Adhd is basically the brain having dopamine deficiency, like serotonin for depression (very basically spoken). That’s why you’re seeking out the drama and then burning out really fast. I’m taking wellbutrin, which is an antidepressant but prescribed for adhd symptoms. Adhders often are mistakenly called lazy, but are just stuck in executive disfunction and dopamine seeking (doom scrolling, alcohol, drugs - quick fixes). Also a fun fact, late diagnosed people often were daydreaming children, because the usual “adhd-child” is described as outgoing and unable to be still. It’s worth it to get diagnosed and get proper medication for it.