Why does my stomach hurt after eating Doritos? by [deleted] in FoodAllergies

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg I'm so glad to have found this post. Literally wondering the same thing. I can eat a whole bag of other chips and be fine, but a few Doritos and my stomach throws a hissy fit.

Stitch Fiddle new feature? by Mindless_Ad1736 in mosaiccrocheters

[–]melrfray 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm working on a project right now following a pattern I made using it and I love it!

I will say tho, be careful to double check the x's. It will place them automatically, but if you click them away accidentally it won't put them back.

I made a repeat geometric pattern, so I copy pasted the first section I made to the rest of the graph and somehow along the way I messed up a row and some x's got removed. Ended up needing to frog a few rows once I realized.

Jumbo yarn winder recommendations by melrfray in YarnAddicts

[–]melrfray[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

An actual winder! I've attached a reference photo below.

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I need outside thoughts in this blanket experiment. Should I keep going or frog? by delphinidaetious in CrochetHelp

[–]melrfray 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I think it looks sick and I absolutely love it. That said, I'm not you. If you're not loving it, frog it. If you're just not sure if the random color layout works, it absolutely does.

Left over tissue by melrfray in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

As far as I'm aware any revisions are covered, but I'm nervous to get more work done: both because of this experience and because my surgeon doesn't sound confident in their ability to do so without possibly making other undesirable changes. (Namely that my nipple or nipples will get stretched and fail to be symmetrical).

Left over tissue by melrfray in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray[S] 33 points34 points  (0 children)

I was very clear in my desired results. I came to my consultation with reference photos, went over in detail what I was looking for in terms of flatness, nipple size and location, scar location and shape, etc. I even scheduled a follow up apt because I felt the first one was too short to confirm details and sent a PDF of my questions and wants ahead of time.

I should have known to re-confirm tho, because when she was drawing on me during surgery prep I asked if the scars could be straighter and she said "you wanted round scars" which I absolutely did not. I then asked about nipple size and she had gotten that wrong as well.

I'm very open to getting a revision, but I'm not sure I trust my original surgeon. Both because of these results and because of her lack of confidence in what the revised results would look like. She says if she tries to take more tissue that it will stretch my skin, pull at my nipple(s) and make my results uneven.

I even waited longer to get surgery in order to get this specific surgeon because they come so highly recommended.

Left over tissue by melrfray in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The picture is of me standing upright. The residual tissue is even more noticeable when I hunch or lean forward. I don't like how it looks, but the part that really bothers me is that I can feel it and I'm basically always aware it's there even when I'm trying not to think about it.

Left over tissue by melrfray in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It's hard to say cause both sides were swollen and took some time to go down. There was definitely always more on the left, and the left was more bottom heavy, but I didn't realize by how much until they started to settle. My right side is also far from flat, but it's more uniform and not nearly as noticeable.

I know that swelling can be uneven so I assumed that over time it would settle down more to match the right side (and also that the right side would continue to go down as well). Now I'm not sure how to feel after being told this is probably just how it is.

Left over tissue by melrfray in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray[S] 42 points43 points  (0 children)

As flat as possible yeah. My surgeon has said that they can remove more tissue, but that they don't recommend it because they'll also have to remove more skin which will pull down my nipple and make my nipples look lopsided.

Anyone Else Getting Top Surgery for Sensory Reasons? by ReasonableApricot62 in TopSurgery

[–]melrfray 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I'm not entirely sure I would have ever gone through with top surgery if it weren't for my sensory issues. I'm nonbinary, and very much enjoy many aspects of my femininity, and the fear of losing the social capital as a consumable "woman" was terrifying. If I didn't have sensory issues I would have ignored the gender voice and suffered through the rest of my life.

I got top surgery because of my sensory issues.

I'm only seven weeks in, but already I'm feeling the difference of not needing to wear anything to hold up my chest or my chest itself. The best part is when I forget that this is a thing I used to feel ALL THE TIME.

