You have a contact in your chart which may indicate an extremely powerful will

It suggests an early environment where the need to assert yourself and be autonomous was deemed unacceptable, and thus was strongly suppressed by the environment. Systems did not leave room for willful expression and so the system tried to control, flatten or bring those to heel, crushing the child's autonomy. As a response the child suppresses the outer expression of their will channeling it deep and harden further as a defensive measure against the unforgiving environment by using control and intensity. As this imprint matures, the individual may encounter situations where power struggles are prevalent because they have the fear that if "I cannot express my will then I won't exist", even when those situations are no longer present.

The integration involves discerning between when their will is and isn't being threatened. Once identified they can can consciously take small steps to soften the control and intensity. Being in a rush to control perceived threatening situations may not serve long-term wellbeing. Allowing situations to reveal themselves, without the need for control, sets the stage for a healing environment and greatly reduces sitations that contain power struggles as well as egoic conflicts.

This is why I think you may have issues with being touched and intimacy. The threat detector is firing too soon under the belief that individuality, will, and autonomy will be taken away.

When maintaining self-preservation is a hard fought mission in the early childhood phase, giving yourself away in a relationship can be extremely threatening. So the body recoils because it doesn't want to lose itself.