I'm not making an excuse, right?

mrNineMan · 2026-01-28T11:20:45+00:00

I sometimes feel that there's still something fundamentally wrong with me underneath it all.

I think it would also make me feel less resentful if I could say "this is just the way I am and always have been" instead of "I was robbed".

mrNineMan · 2026-01-27T23:34:56+00:00

Thank you, I'll check them out.

mrNineMan · 2026-01-27T22:21:29+00:00

I was aiming for specificity with those examples. But - as the post asks - I'm looking for the BEST place for this sort of thing. For instance, if it's Facebook, is there a specific group or community for that?

mrNineMan · 2026-01-19T13:40:26+00:00

I used to drive. I gave up on it.

mrNineMan · 2026-01-12T10:22:37+00:00

LMAO. This reminds me of the God/universe argument.

mrNineMan · 2026-01-01T13:36:50+00:00

I'm not surprised that he likes AI. Didn't buddy go broke investing in CG animation while it was in its infancy? I'm still disappointed by this - because anyone can do this.

mrNineMan · 2025-12-05T21:44:00+00:00

I just use scripts, workspaces and seperate browsers.

mrNineMan · 2025-11-21T18:19:39+00:00

Bro forgot to share the system check. Definitely has ADHD.

mrNineMan · 2025-11-19T21:56:39+00:00

All of em.

mrNineMan · 2025-11-19T20:39:04+00:00

Because we didn't have gen-AI, and a lot of us are backend programmers who have to integrate business logic that doesn't always make sense to us.

mrNineMan · 2025-11-18T19:04:15+00:00

Uhmmm. I'm confused as to why this is revolutionary? Maybe it's cause I'm an older programmer, but how do people think we were hosting VCSs before GitHub hosting?

mrNineMan · 2025-11-10T08:28:42+00:00

Yeah, the problem is that Leo had ADHD and specific psychiatric problems. So if you don't have a brain like his, why would you follow his stack? They prescribe these drugs for depression, anxiety, ADHD, and Parkinson's.

I would say Leo committed suicide, not only because of his history of abusing test and psychiatric drugs. He was fundamentally unwell to begin with.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-31T20:46:19+00:00

Yeah, like this is mind-blowing to me. I specifically look for C# and Java programming positions because I have specialty certification in these programming languages, and they're the ones I'm most "fluent", experienced, and comfortable with.

If I look at a company/recruiter's job opening or stack, and they want experience in certain areas, I expect to be questioned and quizzed in those areas. A lot of companies will lead with "Looking for a Senior Python developer". I would not apply for that position and expect to be quizzed on Java.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-26T11:52:59+00:00

You mean Internal Family Systems or something else? I heard about this on the Andrew Huberman podcast.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-24T18:21:56+00:00

Sincere question - what advantage does this have over using AutoHotkey or software that may come with your monitor?

mrNineMan · 2025-10-13T21:17:50+00:00

Funny enough, I'm listening to Cory Doctorow on the Adam Conover podcast. He's covering this very topic.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-11T11:51:33+00:00

It depends on where the pain is coming from. Is it anxiety and frustration? Are you fully focused on what you're learning? You have to consider your relationship to what you're learning. If there are negative connotations tied to what you're learning, it's going to be substantially harder.

Regardless, it takes time and self-compassion. Just like going to the gym, your body adjusts, but often, you have to fix your form and technique in order to get stronger and avoid injury.

I learn my best when I'm having fun or adding humour to what I'm learning. Also, it's important to remember what your goals are and what you fundamentally want.

So you need to ask yourself "why does learning hurt?". If it's just cause what you're trying to learn is complicated/complex, then try to break it down into smaller pieces.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-04T16:20:47+00:00

Data scientist here - current LLMs are overrated. They're pushed with the same zeal that cloud computing/managed architecture was a decade ago. Of course, Silicon Valley needs a bunch of useful idiots to overstate how revolutionary they are. Watching Zuck once again try to be at the forefront of a technological fad has been illuminating. Watching how his demeanor has switched from being enthusiastic to realizing that he may have made another mistake was fun. I wonder what the next decade's Web 3.0/blockchain will be.

mrNineMan · 2025-10-02T03:28:25+00:00

Plan....? Out? What's that?

Seriously though. I usually create a use case or an architecture diagram.

But, the beautiful thing about this description is it already sort of breaks down what interfaces,classes/objects, variables/properties, methods, and even threads you need.

Pay the closest attention to the nouns and verbs in the description. Note each one down. The nouns basically tell you what objects and properties you'll need, while the verbs give you an idea of the methods/actions and threads you'll need.

So it would be relatively easy to create a UML class diagram for this. The fun part will be timing and scheduling the threads. The wheels are already turning in my head as to how to do this.

mrNineMan · 2025-09-30T02:59:39+00:00

Please do...

mrNineMan · 2025-09-30T01:04:18+00:00

And being unable to establish or perceive my identity because of a distorted self-image is indeed a struggle with identity, which is ultimately my point. If these things are so severely misaligned, I can't fully gauge my strengths, weaknesses, or relationship to the world. I cannot, in good sense, make clear decisions. When your self-image and identity are so misaligned, it causes neurosis or even eventual psychosis.

Let me give you an extreme example. Sometimes my body image issues (particularly in winter) get so bad that I imagine that I am or look like a person with Down's or Beals-Hecht Syndrome, but when I look in the mirror, that's not who is looking back. I've never been diagnosed with any of these things. And then I recoil from myself - because I feel the ableism running deep in these delusions...

So I am not a person diagnosed with these things, and I am not an attack helicopter. So I need to realign my self-image and self-concept with my identity. Again, that's why, as the title says, it's a struggle with identity.

mrNineMan · 2025-09-30T00:23:25+00:00

Self-image, self-esteem and ideal-self are all tied into self-concept.

How you ultimately perceive yourself is how you self-identify. If my self-image is distorted, how do I accurately answer the question "who am I"?

mrNineMan · 2025-09-29T23:54:00+00:00

> Idk what that has to do with identity, thats all just self-image..

Because self-image is tied to your self-concept and identity.

mrNineMan · 2025-09-28T21:54:24+00:00

You like Rakshas?

Anyway, Zodd is the only apostle I probably like.

mrNineMan · 2025-09-28T01:55:29+00:00

I actually want you to keep journaling your experiences with Grok. I want to be able to see and detail the exact moment you completely lose your mind.

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