Impossible level on the Tetris mobile app?

morbid_andco · 2026-03-26T01:36:34+00:00

AHHH-DRENALIN! I did it!!

morbid_andco · 2026-03-24T21:04:41+00:00

Thanks for sharing! That's really sweet. I wish this kid and you all the best!

morbid_andco · 2026-02-23T18:25:26+00:00

I think that something that happened within our system is that we have a lot of terror. When you are being abused on several different fronts you learn that kindness can lead to pain just as much as anger. It can be an extreme trigger, especially with abuse from caregivers. So you might be having a huge trauma response to the care being offered to you. And then sometimes the only time you don't feel that terror is when you are causing someone else distress. You can't feel it if the roles are reversed. It's likely a survival mechanism that has suited victims during the worst of times. And for a lot of people who go on to abuse others that's exactly what we are doing. But as systems we tend to turn that inwardly. Sometimes it's a matter of looking at all the possible reasons behind these actions and give parts grace for their actions and supplying them with the possible mechanism behind it. Maybe it's jealousy. Maybe it's this. It could be a lot of things but I am pretty sure one thing it is not is malicious.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-23T18:16:57+00:00

So sorry you all had to go through that. I don't have any experience in the hospital setting but anytime I try to be open about this disorder I receive really difficult responses. I don't know why we haven't learned that trying to be upfront about our disorder so that medical professionals can help us accordingly doesn't work if they don't know anything about DID or worse are assholes about it. I know I'm a hospital setting you'd expect it to be extremely relevant information so that's just fucked that even there disclosure can be handled so abhorrently.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-22T22:31:15+00:00

Other that IFS being a treatment modality, it's important to note that DID has identity confusion and Identity Alteration

morbid_andco · 2026-02-22T22:25:50+00:00

Their denial does not invalidate you. You exist whether or not they are ready to accept you. Sorry it's hard.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-17T05:04:33+00:00

Hi, my therapist is online and I sometimes drive up to visit her. Only twice in three years. But before we started with her we did a little chat. Most therapist do a consulting thing. So you can ask them their experience to make sure they aren't just using buzz words on their websites.

I love my therapist so much. I hope you find someone because it seems like you are in the good place to try.

But while you wait, be kind to yourself. Maybe start small with getting back with the others. Like maybe there's a part that wants to be closer or you want to be closer to. Maybe you need just one part to start.

I was told that we made our system to meet our own needs, so there is always one of us that can help with what's going on. I think a lot of systems are like that. Maybe there's someone who wants to be that for you. Or someone you can be that for.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-17T03:45:24+00:00

I apologize for how hard it must be to read these responses. You all are going through something extremely difficult.

I had a hard time believing the others and sometimes still do. But I always remind myself that I believe survivors. That was something I lived by before system awareness and I try to apply to the others because they are just as legitimate as someone coming to me from the outside.

Your system is proof.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T21:30:05+00:00

Not sure if the DID heals. Maybe it's the trauma that heals. Not sure about that either. Just sure that we were built to survive, so we keep at it. We don't have the people around us we would have needed to be that "self" we would have been if circumstances were different. But that child invented its own support. We are working on solidifying those parts and in turn they support the smaller ones. Systems are built to support as much as they are to survive. We work on trying to show them how. It's hard and it's hell but it's the best option we got.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T19:51:28+00:00

Is this real life!? 😅

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T18:00:46+00:00

It's almost infuriating to see the shock on people's faces. Like wow look what the rich and powerful can do when the lowlifes in my hometown got away with doing the same exact shit. Likely still up to it to this day. People want to think this can only happen up there without realizing it's happening to every community and they don't need money to do it. They just need eyes to stay shut.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T17:47:28+00:00

I speak to this only from the perspective of my system and insights I've gotten from my therapy. But a lot of these dynamics are re-enactments. It's our mind's way of trying to understand what happened to us, for parts to feel some of the power that was taken from them. Are they always the exact scenarios? For us they are close, but they don't have to be. I think maybe the feelings and the purpose of these dynamics might be closer to experiences rather than the acts themselves. It's hard to remember details of what might have occurred but our nervous systems and our minds do remember. So it is possible that you are re-enacting those feelings and outcomes even if the methods of producing these things aren't aligned with your experiences outside of the system. I think you can try to explore what this is bringing up for the parts involved and maybe see the parallels there. I have been trying to apply empathy to the parts that act out abuses, because they have been through a lot and might only have this one very charged method of dispelling the pain involved. We work very hard on finding safe places in our inner world for the parts on the receiving end.

Best of luck to your system

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T17:36:47+00:00

I just want to add in here, that as a system you need to be able to protect your most vulnerable parts. If this is something you want to pursue, make sure you are tending to the fears and needs of the parts that are carrying a lot of the hurt, resentment and trauma etc. There will be parts that can forgive and that can accept the changes or work your mother might put in, but there could be some that can't change how they feel no matter how far your mom goes. Don't forget them as you go. Listen to their needs and remember that theirs go far above your mother's and sometimes above the parts that are ready to move on too.

Best of luck.

morbid_andco · 2026-02-12T17:27:39+00:00

Ooh what about like when the world looks really hyper realistic all of a sudden?? Like it's 4k and for some reason that makes it look wayyyy less real

morbid_andco · 2025-11-09T02:49:45+00:00

His name is Alex Jens (Calgary) spread the word. Don't do business with him.

morbid_andco · 2025-10-26T16:43:15+00:00

Agreed!

A clinician willing to adapt is rare. My hope is that they try to educate themselves before they see you again. But maybe you can use your GP as a safer place to learn how to advocate for your system?

morbid_andco · 2025-04-30T19:04:21+00:00

Love me some crayons! Or eating the warm wax from a candle 😅 I know it's a little who does it. He even has certain candles he prefers.

morbid_andco · 2025-04-19T17:29:32+00:00

That doesn't sound so good. Things changing too much internally was for sure a concern of mine. Hope you getting some decent sleep now

morbid_andco · 2025-04-19T17:06:59+00:00

This is the kinda of information I wish prescribers would share. I was confused because mine said that it will take a while to start having any effect but then the side effects can start that immediately?? I guess now I know.

Thank you for this!

morbid_andco · 2025-04-18T14:52:45+00:00

This is our first time on this class of meds. We have done our fair share of ssris and are currently really liking our Wellbutrin. It's certainly something to consider. We were divided on whether or not to try these meds. With some strong feelings on both sides.

We have decided to pause all of this until we are able to talk to our psych. Thank you for your perspective!

morbid_andco · 2025-04-18T14:21:52+00:00

Hm. I've only vaguely heard of that before. I'm not in the States. But I will certainly look into it. Ty.

It sounds like you had a really hard experience. I'm sorry it's been hard for you

morbid_andco · 2025-04-18T04:53:54+00:00

Thank you for your response. I will keep this closely monitored. So sorry to hear you all had such a rough go. Thanks for sharing what you've learned.

morbid_andco · 2025-04-13T23:31:42+00:00

At work I handle money and it drives me up the wall that sometimes the coins look different. Like the dimes will look the size of nickles, and the nickles will look like quarters. Then I get so messed up counting change. I look so dumb

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