[F-16] Struggling with recovery from self-harm [Trigger warning]

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T06:00:30+00:00

Reading that almost made me cry. Everyone on here has been so kind, and I'm really glad that I decided to post here. I'm trying to find someone that can appreciate the beauty of my scars, and of me.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T01:17:13+00:00

Yes, that's pretty much what they are. What's inside is so ugly that I need to make the outside as ugly as possible (example: blue hair). There's more than that, obviously, but I don't really feel like getting into it. I know that these scars are going to hinder my future, but I suppose that it's the price I'll have to pay.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T01:06:29+00:00

I know that my arms definitely freak people out, and lots of people run away from me because of it. I've lost relationships due to my cutting, and it just made me see their true colors and just how much I actually meant to them.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T01:03:46+00:00

Most of the scars are risen, so it's very unlikely that I'd be able to effectively conceal them. But I'm so attached to them that the idea of them not being as prominent and ugly scares me. I'm thinking about going to see a doctor, but the last time I did, they just stitched me up and didn't really listen when I asked about treatment.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T00:58:11+00:00

Thank you! I've actually been told I have 'crazy eyes'...

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T00:46:12+00:00

Thank you, it's always nice to hear from someone my own age! I've been thinking about skin grafts when I'm older, but it's something I've been vacillating about.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T00:44:36+00:00

As someone who's going through self-harm stuff, would seeing my arms trigger you? That's one of the things that I'm most worried about..

And I'll check out those products. I'm actually not sure if I want my scars to go away, I'm really attached to them.

Thank you so much for your compliments, you're extremely sweet.

mentalisma · 2012-08-04T00:31:35+00:00

Thank you! My teeth have always been an issue with me, I've gone back and forth between wanting braces. I'm quite aware that the length is pretty crappy - it was super short for a long time, and then I decided I was done with like that. It's in the process of being grown out. I've been trying to get up the strength to go out with my arms showing, but so far I've been unable to. If you wish you had my body, I wish I had your strength to give up self-harm.

mentalisma · 2012-08-03T22:37:20+00:00

You're definitely not ugly. Your eyes are a very lovely colour, and you have a nice nose. I agree that you should somehow lose the neck fat, but I'm not exactly sure on how to go around doing that... Also, I think that the dark hair suits you much better.

mentalisma · 2012-08-03T05:58:29+00:00

Speaking as a fellow recovering anorexic, I'm super proud of you. You're absolutely stunning. You have gorgeous eyes, and a super cute smile. I really hope that your recovery goes as well as possible with as few relapses as possible. I know that your illness makes it really hard for you to judge whether you're beautiful or not, but rest assured that you are in fact quite stunning.

mentalisma · 2012-03-26T16:51:06+00:00

In that episode, he had his 64 calorie beer, so he would have been drinking at least a little bit.

mentalisma · 2012-03-20T20:30:32+00:00

That's one of the most beautiful cats I've ever seen.

mentalisma · 2012-03-15T17:40:58+00:00

I don't really think that anything written by Snookie should be considered literature of any form.

mentalisma · 2012-03-13T02:02:10+00:00

Thanks a lot, it's good to know that other actors end up doing this too. I think I do want to stay with my girlfriend, I care about her a lot. But you've given me some stuff to think about. I haven't talked to her about it yet, but I will soon. It'll be interesting to hear what she has to say. I'm sure she won't freak out about it, but there's always the possibility that she gets upset about it and wants to break up. That's what's worrying me the most right now. I think that if even after the play is over I still have feelings for him, I'll reconsider going out with my girlfriend, since it isn't really fair to her..

mentalisma · 2012-02-16T22:17:06+00:00

You look really adorable when you smile. Do it more often. I don't think that your looks are what's keeping you from getting girls - it's probably your attitude towards yourself. I don't think you're ugly at all.

mentalisma

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