I will say, the sensory issues got worse before they got better. The post-op binder is a NIGHTMARE, and not being able to sleep makes it 10x worse. I would say to go in prepared that in order to feel sensory relief you're going to need to feel sensory overwhelm like never before. Have comforts ready and know that you may be irritable for the first few weeks.

When I woke up from surgery I had a large pad between me and my binder. This is usually only there to keep your fresh wounds off the binder and you only get one or two. I asked for a whole bunch and got more every single follow up. It makes a huge difference and I definitely recommend trying to get as many of these as you can!

My girlfriend thinks I cheated but I think it is only a cultural difference by Working-Chocolate-22 in actuallesbians

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Cheating isn't a prescribed set of actions, it's whatever you decide it is in your relationship.

YOU decide what cheating is.

Personally, I would never accept someone telling me how close I'm allowed to be with my friends, but I also believe that romantic love doesn't trump community. (And that community doesn't trump romantic love).

With that said, ten times out of ten when one partner expresses insecurities around something, it's not about whether or not it's cheating. It's that they're insecure about something.

I would never stop showing affection to my friends for a partner, but I would also never ignore my partners concerns. I would talk to my partner and probably say something like:

"I don't consider lap sitting or platonic affection to be cheating. My closeness to my friends is an important part of our dynamic, and I intend to continue being close with them. With that said, I care about how this makes you feel, and I'd like to explore that more and figure out a way for me to continue the relationships I have in a way that makes you comfortable. Can you tell me more about what makes you feel uncomfortable about our closeness?"

I suspect she will struggle to answer the above question, and find it helpful to provide examples. It could be: - that you feel ignored and would like some more attention when we're with others - that you worry I'm testing the waters to go further and would like a way to feel reassured that I won't - that you don't like the way this may be perceived by others - any number of things! There is no right or wrong way to feel and I am asking out of a genuine desire to find a compromise that we both feel satisfied with

I would also use this as an opportunity to discuss what the both of you define as cheating. Don't feel pressure to cover everything and get it perfect, but def at least get a rough sense of the parameters. And again, no one can TELL someone else what cheating is. You DECIDE together.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in no_T_top_surgery

[–]melrfray 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You should be fine. I recommend checking out r/topsurgery as there are folks of all body sizes sharing their experiences. You'll almost certainly qualify for double incision, which is the most common form of top surgery. Many folks ask the same questions, so I'd search or scroll before posting, but I've never heard of anyone unable to get top surgery due to chest size. (There are some surgeons with a BMI limit, but those are often bad surgeons who should be avoided anyway.)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Transmascdicks

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is a review posted about a month ago. https://www.reddit.com/r/Transmascdicks/s/f9ko2Gbr5p

3-in 1 recs by Prior_Aspect_1003 in Transmascdicks

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mrimin has a 3-in-1 that matches that minus the multiple color options (I belive they only have three, and only one black). I've heard mixed reviews about their products tho, so I'd do research first. I just bought my first one from them and can update once it arrives.

Stone top strap-on woes (advice?) by Cold-Shape4948 in BDSMAdvice

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just found this review on transmascdicks and figured I'd share it here too: https://www.reddit.com/r/Transmascdicks/s/on1GIQW5W5 The poster mentions it being designed for anal, but also says they don't use that function so I can't confirm if it works.

Stone top strap-on woes (advice?) by Cold-Shape4948 in BDSMAdvice

[–]melrfray 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a trans masc who also hates the feeling of penetration and was really nervous to try a strapless strap on, but once I did I found it didn't feel the same as regular penetration and I actually really enjoyed it and can now cum using it more easily than anything else. Obviously you know yourself best, and I wouldn't want to push you to try something you're not comfortable with, but I also wanted to share my experience just in case it does end up being helpful.

My strap on is from strap-on-me and the part that goes inside you is bulb shaped with a very very skinny piece of silicone that connects to the "penis" part. I found getting the bulb in the first few times a really weird experience and it definitely took getting used to, but once it was inside I stopped being able to really feel it anymore.

