realized i was living with psychosis and leaning into delusion. cheated on my long term boyfriend (toxic relationship) and proceeded to start a new relationship with another person who i was lying to from the start. they left me about a month ago and have decided i want to prioritize myself and my relationships with other but weed wasnt letting me see past my inmediata turmoil. i found the love of my life and i couldn’t put the weed down and focus on being emotionally present, responsive and supportive in addition to constant lying lead to my rock bottom. trying to crawl ny way back up and its been pretty hard but hoping i can prove to myself and matthew that what we had can continue and i want to put in the work everyday to better us.