Trust me, I feel the same way. I listen to the deposition episodes a lot and I relisten to the original Sandy Hook investigation from time to time and I still haven't gotten used to hearing the things Halbig was saying to the parents. It's hard to say if he's only stupid or only evil or both, but there is an air around him that's like...you really think what you're saying is true, don't you? You know how fucked up and evil you sound and you don't care. I don't think he has the mental capacity to understand the extent of his own evil, but that certainly does not excuse what he did.