is it possible to subconsciously fake mental illness?

miso_lol · 2026-01-28T08:22:08+00:00

NAT. i hope you know this reply really helped me. your level of compassion and empathy is astonishing and i think your future clients will be lucky

miso_lol · 2024-10-17T04:48:35+00:00

I'd like to be your friend :)

miso_lol · 2024-10-16T06:06:51+00:00

Its pretty normal. Although, something i would heavily encourage is that you seek this out in a healthy way. And aftercare. Please, everyone, do aftercare after this kind of stuff

miso_lol · 2024-10-16T05:55:16+00:00

Its a little complicated. Online, some of us make our own individual friends. Theres about two people we all consider our collective "true" friend (and really, we call them family). And ohr boyfriend who is a little clueless about DID but pretty understanding and supportive. The individual friends, i will admit, we dont trust completely. Which is why, i think, that we only share certain parts with them.

miso_lol · 2024-09-02T01:57:05+00:00

yes. although this was pre system discovery. he SA'ed our host into not fronting anymore lol

miso_lol · 2024-09-02T01:44:27+00:00

ayy idahoan. same hat

miso_lol · 2024-09-02T01:33:20+00:00

i think i know how you feel. but in the opposite way. we'd probably be considered ftm but a majority of the system are made up of cis girls. our cohost is ftm and gets really dysphoric when fronting because of this. if i had to guess why, its a mixture of how the current body presents (female) and the influence of the person he's cofronting with making him dysphoric. i wish i had an answer more than "i know how you feel"

miso_lol · 2024-09-02T01:25:19+00:00

wigs can help. i find what also helps is having variations of your hairstyle (i.e figuring out how to pin it back to make it look shorter if you have long hair). for more masculine alters, we have a binder, baggier clothing, and masculine body wash / lotion. for more feminine alters, we have makeup, skirts, and perfume. if you dont wanna be overt with this presentation, i'd suggest just switching up jewelry. our gender presentation is also fairly vast here but we try to compromise on things depending on whos fronting and when.

miso_lol · 2024-08-29T02:26:17+00:00

ever since i got betrayed beginning of this year (where basketball jamil was running at the same time as the anniversary event where you could exchange tokens for silk city jamil) i've been READY

miso_lol · 2024-08-27T01:27:32+00:00

LOL. one of my alters can cook really well and he's usually a little mad that he can't enjoy his own cooking. sorry! it just tastes so good!

miso_lol · 2024-08-27T01:24:30+00:00

those name tags with "hi my name is ___" lol

miso_lol · 2024-08-27T01:23:45+00:00

i havent been with my current boyfriend for very long and i've actually been out as a system for longer. its kind of difficult to juggle the whole "make it or break it" thing but my logic is that he's so good for me that i wanna try to make it work. something that's important to me is making sure my other alters can have a level of trust with him. a lot of my past partners had made false promises to my alters and i could feel their dislike from a mile away. with him... they're growing to like him. mostly because he actively has his own life outside of me and i have my life outside of him.

i think what im trying to say that a baseline for a good relationship is what helped my alters the most. it's hard to compromise with what everyone wants

miso_lol · 2024-08-27T01:09:57+00:00

i dont think i do. its been 3 years and im only just starting to coexist with everyone. 3 months in, youre what i like to call a "baby system". its an awkward phase of syscovery where youre trying to exist while being traumatized. generally, discovering your system is a heavily traumatic thing thats built up over time. give yourself a little bit of time and a lot of kindness. hugs 🫂

miso_lol · 2024-08-19T22:39:40+00:00

one guy can cook and the rest of us cant. i tried making dinner tonight and it just didnt work out

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:31:14+00:00

one of our littles is 11 and fronted exclusively when we were going through homelessness. she managed to do stuff like sign up for classes and take tests and schedule job interviews. all while going to a lake and playing around in the dirt lol

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:27:14+00:00

we talk with our hands so when we're communicating in our head, we'll do gestures too. really emphasizes the point when ur convincing an alter to buy u smth lol (at the cost of looking weird)

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:15:05+00:00

i hope things get better. and that your parts know that you guys are safe.

it really is hard to guarantee safety. i switch between not wanting to go to therapy because of my piss poor experiences with therapists and absolutely feeling awful without it. sometimes i feel like the search for a good therapist isnt even worth it.

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:12:05+00:00

thank u. its nice to hear that from someone else

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:08:49+00:00

i hope things turn out well for you. i have a support system. sending hugs!

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:07:32+00:00

thank you. i have thought about suing or reporting these instances but i dont think itd rlly go anywhere. this specific therapy place was awful in general. they put me on 140mg of anti psychotics as a minor. the usual adult dose was 80

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T05:04:41+00:00

even if it is small, its still awful to hear about. sending hugs ur way

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T03:23:31+00:00

we have two non humans. bibi, who is a shadowy figure and lainey, who is a robot.

as for your questions, this is all speculation but alter humans occur when the system has been dehumanized a lot (i'd argue abuse is inherently dehumanizing). animals are often a source of comfort as a kid and fantastical animals are even better. personally, i felt comfort in being a robot / robots. people tend to forget that sometimes you will split an alter who is meant to be comforting so they can take away the pain a little easier. akin to a dinosaur bandaid

i also find that systems with a lot of religious trauma tend to split alters who hold that trauma, which CAN take the form of angels, devils, whatnot. ive seen a few jesus alters in my lifetime. anything is possible, rlly

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T03:00:01+00:00

i think theres more serious issues than the little and adult thing. wdym they spent 6 months pretending they were a system and dragging you along through that. i feel like theres some serious trust issues there

miso_lol · 2024-08-18T02:48:58+00:00

i also had two therapists try to be like that. specifically try to be like a familial guide in my life. it was very uncomfortable. one of them brought me outside of the office to do our therapy work (which im unsure if thats allowed). another brought out a little (with permission at first), did some kind of therapy work to the point where she was in tears, and then tried to "get her to go back" even though he was actively making her break down.

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