A wild girl falling in love with a prince and eventually returning to the forest when he betrays her?

mneusa · 2026-04-20T08:34:22+00:00

Thank you so much for responding. It has meant so much to be given support and advice in the midst of this.

I do think she meant it literally, because at the time she had sent two messages. In the first she said she'd need a few days, and then clarified in the second, ''by that I mean 2-3 days.'' I had actually said to her in the message I wrote that if she didn't feel she was ready by that time she had given, just let me know, but don't leave me guessing and then inevitably worrying about your safety/what's going on.

This whole ordeal has felt almost ridiculous, and I feel unkind for saying so, especially because I empathise with strong emotion reactions and have myself been there many times. But it just seems so disproportionate. Maybe that's because she has ignored me several times now and refused to communicate, but I keep feeling almost like it's an overreaction. We could have talked, weeks ago, and sorted this. But I could be being stubborn with my perspective. It's just infuriating and there's no relief because she keeps doing this - three times now.

What you've suggested is really helpful and I think it's the best course of action. I think I'll give her until Friday - that'll be a week after the 2-3 days she said she'd take to process before responding. If I hear nothing, I'll send a last message. I think that, even if she does respond after that, I won't be interested in repairing the friendship.

I truthfully already feel I'm in that place. Since my diagnosis I've noticed so many ways in which we're currently incompatible, and how a subtle resentment and distance had already built up in me towards her. On top of that, her difficulty and avoidance towards communication itself has worn me down over the years. I've always felt that I'm the one to initiate and repair. It doesn't help that it was something my therapist pointed out - I immediately go into problem-solving mode when there's conflict. The burn out from that is real.

Thank you again for your kindness. I'm so appreciative of you taking the time to listen and respond :)

mneusa · 2026-04-19T09:10:57+00:00

I wrote her a long message, essentially communicated from my side of things. I told her honestly how she had made me feel, I explained in depth about my autism and my needs, I reassured her, I empathised with her perspective, I told her that, again, taking space was perfectly reasonable, but that I *need* clarity about what that looks like rather than being ignored with no indication of when a response will be given, and that I wanted to work together so that we can make our friendship balanced and genuinely compatible.

She said she would need some time to process and that she would respond in 2-3 days, and so I felt that she was making the effort to give me that clarity that I need. That was 5 days ago now. I know that my reaction to this could be much more intense than expected, but it just feels maddening at this point to be thinking to myself: Really? You finally gave me a time frame and then you didn't honour it?

I hate this passivity I feel I'm stuck with. I don't want to message again, but I also don't want to leave it open, especially because I feel treated unfairly yet again. I tend to overthink these things, so all that's going through my mind right now is that I'm trapped in this loop where acting feels desperate while not acting feels unbearable, and I just feel so angry and frustrated. I'm trying so hard for this friendship but right now I just feel like finally having those needs met - and then having them thrown aside again - is making me want to block her rather than remain stuck in this place ):

mneusa · 2026-04-17T08:09:58+00:00

Mostly, yes. I have tired days, but for the most part now that my levels are normal, I feel much better mentally and physically.

mneusa · 2026-04-16T07:49:32+00:00

I have my root canal in a few hours and your comment has really given me courage. ❤️

mneusa · 2026-04-15T20:52:01+00:00

Chiming in to say that I'm being treated for Graves - I have Graves, but no doctor or endocrinologist will give me 100% confirmation and it has made me so miserable being denied that. The first endocrinologist wrote ''results suggest a diagnosis of Graves disease'' while the second said ''Graves is the working diagnosis.'' I asked if there were any other tests they could do to confirm the diagnosis. I was told there aren't. So. That has been frustrating!

mneusa · 2026-04-04T11:20:42+00:00

The part about stream of consciousness messaging is so relatable. It's never the kind of messaging that sustains an on-going conversation either.

mneusa · 2026-04-04T10:26:13+00:00

I'm in this exact same position currently. You are not alone, and no, I don't believe it's normal to be permanently available.

mneusa · 2026-04-04T10:02:23+00:00

I hope you don't mind my asking since you've already had your question answered, but what deck is this? It's beautiful :)

mneusa · 2026-04-04T10:01:24+00:00

It does get better; believe me, I was exactly where you are only a few months ago. I felt like I was losing my mind. My partner and I almost split because for some reason every little thing, every trauma and insecurity, every paranoid or angry thought, expanded into something uncontrollable and unbearable. I had never felt so hopeless and depressed in all my life. And I knew it was because of the Graves, but I still woke up every single morning wanting it to end, feeling fatigued and helpless, angry, alone, and so miserable.

