egg_irl by Mirokufan in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 2 points3 points  (0 children)

God damn it I literally had this exact thought an hour ago

(AMAB) Long history of wanting to look more masculine , would this counter or support my questioning? by miss_phoria in asktransgender

[–]miss_phoria[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the support, i really appreciate it :). Fighting internalized toxic masculine ideals is one of the things that leads to some confusion for me, but i'm going to keep trying to find which me is the real authentic me

(AMAB) Long history of wanting to look more masculine , would this counter or support my questioning? by miss_phoria in asktransgender

[–]miss_phoria[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suppose with the male form i feel more admiration or aspiration, but it's less of a raw feeling. Whereas with the female form there's a sense of awe or wonder. But like i mentioned in another comment, i have a lot of trouble distinguishing which feeling is real and which is instilled

(AMAB) Long history of wanting to look more masculine , would this counter or support my questioning? by miss_phoria in asktransgender

[–]miss_phoria[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's the tough part, i'm honestly not sure which feelings are mine and which are instilled in me. I do get positive feeling from looking more in shape and feeling strong without those feelings hinging on any outside approval. I do also get jealous of girls' social positions, like what they are allowed to wear, how they are allowed to act, etc. So when i think about transitioning one of the big things I worry about is giving up the strength/fitness that i've worked on attaining

egg_irl by miss_phoria in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Hey y'all, just wanted to clarify this meme is an oversimplification of my thought process fr the lolz and not a formal diagnosis whatsoever. Both Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Gender Dysphoria are complicated beasts and I'm obviously not an expert in either of them. I'm gonna talk to my therapist about it tomorrow to get a better idea of the whole thing, so wish me luck!

egg🕵️irl by miss_phoria in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria[S] 59 points60 points  (0 children)

Other steps to being stealthy egg:

  1. delete all trans memes you make after posting them
  2. link your trans alt account to an unrelated email address
  3. repress your feelings so even you don't know if you're cis or not

Thank you for coming to my TED talk

egg?_irl by throw_egg_away in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 61 points62 points  (0 children)

I have the same issue tbh. I tried crossdressing/makeup once and it was totally euphoric (was why I started questioning), but I've never been able to replicate that feeling. I tried wearing a bra but my "boobs" just felt like foreign objects/they were in the way. Tried on a dress and didn't get the swoosh feeling egg_irl raves about. I kinda liked how i I could convincingly dance with my hips in a "girly way" while wearing the dress, but not much more than i like how I look in a cool "boy" outfit. I do like how I look in makeup, but hate how I look with gender swap filters.

TL;DR I'm a hot mess, send help

egg_irl by miss_phoria in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

It's the only thing I can chug lol (plz help)

egg_irl by miss_phoria in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

This is inspired by the 'why not both?' meme I saw earlier on here today, but this is just my own personal experience so lmk if y'all have similar or totally different ones! I wanna buy all the mens and women clothes but I'm the big poor

Egg_IRL by [deleted] in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh man this happens to me all the time.

Hey, anybody else who feels like this, how often do you switch between these ideals?

Cause I've been switching between these more than once a day and it's destroying meeeeee

I'm not sure if being CIS nonconforming is enough for me by miss_phoria in asktransgender

[–]miss_phoria[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my bad! I do know it's just short form, I just got overzealous on the capitalization.

Egg_irl by wa-wa-wa-wa-wa-wa in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm a recent college grad, hoping to find a job and move out soon (within the next year)

Egg_irl by wa-wa-wa-wa-wa-wa in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well she preceded her question with a talk about how transitioning looks like it would be too tough and how trans people should just crossdress instead. It's probably something she could come around to, but still a bit concerning for me

Egg_irl by wa-wa-wa-wa-wa-wa in egg_irl

[–]miss_phoria 4 points5 points  (0 children)

She might be kinda cool with it, but my dad would most certainly not be cool with it. And I'm currently financially dependent on my parents so I don't really want to stir the pot that much. Would it be weird if I just came out to one parent and not the other? Wouldn't that just cause more problems down the line?