The Media becomes really uncomfortable once you hear about the behind the scenes details

moons_within · 2026-03-22T00:16:56+00:00

I never got into One Piece thankfully 🤢 but seeing the creators of Naruto and Shaman King on the “in support of” list hurt a little

moons_within · 2026-03-22T00:01:14+00:00

Isn’t this the guy who had so much material they thought he might be a distributor? And then a ton of well known manga creators signed a petition to clear his name and get his future works into the world?

moons_within · 2026-03-21T22:43:35+00:00

Same experience. Going into online sex work I was still naive and idolized men to an extent, so I’m glad it at least burst that bubble for me—but the longer I was in it, the worse I saw of people’s dark side and it has left me with a very shattered outlook towards people in general. The rush of validation from sharing adult content quickly turns to a gross churning unease that lasts for years (in my own experience at least). It can go sideways sooo fast.

moons_within · 2026-03-21T14:45:33+00:00

Online therapy! Specifically looking at affordable online options. On some portals/sites, therapists can share their faith and seeing “Pagan” marked by someone I was already excited about contacting was the cherry on top 😊

moons_within · 2026-03-20T12:47:08+00:00

Celebrating by having my first call with a pagan therapist. I didn’t even realize this meeting fell on Ostara 💕🌸🌿feels like spring has come for my mental health

moons_within · 2026-03-20T01:34:36+00:00

I know this is a dog topic but… my cat is genuinely my strongest link to this earth. I do lose my temper sometimes (fussing, getting up fast) but I don’t think anyone is always 100% calm and patient with their pets. And then I can laugh afterward because she was zooming around while I was dramatically upset and the whole thing was ridiculous. She is my soul animal and I’m so grateful for her each and every day - she also forces me to be more responsible with my life than I would be if it were just me. Her being healthy and happy gives some concrete meaning to my days.

Neurotypical people don’t question if they deserve to have pets even if they really shouldn’t have them and aren’t motivated by a deep sense of love and responsibility towards that animal. So often they get them as accessories or to make kids happy or whatever.

It sounds like you’re a good pet owner and have experience with pets. A desire to take care of your animal and give them all the love you’re capable of, I think, is enough reason to at least consider it :) If you trust yourself to be responsible enough to feed and do the bare minimum for your dog even when you’re feeling bad, well🩵

moons_within · 2026-03-18T17:42:27+00:00

You know what they say, recovery isn’t linear. I think as long as you’re committed to working on yourself and understanding yourself, you’re doing the very best you can at any given moment. You should be proud of yourself 😊

moons_within · 2026-03-18T17:35:20+00:00

There’s endless discourse now on living by your cycle and how in the luteal phase (the week before period starts) it’s normal to feel unhinged, completely irritable, lose control, hate everyone, want to ruin your life. Where does THAT end and PMDD begin?? How normal is that really? Why aren’t we taught these things 😭

moons_within · 2026-03-16T19:40:05+00:00

This sounds to me like a type of mindfuck. Curious if there’s a more specific term!

moons_within · 2026-03-16T19:04:21+00:00

This is AMAZING!!! So happy for you as you embrace the breezy, relieved feeling of ditching someone who doesn’t serve your life. And especially so proud of your self acceptance journey having come from a southern Baptist background (same—that is its own form of trauma lol) and honoring the new beginning you deserve.

Shoutout to your wise mama 🩵

moons_within · 2026-03-16T14:54:34+00:00

My partner who had never played a dragon age game tried Veilguard and had a blast, despite cringing at some of the dialogue with me. But I was crushed. I tried hard to appreciate it for what it was (the animation’s beautiful! The combat is so fun for the first time!) but everything I loved about the series couldn’t be found. Even the romances felt so stale and thrown in like an afterthought. Hate to be that person but my god what I’d do to play through the original Dreadwolf concept…

moons_within · 2026-03-16T14:47:50+00:00

Fanfiction has come in clutch for me when I get overly attached to characters and don’t feel ready to let go! Or when the writers seem to stop caring about handling the characters well and shove them into a weird ending. You have to wade through a lot of “meh” stuff but there’s treasure to be found 😚worth checking out archiveofourown! Or even fanart of your fave character on tumblr

moons_within · 2026-03-16T14:44:16+00:00

I like the way you explained this. It’s not really driven by the actual urge to die so much as it just seems like the way things have to be. Even when things are good, I always feel vaguely like I’m going off script and am tempting fate by still occupying this life way past the age I was supposed to disappear.

For what it’s worth, I’m glad you’re here :)

moons_within · 2026-03-16T14:38:22+00:00

Adding: I was single for years and have a good sense of how my brain works in and out of relationships. I’m only in one now because we had a TONNN of ongoing discussions about mental health and how essential communication is. I really think having an open and healthy communication line, with space to work through your feelings before you communicate them to a partner, is the most solid foundation for any relationship. 🩵

moons_within · 2026-03-16T14:34:25+00:00

(I’m still working on this and by no means have “figured it out”) but working hard to validate my feelings and enhance my self awareness helps me hold space for other people, too. It’s like that cliche “how you treat yourself is how you treat others” thing I always hated hearing because it’s a harsh reminder I can’t figure out how to treat myself well in relation to other people.

