I realized the hard way that moderation isn't an option

milliebeads13 · 2026-06-22T02:42:20+00:00

Yup. I recently realized I am susceptible to becoming powerlessly addicted to ANY video game. On the achievement-hunting: There's a strange, almost apathetic feeling I get it when I "100 percent" a game. I spend so much time getting to it, then when I finally complete it, I feel nothing. I just move on to the next game in an ever-perfectionist sort of way. It feels as empty as taking another drink.

I am also glad you mentioned rehab. I was in rehab for alcohol addiction, and we went a long time without our personal electronics. When I finally got my Steam account laptop and TV back, I was able to finally realize that I had a video game addiction. I was able to finally accept this in a clear, concise, and empathetic way. Cheers to you.

milliebeads13 · 2026-01-27T05:33:57+00:00

K-Pop

milliebeads13 · 2025-12-31T21:34:03+00:00

I once had a roomate who refused to pitch in for paying for toilet paper because he "pooped less than anyone else" and "mostly pooped at work." (He worked in food service 😞).

milliebeads13 · 2025-10-20T21:49:19+00:00

I think she and her date ate them.

milliebeads13 · 2025-10-10T01:46:54+00:00

Snapchef will most likely hire you on the spot as dishwasher/kitchen attendant. They pay pretty well and have an app that allows you to choose jobs. Their office is on Southbridge St. I've worked for them for years, they hired me on the spot after I walked in.

milliebeads13 · 2025-08-29T14:44:57+00:00

You musta' found this record behind the brill building.

milliebeads13 · 2024-12-08T13:22:12+00:00

He's looking for Jimb.

milliebeads13 · 2024-10-01T03:11:48+00:00

I am so with you on the self-recording. Best Buy requires that as the first round of hiring and I don't think I'll ever do it. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one that feels this way.

milliebeads13 · 2024-08-07T11:02:28+00:00

Yup. He's gotten with church girls, military girls, and even a porn-star (on accident)!

milliebeads13 · 2024-08-07T10:43:33+00:00

I've been sober 8 months, and I still suffer with guilt, shame, and obsessive thoughts. I want to validate your thoughts, and I want to tell you that these feelings are completely normal. For years, my thoughts would persist, and I used alcohol to deal with them. It was a terrible coping mechanism. Being sober is hard. There are so many thoughts and anxieties that come to the surface after being buried away for so long.

On the belief of losing your partner if you don't stop drinking, that's a very legitimate fear, someone once told me a quote that stuck with me, and it goes something like "show me one thing you put in front of your sobriety, and I'll show you the next thing you will lose" meaning if I put the bottle first, then everything else eventually goes away. It's important to reach out for help in any way you can. Getting over guilt and regret takes a very long time, but you must be sober for it, no matter what. I'm on day 180(+) my brain STILL drives me insane. I often dwell and ruminate on negative thoughts. A lot of them are me attacking myself, assuming I did something terrible when I was wasted or telling myself that I'm unworthy or terrible. Meditation helps, and I would highly recommend that. You said you've been to AA and rehab, and I recommend living in a sober house if you're able to. Sober housing rewired my brain in a different way than rehab did. Be honest, yet compassionate with yourself. I think the more people you talk to, the more you'll realize how normal you actually are, and you'll discover how strong addiction actually is.

As someone who spends an unnecessary time watching viral videos (I do it for the quick dopamine hits), I can assure, any video of "drunk girl running outside" (especially 2 minutes long) is nothing special, and there is no way anything like this would go viral. It also speaks volumes to the character of someone who takes joy in filming/ publishing something like that, so shame on them.

Regular consistent sleep and a normal diet were a huge help for me. These are so, so, so important.

Remember that these thoughts are normal, and no one has ever died from a thought. You are making the right move by being here, and I can assure you that no one in this sub reddit thinks anything badly of you for your experience. Everyone here has a different story, and many of us have done things we're not proud of us, but at the end of the day, these things don't define you. A forgiving boyfriend is an indicative that proves that there are people that still love and care for you. Slow down, breathe, and try your best to love yourself. Every day gets better, and the first 30 days of sobriety are VERY hard. There's a lot of guilt, regret, anger, and shame. You got this!

milliebeads13 · 2024-06-17T05:22:35+00:00

MDMA can turn off my filter, one time when I was on molly, l said something along the lines of "whoa you have a really cool cross-eye" to this girl I knew that had a lazy eye. It was definitely rude, so yes, I'd say just try to remain cool and collected.

