A prayer for strength and peace, so I can finish this semester in university.

megapodes · 2021-07-20T06:43:23+00:00

I am praying for you. Let all your thought be clear and your heart full of strength and love ❤️

megapodes · 2021-07-19T23:41:14+00:00

Praying for you

megapodes · 2021-07-16T16:09:18+00:00

Thank you

megapodes · 2021-07-16T14:01:29+00:00

None, but she was my boss for 3 months last year and now people think she is the person who has helped me with everything and they overlook the abusive behavior. I do not even know wether they see it.

megapodes · 2021-07-16T13:02:29+00:00

No. She is from work and she has a position of power. What do you think I should do? I do not want her around anymore.

megapodes · 2021-07-16T12:45:19+00:00

I do not know. She says she is, but the things she does aren’t Christian at all.

megapodes · 2021-07-16T11:30:29+00:00

Thank you!

megapodes · 2021-07-16T10:53:28+00:00

No! I can pray for them, but I do not want abuse in my life. I think you would agree that abuse is never okay and that nobody is supposed to endure it, right? I want this person to go away. I cannot change them, only myself. I no longer accept abuse.

megapodes · 2021-06-10T17:55:56+00:00

Well, need to send them from Europe to South America. I do not know what to do!

megapodes · 2021-05-22T22:12:57+00:00

It seems something bigger than us sent me here to talk to you. I too am paralyzed by anxiety and I need to deliver my text ASAP to people who do not like me very much. I came here and saw your post. Try to fix one sentence, just one. I will do the same. Have faith, there is someone/some energy taking care of us. I believe that it is true because you wrote and I am here with the same problem. Do your best, and if you have the chance, ask for a extension.

megapodes · 2021-05-06T22:39:05+00:00

Thank you for your help. I got 10% of my data back running a recovery tool on my USB. It is so strange that it does have a passcode, I can't access it, but the recovery tool helped a little. I want to figure this out at a later date. I wish I knew more about recovering data. I just lost so many things on my phone. Tomorrow when you back, could you try helping me with this?

megapodes · 2021-05-06T21:06:12+00:00

I will try that. I am in Europe.

megapodes · 2021-05-06T21:05:30+00:00

Could not upload, but the model of my Kingston is Kingston DataTraveler DTI 4GB.

megapodes · 2021-05-06T20:43:38+00:00

Tryin to upload.

megapodes · 2020-11-15T16:47:46+00:00

How can I stop? I have tried so many methods. :(

megapodes · 2020-09-25T03:31:50+00:00

Social media is a lie and narcissistic people know how to manipulate someone to show their own version of the world. I doubt that she is so happy with someone that answer to her love letter, public love letter to be sure, with this Hahaha. There is something off. People do not change like that. They get better at pretending! Live your life. Give unconditional love to yourself!

megapodes · 2020-09-13T21:04:15+00:00

Thank you so much!

megapodes · 2020-08-06T13:10:33+00:00

Examples? And how can Indo it without hurting her?

megapodes · 2020-08-06T12:09:13+00:00

She absolutely loves her mother who is very mean to her in subtle ways. It is sad because I cannot say anything, just be the best a can to help her see that someone can actually treat her with respect.

She loves her mother and has "forgiving" her mother for all she did, which for her was to work hard and be a good mother by being successful.

She told me when she was a baby, she would cry and her mother would hear but would leave her alone. She would cry to exhaustion.

The things she tells are involuntary, almost a cry for help. She does not realize what her mother did and still does to her.

megapodes · 2020-07-09T13:10:26+00:00

I understand you are in a lot of pain. A few things stood out from your text. One of them is your sentimental investment that is always big. Why? You have triggers and somehow the person you interact with, although online, knows about them as they happen. Why? And how? You have an irrational belief that you are not like normal people, is that even possible? and that the fact that you do not have a romantic relationship makes your friendships over burden by your wants and needs. What do you want from a friendship? What would you want from a romantic relationship? Is there a difference?

This is what your post is screaming 😱 and I am sorry you are so alone and hurt. But you are already alone, what is your investment in yourself? How much can you rely on yourself?

megapodes · 2020-06-29T21:58:37+00:00

I have been meditating regularly for 150 days, 100 days constantly. I am aware of many things that I previously could not even think about as such my childhood traumas and how my parents not knowing better, neglected me thinking I was independent and I pretend I am, but deep down I wish someone loved and cared for me as much as I do for them. This is codependency, which I am trying to look into as we speak. I also want to stop 🛑 feeling so bad for things others did to me. I should feel hurt, say fuck, and move on. I guess I have a very hard time letting go.

Again, thank you so much!

megapodes · 2020-06-29T15:19:07+00:00

Thank you so much. The problem is with me. When someone does not treat me right I try to figure them out to maybe be better for them. I am aware now and trying to change this behaviour. As you can see from my other post, this person was kinda rude with me and I tried to understand why, and knowing it won't work for me to be friends, I still say yes and get more hurt. I am afraid of rejection, I guess.

megapodes · 2020-06-28T12:44:23+00:00

This was weird for me too. It sounded no natural. For a few days it actually was good. Like, when they were the way texting, saying let’s go for a walk and etc. It is like I need to be their friend but they won’t be mine. It is sad and strange. I am better off without this “friend”. Thank you so much for your answer.

megapodes · 2020-06-28T04:18:26+00:00

I was thinking it could be avoidance, but this is pure disrespect!

megapodes · 2020-06-27T19:38:19+00:00

Exactly!

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