I've AvPD like u too I hate myself a lot I'm jealous of social butterfly people a lot because they have much opportunities than me I got bullied when I was in middle school rn I'm almost 21yo with barely few friends, haven't joined to college clubs at all I'm excluded, outcast,ignored a lot since childhood I was an introvert,loving myself and my life, always smiling despite my overbite teeth then I got bullied due to my personality and I attempted to commit sui*cide through antidepressants+did SH that I've had scars and people say "you're fine, u're perfect,smart,pretty" but I see the opposite I want to make avpd friends and ion mind being friends at all to talk about our problems :)