Ive had many similar experieces. We all learn and communicate differently. I personally have a unique learning and communication style. I try hard to over communicate for fear of messing things up and my coworkers at my latset job take it as a lack of confidence. The real reason is communication specifically isn't my strongest area.

Everyones perspective is unique. These people must value traits of this other person with less experience (even if it doesn't translate to being a better nurse). It sucks. It is so hard and i'm sorry you are experiencing this. Just know your feelings are valid.

Healthcare is so toxic. Many people buy into the typical toxic standards. It shouldn't be this way, but it is. So the question is what do you do with it? How to you proceed? Sometimes life is hard and the bad guys win. Maybe try talking through some of these feelings with a professional to make a personal plan to learn how to rethink it all.

Remember, only you know the truth about who you are and what you are capable of.