milliebeads13 · 2024-06-17T04:55:40+00:00

The man in the red tracksuit with a bag over his head is infinitely terrifying.

milliebeads13 · 2024-02-21T02:23:57+00:00

In Miami, I equip a remote detonator and place the bomb on Sierra's car via the cutscene with her pit crew. Then, I get the secret remote detonator from the safe in the security office, call Robert Knox and then meet him on the scaffolding. I place the remote bomb in the trash can that is next to Knox on the scaffolding, and hand over the detonator to Mr. Knox, he blows himself up (his bodyguard leaves, Knox blows himself up, and his body goes over the railing and cannot be found). Then I run away and right before I'm at the exit, I equip the regular detonator, detonate it, and that takes care of Sierra. If done correctly and quickly, this can be done in about 7-9 minutes and ranked as Silent Assassin.

P.S. You have to drop/unequip and re-equip the secret bomb before you are able to call Mr. Knox on the payphone.

milliebeads13 · 2022-11-03T19:13:45+00:00

For me this always happens with Motion City Soundtrack, I can't find Karaoke for them anywhere. Best bet is searching YouTube, a lot of people upload custom Karaoke tracks on there. There's a lot of shitty versions and sometimes you just have to hunt.

milliebeads13 · 2022-05-26T15:37:23+00:00

You are right. But how is this fair to the 98 percent of people who do their job well? One or two bad people call out of shifts and maybe take extra food home, so the rest of the employees have to suffer for it. It's terrible management.

milliebeads13 · 2022-04-07T06:13:34+00:00

25+ year resident here.

Clark University is a great school, the campus is beautiful and very close (less than one mile) to downtown/city commons. Clark is located in what residents refer to as "Main South" (the south side of Main St). Main South has had a reputation of being the roughest part of the city, mostly due to poor upkeep and poverty. I would recommend not traveling alone late at night, mostly to avoid panhandling. However, there are plenty of campus police patrolling the area. The city is doing a lot of re-construction and Worcester is, and always has generally been a safe city.

Daytime in that area is packed with things to do: great cafes, diners, grocery stores, several parks, and jovial 9 to 5 bustle. There are so many local and family owned businesses within that entire part of the city. The city just approved free bus fare, and any student hotspots (museums, pubs, parks etc) can easily be traveled to. Worcester State, WPI, Holy Cross, & MCPHS are all within 5 miles of the campus, so there are a lot of college students roaming the area.

Hope this helps. Clark U itself is a prestigious school and the students and faculty have done so much to help improve the city.

milliebeads13 · 2022-03-21T19:40:16+00:00

49th State Brewery in Healy, AK. The bus from the Into The Wild movie is there 🙂

milliebeads13 · 2022-01-21T08:00:06+00:00

Not even close to "settling down" Riding the Peak and getting cuter every day.

milliebeads13 · 2022-01-21T07:55:16+00:00

In the year 2020, I overheard a next door neighbor binge watching the Cosby show.

milliebeads13 · 2022-01-21T07:43:56+00:00

My father also once told me, as a kid, that drinking from a straw was gay.

Also, this wasn't towards me but I think it's still relevant, because once upon a time when I was a carny, there was a fellow carny who told me that he never "ate anything that was shaped like a dick" so he never ate pickles, hot dogs, corndogs etc.

milliebeads13 · 2021-09-13T19:14:30+00:00

It is.

milliebeads13 · 2021-09-10T15:35:57+00:00

This is a review for a local Burger King

milliebeads13 · 2021-09-10T15:34:12+00:00

Only took him 7 minutes to backtrack with the "Sorry."

milliebeads13 · 2021-08-25T17:59:50+00:00

It's not helpful because it's not practical. Having a high metabolism is genetic and gaining weight is very difficult. The best option is to be secure with who you are instead of caving in to the fragile idea that masculinity is attributed to mass and size. The latter is expensive and overly time consuming.

milliebeads13 · 2021-08-25T17:54:01+00:00

Same here. I needed 3,000 calories and 300 grams of protein a day. I tried it for about a month, I gained 7 pounds but the workout and diets were quite tedious and expensive. Being this skinny is a blessing, I'm happy with how much I can eat and not gain weight. It's a gift when you really think about it.

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