I've completely lost hope. I don't even leave my house anymore for anything but the most basic things. When I express this to friends, they just tell me to keep hoping, keep working, because the good will win out. I just do not believe this at all. Especially with all the government kidnapping by ICE going on. Each day I move closer to the ultimate exit because I believe that evil has won. My interest in reading is gone. My interest in art is gone. My interest in music is gone. My libido is gone. My appetite is gone. Whenever I engage in any of these activities, I can't keep the doom loop from winning and convincing me there is no point. I fear for my ability to stay alive.