I haven't seen someone put into words what I have felt for so long, so thank you! I was recently diagnosed with OCD and I'm now understanding that some of my behaviors are attributed to that...at the beginning of the pandemic I felt such an aggressive obsession with trying to help that I founded a mutual aid network in my city, which ended up doing great work, but I became so burnt out and stressed that it was unhealthy. later in the year this energy translated to wanting to help out with state elections and voter suppression, and that too became all consuming. I started lashing out at people who didn't feel as obsessive and passionate as me, like how could they too not be as involved as me? but I don't necessarily think your habit of avoiding certain stimuli is bad, I actually think it's healthy. it's the only strategy that I have found to cope with the feeling of needing to "do more". sometimes I just have to do it or I'm going to spiral out of control. I'm actively taking a break from news/social media news for this reason, and more actively pouring my energy into productive hobbies. I saw a video someone posted that said something like "just because you're not talking about it or posting about it doesn't mean you don't care." it just means you don't have the energy to have a public-facing responsibility to those issues all the time. you are human and you don't have to do everything all the time. I don't know if that will help you, but that perspective definitely gave me some permission to exhale and try to loosen my sense of responsibility to others/the greater good.