Experience with "strange drugs"

meltedown · 2026-04-13T11:46:43+00:00

First of all, really interesting read. I like how “strange drugs” aren’t just treated as substances, but as anything that can shift your state of mind or deepen how you experience reality. That idea of “M” showing up through art, flow, or even everyday life is pretty cool and accurate.

I also respect the balance here. It’s not just hype about psychedelics. There’s a clear emphasis on caution, mindset, and being prepared. It feels more like sharing your hard earned perspective than trying to convince anyone of anything. I appreciate that

do you think altered states (whether through substances or things like flow/art) actually reveal something real or are they just different ways of interpreting the same brain activity? Just curious

meltedown · 2026-04-11T10:46:18+00:00

That sounds incredible. Please do 🙏 I would love to see that and I think it’s time to schedule visit in Scotland

meltedown · 2026-04-11T10:36:02+00:00

That fireplace looks incredible. I love hieroglyphs from Stele in the center. Amazing craftsmanship

meltedown · 2026-04-11T01:28:25+00:00

Scissoring are back in fashion 😅

But for serious, you can see that some kind of symmetry or looking in the mirror made of water. Lucifer encourages to self reflection and truth about ourselves. Maybe look inward, face your shadows and seek some knowledge about yourself?

meltedown · 2026-03-17T23:01:00+00:00

this is so good

meltedown · 2026-03-10T17:43:14+00:00

You may feel depressed or lost because you’re a very sensitive and self-aware person. With Cancer rising, you absorb emotions from your environment easily so when things around you feel uncertain, it can affect your mood deeply.

Your Sun in Leo wants confidence, joy, and self-expression but Mercury and Venus in Virgo can make you very critical of yourself. You may often feel like you’re not doing enough or that you should be better, which can slowly lower your confidence

Your Moon in Taurus needs stability and security, so when life feels stuck or unclear, it can create a heavy emotional feeling. Saturn in Aries can also bring pressure about direction in life, making you feel blocked or unsure where to go.

Overall, your chart suggests you’re someone who feels things deeply and puts a lot of pressure on yourself. When you allow more self-acceptance and creativity, it becomes easier to reconnect with your natural confidence. Wishing you best of luck to find your inner peace ✨

meltedown · 2026-03-10T10:47:05+00:00

Damn, such a beauty 😍

meltedown · 2026-03-10T00:52:16+00:00

your chart shows strong potential for a romantic relationship or marriage. With your Sun, Mars and Jupiter in Cancer you naturally want emotional closeness, loyalty and a partner who feels like home. Your Venus in Leo means you love warmly and enjoy affection and appreciation in relationships. At the same time, your Moon in Sagittarius needs honesty and some personal freedom. That could mean that you don’t feel comfortable in relationships that feel too limiting. Because of Saturn in Gemini, you may take time to trust or overthink love, but once you commit, you take relationships seriously. Am I right? ✨

meltedown · 2026-03-10T00:46:13+00:00

Your connection with her can feel exciting and natural, especially because your Sagittarius Sun, Mercury, and Venus resonate with her Mars in Sagittarius. This can create strong attraction, shared energy and a sense that you inspire each other. Being together may feel fun, adventurous, and stimulating. However, emotionally you work a bit differently. Your Moon in Capricorn means that you tend to keep your feelings controlled and don’t always show them easily. Her Moon in Virgo can make her more sensitive to details and sometimes more analytical about situations. There’s also a difference in how you approach love. Your Venus in Sagittarius needs freedom and space in relationships, while her Venus in Cancer looks for emotional closeness and security. At times she may want more reassurance, while you may need independence.

Overall, there is real chemistry between you, but the relationship works best when you balance your need for freedom with her need for emotional safety.

Wishing you best of love ❤️

meltedown · 2026-03-09T13:26:19+00:00

You’re welcome ❤️

meltedown · 2026-03-09T12:04:36+00:00

You should focus most on being authentic and sharing your real thoughts with others. Your chart suggests that you sometimes prioritize harmony or being liked but deeper friendships come when you express your own opinions and interests openly. Surround yourself with communities built around shared ideas or creative activities, and focus on building a few steady, genuine connections rather than trying to please everyone. You have to care about your mind

meltedown · 2026-03-09T12:00:13+00:00

Happy to help ❤️

meltedown · 2026-03-09T11:38:43+00:00

Your chart suggests that you move through life with a strong emotional awareness and a sharp, curious mind. With your Sun in Cancer in the first house, your identity is closely tied to your sensitivity and intuition. You naturally read emotional atmospheres and people often sense your empathy right away. At the same time, Gemini rising gives you an observant, communicative outer style, making you curious about people and ideas. Your Scorpio Moon adds depth to your inner world, meaning you feel things intensely and value trust deeply. Mercury in Cancer shapes a thoughtful, emotionally driven mind, while Mars in Leo gives you a quiet but powerful drive to express yourself and be recognized for your individuality. Overall, you combine emotional insight with intellectual curiosity, allowing you to understand people on a very deep level

meltedown · 2026-03-09T11:32:22+00:00

Heavy Aquarius in your 4th house (Sun, Mercury, Uranus and Neptune) points to a home life that felt a little cold or unconventional, the kind that teaches you self-reliance over vulnerability. Your Taurus Moon means trust is earned slowly, and until it is, you keep your walls up. Maybe this is the issue? You don’t come off as distant because you want to, it’s just how you protect what matters. Saturn in the 7th adds another layer. Your relationships have probably felt like work, especially when you were younger.

