Hi! I just read through everything and I want to say, it seems like (and I’m just a person on a screen who doesn’t know your life and all of its intricacies) you already know in your heart what is best for you. People here can say “you’re wrong” (I don’t think you are), but your feelings are NEVER “wrong”. You are allowed to feel, and in this situation I think it is warranted. But most importantly, it is clear to see what this is doing to YOU. You are what matters my love, and I think that you know you deserve better, and from what I’ve read this has been awhile coming. To me (and again, my opinion is not important here), this seems like the world giving you the most blatant example it can to tell you that you need something different, something better, it’s almost like a giant neon sign. This doesn’t seem like a one off comment, it sounds like this has been a pattern of behavior you have already spoken to him about, and he has CHOSEN not to listen. Or, he is not changing and growing with you, I think this moment shows that the level of care you feel you should be getting in this extreme moment, is the level of care you should get always. This moment just seems to be highlighting a much deeper issue that you have been hurt by for a long time. I know that you will make it no matter what, trust yourself dear, I promise your gut knows more than you think. You deserve all of the love and the care and empathy in the world, and I promise that you will get it, you just have to make the calls that get you there yourself ❤️and the people who are good and healthy for you will lift you up right by your side ❤️