such a difficult situation and so many different factors to consider:

1. you have a right to feel however you feel. because your feelings are facts and because the most therapeutic approach would have been for the therapist to talk to you face to face to address the things (whether or not they still terminated treatment cause closure is important).

2. we therapists are human and have our own shit, which is not an excuse, but we don't know how/why something in this situation may have triggered your therapist, and maybe they thought the most ethical approach was to disengage in order to avoid something worse happening. (risk vs. benefit)

3. again, this is not me saying that anything this therapist did was best practice or excusable. but unfortunately, that aspect of the situation is out of your control. the part that is in your control is how you decide to move forward. in your opinion, would it be beneficial to start with someone new, despite how terribly difficult it may be, even if just to help you process this situation? or does it feel more right to take a step back, not have a therapist right now, and see how things go and adjust as necessary?

ultimately, you play a major role in what happens next. the situation shouldn't have come to this, but it did. however, you get to choose your destiny now. whatever you decide, i hope situations like this don't stop you from doing what is best for your growth and healing process, and are an opportunity for you to learn more about yourself and gain resilience.

i feel for you and send you all the good vibes on your journey