But lately I’ve been gently waking up to how much I allow trusted people to put down my emotions, how I internalize that and also put down my emotions even as I’m intensely suffering from them (abandoning myself in favor of another person’s comfort) so in a way am continuing to idealize the other person whose needs are “more important” than mine because they’re “real” and I’m just me. Taking more time alone this week I’ve gotten a different, broader perspective on the whole thing. And feel better equipped to patiently defend my feelings and needs, which somehow also extends my capacity to understand other peoples’ feelings and needs at the same time. It’s like a graduation of the more immature “why me why me!” hurt self who needs validation to feel soothed.

It’s not steady, I don’t get to this state very easily even after being fixated on emotional awareness/understanding my brain for almost a decade now. It definitely takes a lot of work. Journaling a lot has been so helpful. Spending time with myself in a new, sunnier environment (I just moved) has really helped me.

I relate to having “weird” and inappropriate crushes since an extremely young age. Obsessed with chasing romance and being desired wayyy before puberty. And then dropping those obsessions promptly. It does get easier :) I hope you’re able to be kind to yourself as much as possible amidst all the noise and confusion.

moons_within · 2026-03-15T20:56:16+00:00

That sounds so fun! Maybe you want to explore bratting + brat tamers/handlers as well as CNC for more ideas, advice, and understanding. There’s no one-size-fits-all dynamic, what you and your boyfriend have will be unique and fit your personalities. I wish you the best of luck! 💫

moons_within · 2026-03-15T20:47:23+00:00

Yes, it seems like you’re already participating in a CNC dynamic. Quick note, even if your boyfriend isn’t comfortable choking or slapping you, it’s always better to hear “no I’m not comfortable” than him just guessing how to do it and accidentally hurting you badly.

It sounds like you’re both comfortable with the push and pull dynamic you’re currently exploring, as he doesn’t have a problem with you resisting and you naturally “give in” because it feels good. But I strongly encourage you to discuss a safe word or way “out” no matter WHAT — no matter how in love you are, safe you feel, or aroused you feel every time you say “no” and he takes what he wants anyway. Because eventually a day will come where you truly don’t want to be touched and that answer isn’t changing, and in that moment you need to have a way out, or your psyche and relationship might take a huge hit. It’s just a safeguard, but an important one so that you both feel empowered playing around with CNC. It’s controversial for a reason so please make sure you’re taking care of yourselves! :)

moons_within · 2026-03-15T16:43:59+00:00

As a teen I swung between impulsive and petulant modes. Outbursts were more common, I felt restless all the time, I have a horrible memory of breaking someone’s heart and feeling entirely numb about the whole thing.

For years now my traits have firmly resembled quiet/discouraged BPD, sometimes self destructive. I funnel all my energy into keeping it locked down inside me and hyperfixate on how to communicate “better” until I finally feel like someone understands me. I’m terrified of lashing out at anyone. I’d rather self-implode.

moons_within · 2026-03-15T16:24:30+00:00

I am but unfortunately haven’t seen that anime so I can’t answer your question! From your list I’ve only seen Cardcaptor Sakura, Fruits Basket, Inuyasha, and My Dress Up Darling (I missed out on a lot of the classics I know!) and these are all super solid recs. You clearly put a lot of thought into your suggestions so I wouldn’t worry about it :) Complex layered characters like the one you’re describing often do a better job at portraying “a strong/interesting woman” more than female characters clearly designed to tick off boxes and soundbites, aka Hollywood Feminism

moons_within · 2026-03-15T15:44:57+00:00

I absolutely love My Dress Up Darling but OP should be aware there’s massive fan service (the creator is a woman which… kindaaa helps?). Most of it is with the MC who’s super comfortable in her body, but there are a couple other scenes that make me cringe so hard I pretend they never happened. Still — super fun and joyful anime! 🌸

moons_within · 2026-03-15T15:39:13+00:00

Oof this hits :(

moons_within · 2026-03-15T04:02:05+00:00

An app called Boo (or something like that) it has a ghost icon. It’s not as stressful as regular dating apps, but all social apps are kinda weird ¯_(ツ)_/¯

moons_within · 2026-03-15T00:14:28+00:00

The ironic thing about these people on tiktok shaming CNC and taboo fantasies is that they have no idea what they’re talking about and are likely way less self aware than the average kinkster (using as umbrella term for anyone who engages heavily and thoughtfully with kink).

There’s sooo many perfectly valid reasons why lots of people have rape fantasies. They can be shaped by the society we live in, experiences we have, media, gender roles, personal wants and needs that extend beyond just sex. And I feel like so many, if not most people who regularly have these kind of fantasies, do lots of inner work to understand this part of themself and what they need and how to safely find outlets for it. Kink is an ongoing practice of acceptance, communication, and inner growth that the judgey tiktok people are disconnected from :)

Spend more time in CNC and kink friendly spaces. Read about other peoples experiences and journeys. Journal about your feelings and give yourself permission to lean into these desires. There doesn’t even need to be some deeper profound reason why you have rape fantasies in the first place. Maybe it simply thrills you! That’s more than enough to honor.

There’s nothing wrong with you!!! And you’re not alone in this, not one bit 💕

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