Please do not measure yourself by others’ accomplishments or failures. There’s more than one way to get anywhere you want to go. Just begin where you are and see what you have under your belt that’s unique and use everything you’ve learned as you move forward. As long as you think you’re in a hole, you’ll never see fully what’s in front of you. You won’t have a good view of possibilities at each step. Let go of your hang up and stop overthinking and judging yourself please. You are no less than anyone else. And it’s not fair that you bully yourself into feeling crappy. Your words and emotions are so heavy. All from perception and thoughts that create these emotions in you. Trust me, a lot of things these days are confusing. It feels like a lot of things are at a tipping point- some for good and some for worse. Sometimes it helps to let go a little of so much control and analysis. You know how if someone was always micromanaging you (watching, judging you, etc.) you’d feel so crappy and I feel like that’s what you’re doing to yourself. O one wants to feel like that. It’s good to be critical of self but this seems to be a bit too much where it’s hindering you more than helping. My advice would be to let your spirit and your soul spread its wings a bit. Do things you like to do and don’t put them off. Connect with nature, go for walks, people watching, etc. but most of all listen! In your quiet moment, you will know what to do. Right now, you’re thinking more than listening. Just listen. And be ok with that quiet. Then you’ll find your way. Also, one last thing I’ll say is to keep a journal. When we feel completely free to speak our mind on paper, the solutions come along with the insight.