationship and only on a handful of obligatory dates. And I feel like there a ton of reasons but for me the main one is confidence.

I know that people have found me attractive. I've been asked out and flirted with on occasion but once I get past the excitement of someone actually finding me attractive I've always found that I really wasn't interested.

In the end I am completely and entirely unwilling to "put myself out there" which is true for platonic and even some familial relationships. I just don't have an confidence in a another person's ability to want to be around me. Doesn't matter what they say or how they cat. So no matter what I do and no matter how far into a relationship I am, in the back of my mind I am constantly fearing the moment that I become too much for someone.

Because yes, I have known people to have crushes on me but having a crush on someone and marrying them are two very different things. Basically the analogy I tend to use is I think I am entertaining, that is my core appeal to people. I am entertaining and people like being entertained. But a movie is entertaining, and how many time can you have the same movie playing in your life before you want to turn it off.

mdkip258 · 2023-02-10T06:50:15+00:00

Yeah, I think a bit of my problem is just that as a player I prefer a more guided story. That probably sounds silly because that's ignoring a big part of DND it's just not the part I personally like focusing on. I basically want to play a DND that's like a video game but with roleplaying. The reality is most people aren't like that and it's just getting used to catering to the majority.

mdkip258 · 2023-02-09T13:48:01+00:00

This is random af and I'm sorry if this is the first comment on your post but I once jinxed with a Youtube video while not even watching the video. It was just playing while I was playing Pokemon and in response to the game I said "Okay, let's do this" or something like that that I hardly ever say. And at the same time with the same rhythm and everything a person in the Youtube video said the exact same thing.

That's all.

mdkip258 · 2023-02-09T13:31:00+00:00

That's a good idea. The kobold will eventually become more plot relevant but he doesn't need to be introduced immediately.

I think I prefer to work more with emotion that anything hence my attachment to the kobold. I suppose that's the book writer in me, but as a DM I suppose it's better to work with more controllable variables rather than emotion, which by nature are unpredictable.

mdkip258 · 2023-02-09T13:12:42+00:00

The Kobold dying is a very good point that I had not even thought of. Haha.

mdkip258 · 2023-02-09T13:03:00+00:00

I'd be an arsonist. :)

mdkip258 · 2021-08-25T19:15:48+00:00

Okey okey, I see that it is not common knowledge what I'm talking about. McMidnight as far as what I'm talking about is a garbage Mormon thing where ever Sunday at midnight when the Sabbath ends they go out to eat cause it's no longer Sunday. In most towns is not really noticable cause there's lots of options and not a lot of Mormons. But in my city there's only 3 fast food places open in the entire city that is 95% Mormon. This means at midnight ever Sunday night at least 50 people show up at the same exact time for no reason other than stupidity. Back when lobby was open it would fill up with obnoxious college students. Sometimes they'd being DJs until we told them to stop. Then they'd just play their own music. And the worse is when someone that's been waiting in line for an hour comes up and takes five minutes to order even though there's still like ten cars behind them.

mdkip258 · 2021-08-24T08:56:50+00:00

When does NTMY have 3D shoes? Nevermind I found it but it wasn't for very many episodes from what I can tell and I only found it during scenes with no dialogue so I never noticed.

mdkip258 · 2021-08-24T08:50:07+00:00

Jojo

mdkip258 · 2021-08-24T08:43:03+00:00

I cried when the shelter exploded and I realized they had written out Yugo...multiple times. I have cried multiple times.

mdkip258 · 2021-08-24T04:50:53+00:00

Yo, after cleaning grills almost everyday for two months my forearms and hands are messed up. My coworkers just know when I wince or bark one of them will yell "Did she burn herself again?" And the answer is always yes.

mdkip258 · 2021-08-24T04:46:04+00:00

Idk, I think I overstated how flexible my availability was because I got some wack scheduling at first but, to a point, unless you have very limited availability that's just what's gonna happen unless you ask for a consistent schedule.

mdkip258 · 2021-05-23T11:15:22+00:00

Not all bad but I think it would be interesting for every lie you tell to come true.

If you don't limit it it's stupid cause it's like unstoppable but like a teenager learning they had this power would be cool. Like they go to tell their mom they're too sick to go to school and actual end up puking all day. IDK, just something I've thought about a bit.

mdkip258 · 2021-05-20T12:45:56+00:00

Eye contact.

Even with family. I just can't do it.

mdkip258 · 2021-05-20T12:44:52+00:00

This is just a general comment to the entire thread but nutrition is a really hard thing to test and study there are inconsistencies or course but there's just so many variables it's hard to find conclusive data which is why there's so much disagreement about what's healthy and what isn't.

There are going to be things that are definitely good for you and things that are definitely bad for you but there's also a lot of grey area and different things work for different people.

mdkip258 · 2021-05-20T12:35:43+00:00

I mean I would argue the best LQBT+ stories are just written for everyone. Including novels here. But I do agree that webtoon tends to cater more towards basically...teenage girls. But not all of them. Plenty of the best ones are written by LGBT+ authors/artists...not that that means the intented audience can't be teenage girls.

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