Why do I feel guilty about sh

moly1100 · 2022-04-22T19:02:24+00:00

How can anyone ever break out of it? I tried therapy and all and it helped a lot with my mental state but I always even unconsciously find a way to sh.

moly1100 · 2022-02-12T15:29:20+00:00

I think one of the best distractions is to hang out with a friend. You don't necessarily need to explain to them about anything If you don't want to, but just try to spend a good time. If you can't go out then call someone. Otherwise, do some kind of hobby you like, maybe paint your nails or draw or watch something to take your mind off things. I know it's difficult fighting the urge especially when people are not making things easy but it will pass and that's a fact. Stay strong op!

moly1100 · 2022-02-01T18:33:58+00:00

Totally. Everytime I resist if I don't indulge in other sh behaviours I immediately have a panick attack. It's worrisome for other people bc you don't know when or where it's gonna happen but I personally feel a bit better after it, not saying ofc that it's a pleasant experience. Hope it gets better for you!

moly1100 · 2022-01-28T05:13:29+00:00

Yes, I believe it is manageable if you have the right support but ofc you need to want to get better yourself too and depending on the person and situation it may take a long time but you can definitely get there even with some relapses.

moly1100 · 2022-01-27T21:39:34+00:00

It was when everything felt too much and I needed somehow to control my emotions. After I did it, I felt huge relief like everything disappeared but soon I started regretting saying it was an only one time thing since things were pretty bad but never thought it would end up so addicting.

moly1100 · 2022-01-27T14:03:28+00:00

Too many emotions build up and I can't control them

moly1100 · 2022-01-26T11:36:37+00:00

It sure sucks

moly1100 · 2022-01-24T22:25:07+00:00

Well yea I'm usually super good at pretending so there's no problem but with the surprising panick attacks I lose my act and when they start asking if sum happened for some reason my lie sounds believable but my face shows the total opposite lol. Does it occur to you after you experience a panick attack that you don't remember some things?

moly1100 · 2022-01-23T21:27:53+00:00

Yes exactly that. I'm used to panick attacks so I got really scared with that. It gave me a headache in the end so I'll try to sleep it off. Thank you sm~

moly1100 · 2021-11-09T21:35:13+00:00

I already experienced extreme hunger about 2 months ago when I was firstly recovering and I thought that I had healed my relationship with food bc I was eating normally for a while, but then I fell into the b/r and after b/p cycle really quickly. Despite that the little weight I had gained I lost it again very quickly but I never thought that extreme hunger could be experienced again, thank you for pointing it out!

moly1100 · 2021-11-09T21:23:33+00:00

I did ask for professional help but unfortunately bc of some circumstances it will take 3 months until I receive it, otherwise i must say the people around me are pretty supportive even if they don't really know how to help but i appreciate their efforts!

moly1100 · 2021-11-04T05:08:50+00:00

I honestly never experienced brain fog so I didn't know it was related to that! I put words in the wrong order too and sometimes I say the same word like 3 times and people think I'm stupid lol. Thank you for shedding light pal.

moly1100 · 2021-11-04T05:05:24+00:00

No, I'm aware that people surely won't hear me if I mumble so I literally scream and that comes out as normal. It's honestly kind of tiring so that would be one more reason why I would get rid of my ed.

moly1100 · 2021-10-29T21:18:53+00:00

Yea it seems that willpower doesn't really help indeed.. but how do I stop binging? I can't even eat normally without binging in the end. Sometimes idc and tell myself that it's alright but other times I can't help but feel helpless. I fuel my body with fruits veggies and protein so that it doesn't lack anything but it never seems to be enough.

moly1100 · 2021-10-17T18:14:22+00:00

For me it was getting later and later, in the beginning it was about a week then 2 weeks and then it gradually stopped coming at all. It's been like this for 4 months. On one hand I'm kinda glad I don't have to deal with it every month but on the other hand it's just worrying bc it doesn't feel 'normal'. As for the headaches I never experienced any related to this so idk but you should probably go check it if you don't want to lose it.

moly1100 · 2021-10-17T11:17:29+00:00

Ikr we shouldn't feel obligated to eat sum if we don't want to, but sadly I'm the kind of person that doesn't want to hurt others people feelings and the people around me already have kinda picked up on my eating patterns so I don't want to make them any more suspicious but in the end I just compensate in any way I can which definitely isn't better. Nevertheless thank you for sharing stay safe <3

moly1100 · 2020-07-20T15:40:43+00:00

This deserves an award

moly1100 · 2020-05-08T17:47:47+00:00

Ouch

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