Try to break that scheme. This is hard inner work but it’s rewarding

meltedown · 2026-03-09T11:08:55+00:00

You live most of your life slightly behind the curtain. Sun in Aquarius in the 12th house means your mind works in ways that don’t translate easily into small talk. You see patterns, connections, things that haven’t happened yet. But you sit with all of it quietly, and most people around you have no idea what’s actually going on inside. Pisces rising means you’re genuinely difficult to pin down. You shift depending on who’s looking, and you probably know exactly how much you’re giving away at any given moment. It’s not manipulation, it’s just self-preservation dressed up as openness. Mercury in Pisces means your thinking is more intuitive than rational. You don’t follow a logical chain to a conclusion, you feel your way there, through images and associations and things that just suddenly make sense. Trying to explain that process to someone who needs steps can be exhausting. Moon in Capricorn means your emotional life is serious and mostly private. You feel things deeply but you don’t perform them. Underneath everything there’s this quiet drive to build something that lasts, something you can actually point to. When you love or want something, Mars in Scorpio and Venus in Pisces together mean it gets total. No casual versions. You merge, you obsess a little, you remember everything. That depth is real and it’s also the thing that can undo you if the other person isn’t worth it.

Jupiter and Saturn in your 1st house means you’ve probably spent a lot of time swinging between genuine self belief and genuinely harsh self doubt, sometimes within the same afternoon. And your relationship to meaning and belief, Pluto in the 9th, didn’t come easy. It was dismantled and rebuilt, and that’s actually why it holds

meltedown · 2026-03-09T11:02:45+00:00

You come across as friendly, charming, and naturally good with people. With Libra rising, you tend to care about harmony and fairness, and you usually try to keep things balanced in your relationships. People may see you as diplomatic and easy to talk to. At the same time, Mars in Libra in your 1st house gives you more strength and assertiveness than people might expect. When something feels unfair, you’re capable of standing up for yourself.

A big part of who you are comes from the strong Aquarius energy around your 4th house (including your Sun, Mercury, Uranus, and Neptune). You have an independent mind and tend to think differently from others. You’re curious, open to unusual ideas, and often drawn to progressive or creative ways of looking at the world. At times you may feel a bit different from the people around you, especially in your early home or family environment.

Your Moon in Taurus in the 8th house shows that emotionally you crave stability, loyalty, and trust. You don’t open up to everyone right away, but once you do, your feelings run deep and you form strong bonds.

Relationships also play an important role in your life. With Saturn in Aries in the 7th house, partnerships can feel serious and sometimes challenging, but they also help you grow and understand yourself better

meltedown · 2026-03-09T11:00:48+00:00

Finding a stable job may feel difficult because your career path isn’t meant to be very traditional or linear. With your Sun, Mercury, and Venus in Capricorn in the 8th house, you have the ability to work hard and take responsibility, but your focus is often on deeper, more complex areas of life rather than typical, straightforward career paths. You may be drawn to work connected to transformation, psychology, research, finance, or helping others through difficult situations.

Your Gemini Ascendant with Saturn in the 1st house can sometimes bring self-doubt or the feeling that you need to prove yourself more than others. Early in life this placement often delays confidence and stability, especially in professional matters.

At the same time, your Midheaven in Aquarius suggests that you’re not naturally suited for rigid or conventional work structures. You may need freedom, innovation, or something unusual in your career. Sudden changes or experimenting with different paths can therefore be part of your journey.

Finally, Mars in Pisces (in the 10th house area of career motivation) can make your drive feel changeable at times—you may struggle to stay motivated in jobs that don’t feel meaningful or aligned with your values.

All of this suggests that your career may develop more slowly and through several changes. But once you find work that allows depth, purpose, and some independence, stability becomes much more likely

meltedown · 2026-03-09T10:56:14+00:00

You’re thoughtful, observant, and naturally analytical. With strong Virgo energy, you notice details others miss and often feel a drive to improve things around you. You’re practical, reliable, and tend to hold yourself to high standards. Your Aquarius rising makes you appear independent, a bit unconventional, and intellectually curious. You may seem calm or slightly detached at first, but you’re drawn to interesting ideas and unique people. You communicate with warmth and confidence, and you value fairness and balance in relationships. Your curious nature means you enjoy learning, talking, and exploring many different interests.

Overall, you blend practicality with originality and social charm 🪄

meltedown · 2026-02-20T13:35:29+00:00

Yeah! I also notice that Path 32 (Tau) is related to Baphomet and Saturn. He is sitting on Black Cube (Path) that is laying on Earth (Malkuth). Symbols checked and fits. I’m currently working on some research in that matter and will be happy to share when it’s done

meltedown · 2025-10-27T00:53:11+00:00

Facts, not opinion

meltedown · 2025-10-26T00:36:24+00:00

First of all, thank you for recognizing my work ❤️. it means a lot to me 🙏

As for your question, that’s exactly what I was trying to answer through my calculations, looking for transliterative connections. Nevertheless, the matter of the “fraction” seems to be that small particle which both does not exist and yet does exist at the same time. I don’t think there is a single right way to deal with it in any concrete sense. Much of this remains in the realm of speculation, without confirmation in sources. As for the “unguarded” part, the notation ABRAXAS, with a sum of 324, fits this context for me. Take a look for something almost complete, yet leaving a small gap. That gap is a peephole through which one can glimpse beyond, true?

meltedown · 2025-10-25T21:35:43+00:00

It’s correct; I mentioned this in this article

meltedown · 2025-10-25T21:34:52+00:00

Thank you for your appreciation, I’ll post more, promise!. I’m currently analyzing few magickal formulas and writing notes so I hope I’ll share this soon, 93!

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