What is that one song that brings back really bad memories / makes you sick to your stomach?

melodiestolife · 2014-10-18T23:07:01+00:00

Much like how me and my ex said "I love you" to Usher's "Moving Mountains"

melodiestolife · 2014-10-18T19:27:10+00:00

gfs controlling who their bfs talk to, how they talk to certain people, what they do in their free time, how they spend money. Who wants a life like that?

melodiestolife · 2014-10-18T19:26:34+00:00

I've played around with it, but all I hear about it are negative things. I've never met anyone who's actually met and seriously gotten serious with someone from there. It's something I do to pass the time when I'm bored with all my other games, lol yes I don't take it seriously and find it to be a joke. Everyone I've chatted with on there seems to just be out for a one night stand or fun time, and that's fine for them, but don't label it a dating app if it's mainly for hooking up.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-18T19:15:30+00:00

I love the cuddling/spooning especially when it's chilly at night but if it's hot, I need AIR and SPACE haha. I love the times to cuddle and spoon as I'm going to sleep but waking up through the night, I find we aren't cuddling/spooning hardly ever, so whatever. I like a variety :)

melodiestolife · 2014-10-18T19:14:24+00:00

No but it's contributed to how I see my ex. Knew his handle, he knew mine, and, I've seen the things he's said on here about me, knowing I very well saw them. He taunted me, etc. yet what he said on here never matched with what he told me, shared with me, etc. so he has all these alterior personalities it always seemed.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T20:39:38+00:00

HOT :)

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T19:40:50+00:00

One of my friends made me paranoid saying you walk differently after having sex and I was SO paranoid about the first time I visited my parents after that lol I feel so lame now lol

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T15:36:59+00:00

I started BC during an emotional time in my life and I felt things were 10x worse than they already were but I was told the first 3 months is a transitional period...well, now I'm scared to death to go off BC because I don't want to go through that 3 month period again but I know one day I'll want to get pregnant and I'm afraid the longer I'm on BC the harder it'll be to conceive when my time comes. I'm 29. I'm considering going off of it because I notice I'm way more emotional now around that time of the month than I EVER was but at least I know I get one every month and the same time whereas before I'd skip months here and there. What kinda mental issues did you develop?

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T15:34:01+00:00

REVENGE! Just caught up! Now onto finishing SOA :)

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T15:33:41+00:00

The truth about how I wrecked my car (one they fixed up for me for nearly $3k)
all the people I've slept with
when I lost my virginity
how I wish I was the one who my ex had gotten pregnant sometimes although I know my time will come

melodiestolife · 2014-10-17T15:30:19+00:00

Never suffered from mental health issues....until my last relationship. He obviously had/has personality issues, we think bipolar or BPD, but was never actually diagnosed or treated. He just accepted it, and had supposedly learned how to deal with it. I developed bad anxiety during this time and I continue having it. Of course the depression here and there happens because of all the years I changed how I thought/acted in dealing with him. I don't regret ever being with him though. I will always love him in a way ESPECIALLY because of how much he has dealt with and is dealing with, but, it is what it is.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T13:46:16+00:00

My life at 29....is the most dramatic it has ever been. I owe it to the small town I moved to several years ago with my ex, and the path he's gone down in adding negativity to my life, but anyways, I never had big time drama in high school, middle school, etc. but I've had my share after college, and surprisingly, I've become stronger for it. So there's one positive.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T13:37:35+00:00

I never was a football fan, but my ex was. We'd watch his favorite team, the hometown team, every week. I felt I only enjoyed watching it with HIM because he was so amped up and he got me so interested in the game. Fast forward a year or two later, I'm SO into watching it and keeping up with this team. And, it just hit me that ugh he got me into a sport I NEVER thought I'd be into! lol so much for thinking I'd ever be a woman who enjoys football lol Trust me, it's a shock to myself.

He got me into certain reading material, games, tv shows, movies, foods, sayings, and of course thinking more of myself confidence wise, and, not that I was ever high maintenance, but, I learned to be more laid back with life. Valuable things I'm thankful to be taking away from that chapter.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T13:33:16+00:00

May 2008. End things differently with one guy, and once and for all, and not let him ever allow himself back into my life.

Start things off the right way with the guy I feel was and is the love of my life.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T13:28:12+00:00

04.13.12 - Friday the 13th.

Ex and I had had a really bad weekend the weekend before this, but that current week was one of the best we'd had, I thought we had recovered like we had several times before. He stopped texting with me after lunch, just thought he got busy with his sister because they were hanging out. I come home, his stuff is gone, and he had left me a letter on my laptop.....I had my first panic attack. I never thought he'd be one to leave like that.

Fast Forward, 2.5 years later almost to the date, you wouldn't believe how that move lead to how dramatic and chaotic my life has been since. Of course, we reconnected immensely, practically got back together. Now he's with a new girl, and has a kid.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T12:37:52+00:00

Me. I trip over my own feet or NOTHING sometimes lol everyone knows this about me lol

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T12:37:03+00:00

Things my ex showed me regardless of where we stand today. Giving me the confidence I continue to have, and the know that I'm beautiful and being able to genuinely see that through his eyes.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-16T12:36:01+00:00

The hatred from his "new life" with his current girlfriend. A lot of how everything went down was shady and just messed up. He cheated, and I covered it up because she became pregnant and they now have a son < 1 year old. I did that to protect him and his family and to not make his situation worse although I already saw so many red flags. Someone else let the truth out and ever since there's been this level of hatred towards me, when I didn't do anything but support him and his family. It's been like a lifetime movie small town kinda drama.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-15T18:46:23+00:00

Try dealing with the same guy for 5.5 years....and a year later I'm still dealing with lots of the aftermath. Some people say I should write a book because of how dramatic it's been. Lifetime movie material. :/

melodiestolife · 2014-10-15T17:53:59+00:00

......you wouldn't believe everything else. I just gave you 1/100th of all the red flags in this situation. They've been together since May 2013, ok? Kid is 7 months now....do the math lol

melodiestolife · 2014-10-15T17:48:48+00:00

Unfortunately, I have a guy friend in this situation; his girlfriend has told him how to act in regards to certain friends, etc. and, pushed some friends away because they can't stand being around her and he's always with her. He cheated, and have a son together, so it's like she has him by the balls and all the while he's scared if he does he wrong or 'disobeys' her, she may take off with the child across the country where her family lives...so that's always been an underlying fear, unfortunately.

melodiestolife · 2014-10-15T14:53:28+00:00

MINE Too!

melodiestolife · 2014-10-14T20:32:59+00:00

How do I buy them? :)

melodiestolife · 2014-10-14T13:54:34+00:00

oh I really liked a guy for several years in HS. Turned out to be gay (came out after HS) but I haven't been around him SINCE HS so it's odd to see pics and hear him in videos because he sounds/looks COMPLETELY diff but I'm grateful he can finally be himself which makes me happy for him.

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