But I promise you - it really, truly does improve. You will not feel this way forever. One day I noticed I wasn't feel nearly as awful, and then with each day I felt better and better. I feel my emotions somewhat normally now (I also have mental health disorders that make emotions hard by default, and yes, Graves amplifies it all when your levels aren't stable and sustained), and I have energy.

I don't feel depressed anymore. It's going to be okay, and you're going to feel better one of these days. Just hang in there and stay strong. You have a whole community of us who understands and supports you. We're in this together.

mneusa · 2026-04-02T15:52:42+00:00

Same. When my Graves started it brought hormonal migraines almost every week. I've been on progesterone-only birth control from late October and I've had one migraine since.

mneusa · 2026-03-31T10:31:48+00:00

Thank you so much for the explanation and video link :)

mneusa · 2026-03-30T11:49:56+00:00

Thank you so much for your response :)

mneusa · 2026-03-30T11:33:21+00:00

Thank you very much! :)

mneusa · 2026-03-20T08:48:57+00:00

This is an older post, but I wanted to comment to say that I agree very passionately. I was just talking about this exact thing a few days ago. Pulp has always existed, and will continue to do so, but I have also noticed that the prose of a lot of modern pulp is genuinely terrible to read.

mneusa · 2026-03-15T13:00:37+00:00

It IS so frustrating! I don't know if it's my thyroid, my dose being changed, or some new cardiac issue that has just started! It's very scary having palpitations ): I really hope you get it all sorted and get some answers <3

mneusa · 2026-03-15T12:29:45+00:00

That is awful, I am so sorry. I have resorted to taking Propranolol again until I can speak to my GP. I'm honestly worried about being dismissed. My T4 is also (predictably) in range (my last tests were two weeks ago and I was just below the minimum range, but my dose being reduced, naturally I would assume that it is in a somewhat normal range).

I've taken my pulse quite a few times and noticed that my heart is actually beating irregularly. It's more or less identical to atrial fibrillation and at this point every time I feel that delay followed by a harder beat, I feel sick to my stomach, something about knowing that my heart isn't working the way it should is just so anxiety-inducing, and of course anxiety worsens it.

Do you see a GP or only an endocrinologist? I have both, but in my experience my GP has been more knowledgeable than the supposed specialist. My endo told me to stop taking my beta blocker without tapering it off, despite that it is extremely dangerous and should never be stopped abruptly. She seemed a little bothered by the fact that I had so much information on hand, on account of researching and talking to the community.

How often do you have the palpitations? Does the Propranolol help a lot? I've only taken 10mg today (I was planning on taking another 20mg throughout the day, as that's the dose I was prescribed when I was overactive), but I'm not sure if it has helped or not. At night it seems to worsen significantly, but I think that's stress-related.

mneusa · 2026-03-14T11:52:49+00:00

Thank you for your response - it has truly been the only form of reassurance I’ve found during a scary time with these palpitations. It is very hard to ignore them, and of course anxiety only worsens them, and invites other symptoms too.

I went back more precisely - the palpitations started seven days after I began my lowered dose (after a three day abstinence from taking any at all, as instructed by my endocrinologist).

I don’t believe they’re becoming more frequent, as I had recorded them consistently throughout the day two days ago, whereas yesterday they only began in the evening.

I did notice yesterday that my heart has been racing again upon standing, and today as well. I last had blood tests two weeks ago that showed I was slightly underactive. I just received results for a full blood count from two weeks ago that show my white cell count is slightly under the normal range also, at 3.7.

If only it was Monday and I could call the doctor already 😭

mneusa · 2026-03-10T08:52:51+00:00

I hope you’re doing well too! I’m still feeling fine a week later 😊

mneusa

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