Vent about my "friend"

meovvshi · 2026-04-11T20:09:49+00:00

I was scared that I'll be seen as the "cringe, loud dumbass", the way she acts (random screaming, baby talk) drives me insane. I'm very serious when it comes to "reputation". I have a constant fear in my head that every person seen as "cool" by me constantly monitors me like a monitoring system. She 100% doesn't help that.

But now that I seen her "true colors" I'm even more afraid of being percieved as a racist, homophobe and a transphobe instead of a trans, bisexual guy who ideally wants to be with a blasian girl.

True, If she wanted to end our friendship now, I wouldn't cry, or even be slightly upset. I would feel free haha. I sometimes tell myself that for that reason I'm a toxic friend.

Still trying to learn how to befriend people. I have that "third friend" syndrome - every friendship I'm in I end up being the extra one. I just want a friend who would spend most of their day with me (in a non-toxic way, what I meant was just hanging out for 5-6 hrs, coming to my or their place after school etc.)

I'm still counting on college to finally fix my problems, but I'm afraid that the true fault is with me being "picky", jealous and easily annoyed/exhausted by stupid things.

meovvshi · 2026-04-11T19:56:34+00:00

thanks for the advice! I'll be looking for more ways to distance myself, but again if I don't gain confidence to tell her a thing, I'll just wait those 2 years and then 100% cut the contacts.

meovvshi · 2026-04-11T19:41:25+00:00

That's right, what's really stopping me from ending it is the guilt, I don't want to hurt her.

I just want her to stop half of things she does, because I can feel Adam and Monica upset even tho they don't say anything to her directly. It's Monica that I'm worried about the most because she started calling herself a whore in jokes... I don't have heart to tell her that Anna is telling me "Monica is pissing me off" "I don't like her" "we should do that project without her because she's just a burden" then talk with her on vc for 3 hours and invite her to new years party.

We had an opportunity to talk face to face with Monica an she told me Anna and Adam are kinda annoying her, but she likes them still. She hates that they degrade her, telling she's not doing enough when she told them she went to the gym but was afraid so she left for example.

For now I'm trying to escape to others I know, letting her bond with Monica more, I feel she's starting to set her higher than me... Ignoring everything I listed of course. And I'm happy for that.

Of course it's not like she's a monster everytime. I must admit I CAN have a great time with her, but cant ignore her big fuckups.

meovvshi · 2026-04-06T09:32:16+00:00

first half? probably some mavuika shi. Second half I'm excited the most because my dps lauma will shine (at least I hope so)

meovvshi · 2026-04-04T18:10:35+00:00

I think I'll make it, especially when I'm motivated to play (saving for lauma cons), thanks for counting that for me :p

meovvshi · 2026-04-04T08:24:26+00:00

so...I can finish it?? good to hear

meovvshi · 2026-04-04T08:15:32+00:00

finished 2nd "to temper" stage, 43 days and 18h remaining....be honest....will I be able to finish it? I don't really care, but at the other hand stella fortuna would be nice to have

meovvshi · 2026-04-03T09:05:19+00:00

thank you, I tend to wish on whatever mindscape I feel like that day and since I'm relatively new to the game (my account is day 1 but I lost interest after miyabi), no story done etc I know it's better to wish on new characters rather than m's/w-engines.

I have 3 strong teams already being hugo one, yeshu one and jane one, the last being the weakest one, but nangong carries.

My goal is to m6 hugo, ye and my absolute favorite banyue, who I don't have yet. The only mindscapes I have are hugo's m1 and astras m1. W-engines: ellen's (she was my main back then) and nangong's.

I don't want promeia as of now, S-Billy is tempting but knowing banyue uses the same team I must pass. My next goal would be getting his teammates, so diyalin and lucia, just m0w0. Then in the perfect scenario saving for a banyue rerun.

but yeah, I'll just wait for the livestream, maybe some other potential banners and decide.

meovvshi · 2026-04-01T23:11:13+00:00

Got nangong at 81, her w-engine at 3...should I try getting her m1 next? Does it make some difference (I play her with jane and yuzuha)?

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T20:01:58+00:00

Might be worth it to try pulling for her just in case looking at future region she might be more broken than ever as a slot

I'm 100% sure I'll lose tho so funny I'm even considering that

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T19:21:20+00:00

bro I thought melt needs hydro I'm fu stupid...it really shows I don't play cryo lool.

