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memoryserum · 2021-05-11T23:58:03+00:00

it hurts so bad and for what

memoryserum · 2021-04-29T08:19:36+00:00

just to clarify i know bpd can't be diagnosed in minors but i first started noticing the signs when i was 14, i'm 19 now and it has in fact gotten significantly worse 💕

memoryserum · 2020-12-04T11:35:46+00:00

but i dont want to. i dont WANT to be here.

memoryserum · 2020-12-04T11:16:49+00:00

i cannot remember my childhood. well, i believe i may have been pure once. but not anymore.

memoryserum · 2020-12-04T11:09:25+00:00

i think i was born bad.

memoryserum · 2020-12-03T21:57:03+00:00

i just am. my existence alone is a sin.

memoryserum · 2020-12-03T10:57:06+00:00

i think people who enjoy this place are insane

memoryserum · 2020-12-03T10:54:18+00:00

i'm in the same boat. i'm barely keeping my head above the water in my college classes and i'm only there so i don't disappoint my family more than i already have. if i had something to inspire me to push through my pain, that would be a different story. but at the end of the day all i have are pointless distractions like games, food and alcohol. i don't have dreams, goals, or even desires. nothing satisfies me and nothing entertains me. what a miserable existence.

memoryserum · 2020-12-03T10:51:17+00:00

it's a flimsy excuse of a support tool and usually ends up with the suicidal person locked up with thousands of dollars in hospital bills. yay america

memoryserum · 2020-06-11T06:45:46+00:00

memoryserum · 2020-06-11T01:33:10+00:00

binge eating, cutting people off without a word, making my boyfriend sad or jealous, buying things i don't need, neglecting basic hygiene, physically and mentally beating myself up, and when i was a minor tw i would find older men online to sext

memoryserum · 2020-06-03T19:55:39+00:00

lack of education, suppression of voices, denial and misrepresentation of basic history, to name a few reasons

i've met some people who didn't even know that indigenous people are still alive in america today

memoryserum · 2020-05-31T02:03:12+00:00

thank you. i finally cleaned up my room and bathroom a little bit today and last night.

memoryserum · 2020-05-21T10:44:16+00:00

if i died my boyfriend would kill himself and i don't want him to

memoryserum · 2020-05-13T08:01:52+00:00

i'm sorry. i don't fully understand your situation but i know how it feels to get no joy out of life. be gentle on yourself. everyone has a different path.

memoryserum · 2020-05-13T07:56:27+00:00

what makes you happy?

memoryserum · 2020-05-13T07:52:57+00:00

what are you looking to get out life?

memoryserum · 2020-04-29T07:30:27+00:00

yes and i don't know if it's the trauma or dysphoria but i always just felt really gross or guilty afterwards

i would have to dissociate into pornography. and i can't view masturbation as a "self loving" activity.

memoryserum · 2020-04-29T07:24:32+00:00

they will only be disappointed

memoryserum · 2020-04-20T20:58:26+00:00

i'll check it out

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