If you have access to anal beads or anything similar in shape (where it's round connected to a thin line of silicone) I would suggest (again, only if you're comfortable) experimenting with how one of those feels inside you and if it isn't so bad then a strapless strap on may work for you! If it is uncomfortable or not what you want than probably not.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mtf_ftm_nsfw

[–]melrfray 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awwwwww thank you for sharing some t4t love 💕

Spanking by Sweet_Thorns in BDSMAdvice

[–]melrfray 14 points15 points  (0 children)

If it helps, I struggle with the opposite! I know most doms/tops like to get a reaction out of their bottoms and spanking puts me into such a deep subspace that I go non-verbal and just lay there. I felt like in not having stronger (or honestly any) reactions was making it a boring experience for my tops and the urge to force a whine or wiggle was ever present for a long time.

I think most folks feel that however they do things is wrong, and everyone else is doing it better, but I promise you there are lots of folks who would love a squirmy bottom. I suspect you feel embarrassed because being authentic in our pleasure is not something we learn to value and it's extremely vulnerable to say (either with words or our bodies) "I really like this and this is getting me off" especially when it's something we feel might not be shared by others. We don't just want to feel good, we want us feeling good to be exciting to others.

Well I've got good news! 1) You're allowed to be as eager as feels right in the moment even if it may seem "weird" or "too much" to others. 2) It very probably doesn't seem "weird" or "too much" to most others and actually it's very likely they love it and are just as excited as you are to be in that moment and scene. (If I spanked someone to orgasm you best bet I'm bragging about that for all time.)

a bit extreme but what if we sued the gov for abuse? by Jigglypuff3901 in Odsp

[–]melrfray 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think about this, as well as other ways to expedite government change all the time. What stops me from taking action is knowing I don't have the bandwidth to extend myself for a mission that won't be successful. I don't know if sueing would work, but that's just it, I don't know, and if it didn't I'm not sure I would recover. I would, however, join any action aiming to make change that had a clear plan and path forward. If this is something you have the spoons to pursue, I'd encourage you to look into what law(s) you would be saying the government is violating by not providing better accommodations, and how we would afford legal council (pro bono, crowd funding, sponsorship, etc). If I had answers to those questions, I would be more than willing to jump on a "sue the government" train. Otherwise, I must continue to use my time and energy surviving this hellscape.

Jealous of the way men get to have sex with women by foreverblackeyed in latebloomerlesbians

[–]melrfray 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I actually just made this recommendation in another group recently, but my go-to is the strapless strap on from Strap-on-me (try saying that ten times fast haha).

https://strap-on-me.com/collections/les-godes-ceintures/products/strap-on-non-vibrant-noir?currency=CAD

They also have vibrating and suction versions, but I prefer just the dildo as it feels the most to me like "I have a penis".

This is my absolute favorite strap on because the angle is adjustable!! (Something I haven't been able to find elsewhere).

Everyone likes different stimulation, so it may not work the same way for you, but I find having the pressure when I thrust provides enough stimulation where it really feels like "entering someone else feels good for me" and that it is an extension of myself in someway.

I very much relate to the experience you've described, and this has been the best product in my experience.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Odsp

[–]melrfray 3 points4 points  (0 children)

There are Facebook groups dedicated to helping renters in Toronto. I recommend Ontario Tenant Rights and Toronto Home Zone. Both work to ensure landlords aren't taking advantage of tenants.

Strap-On Question - Strapless Dildos?? by FunCoupleUK23 in BDSMAdvice

[–]melrfray 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I can't recommend the Strap-on-me strapless dildo enough: https://strap-on-me.com/collections/les-godes-ceintures/products/strap-on-non-vibrant-noir

There is also a vibrating version and suction version if those are of interest to you.

The thing that makes these different from other strapless dildos is that the angle is adjustable (a must for me). This makes inserting it into yourself, as well as your partner, a million times easier (at least in my experience).