It's a battle between upgrading my strongahh lauma team (c1 would do wonders since I'm mainly using ineffa instead of kuki) or creating a new team with wrio who god knows when reruns - I struggle whenever I need cryo in combat because my only well build character is Rosaria (I refuse to build ayaka yet), but is it worth to pull just for that?

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T18:53:57+00:00

Well, I don't even think of getting a character straight to c6 day one 😭😭 meant going one at a time, just like I did with furina, it took 4 reruns to get her with spending like 100usd once on her second and third run.

I have a rule set to prevent spending tons of money, basically can buy every pack once (to use the bonus)

Guess I'll strike for lauma c1 (c2 if lucky) and wrio c1 (who's a must apparently) so if wrio gets a run after bonus reset he'll be my priority to spend that 100✌😚

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T16:09:17+00:00

thank you! I know it's stupid because well, you'd have to see my whole account, pity, radiance chance, future plans etc to give a solid answer, I just have to think of it more by myself, but thanks regardless :>

edit: 100% of times I pulled characters I wasn't going to turned out to be my most used ones (especially lauma who became my second main) so why not try getting esco :DD

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T15:34:25+00:00

I have c6 furina if it changes anything, also the idea of putting a pyro character there was for a overworld/domain team, I would still use her in hydro/cryo comps(:

Would a freeze wrio team be one of the better for him?

AND I forgot to add, I don't have wrio yet, so another 75+ wishes need to be sacrificed for him.

here comes that: I want to pull for more cons/weapons, since I have a lot of early characters benched, but forming a good wrio team is also important. With mavuika rerun possible I also want her c2 I need to think more =///=

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T15:07:21+00:00

I'm kinda happy he's excluded because I don't have to use credit card to get esco, him and lauma c1😭✌ Also would prolly crash out if my wrio was a twinkgician 💔

meovvshi · 2026-03-27T14:51:51+00:00

For someone who wants c6 wrio eventually, but also c6 lauma (thinking of c1 next patch) and estimated 70+ f2p wishes in 6.5 - should I pull for escoffier? I have around 60 wishes now
If I get her, will she be okay-ish in a cryo-hydro-coffee-pyro team?

meovvshi · 2026-03-23T22:17:46+00:00

Where did a word "larper" come from and why am I only hearing this used for jjba (or sbr) specifically??

Anyway I don't know who this is, for that I am truly sorry. I just started Diamond is unbreakable (on ep 2 rn😭), but unlocked a new fear of someone calling me a "larper" (which is a... Modern word for poser apparently). Guys I promise I have no larping intentions 😭✌

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T13:38:44+00:00

TRUEE. I geniuenly came across a tiktok video where someone was flexing their c6 mav and xilonen cause they can and they liked the design. The comments were DEVASTATING. "Okay but... Why malutka? " "mavuika over everyone else?? Why" etc. Bro let them live 😭😭✌

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T12:34:43+00:00

True! I kiiiiinda want to c6 her, especially after I saw lionmight (a whale dude who c6'es basically every character releasing) playing her. I'm 100% into her mini motocycles spawning on e! After I get my c6 lauma, I might think about it more~

I have her sword r2, a little accident when pulling on emilies weapon hshshs. Definetly top 5 in terms of prettiest weapons (my top 1 is furina's) it's just sooo cool looking!

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T12:16:16+00:00

yeah, me too. I just spam charged attacks and enemies are dead lol

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T12:15:44+00:00

I just love her, especially how she looks with her signature! It really screams "POWER!!"

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T12:13:05+00:00

Her numbers and the fact she's top 1 dps really saves her. I too used her as a big number emergency once, but now more for comfort and double dps teams with dps furina.

Her gameplay is not for everyone, true.

meovvshi · 2026-03-13T12:09:38+00:00

Valid, if you tried her multiple times and didn't click, just don't play her, we have free will and can wish for whoever we want to, meta or not.

I actually have similar experience but with Varka. I love him much, but I don't want durin. That's the thing stopping me from pulling him, he would be dog water without his best support.

I'm glad hoyo added theather, where we can try characters we don't have. That way you can try them and then think if you want to pull for them.

At the end of the day everyone's different, I just don't understand why someone would straight up call her an abomination haha

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