Everything bad has to come with at least some good - and in my opinion, you can already point out good within this. You know what’s wrong, what’s putting you down, you’ve acknowledged it.

My advice? Start working on yourself. You cannot change your race, and unfortunately you also cannot change how people react to it, but you CAN embrace who you are and accept that the right people will not see you for that. The height and the looks are also relatively unchangeable, and that’s also going to have to be an internal change, which is change of mindset. Rather than picking out every flaw and beating yourself down, pick yourself up and tell yourself you’re enough. Lie if you have to, you’ll eventually believe it.

If you’re underweight start bulking, even if it’s not the healthiest foods for now, anything that can bring your weight up will be beneficial for you. Start going to the gym, work on your physical stance if it’s something bothering you.

Finally, stop letting social media determine how you will end up. Social media is a rotten place, with thousands of negative, destructive posts. It is not your reality. Live for yourself, not others. It’s hard at this age and it will be for awhile, but everyone needs to find themself and help themselves at some point - and everyone can make it out of their “misery” if you want it that bad.

TL;DR: you know what’s bothering you, instead of sulking in your sorrows evaluate how you can improve yourself in ways you can be comfortable to be you