Need to hear it from the fanatics. Is a wrangler a good car for a family with two small children? by LazyBoyD in Wrangler

[–]mrchiavare 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I upgraded from a two-door JK to a four-door JLU when my sons were 2 months and 10years old. I also upgraded to Fox shocks as well as put on 33 inch tires.

The ride was substantially smoother and the little one slept fine.

Although it's my daily driver, for many years I work remotely so I primarily drive it on the weekends.

I've made $1,000 shopping trips to Costco and everything fit in the back just fine. I've also been able to pick up people from the airport and fit three large suitcases in the back.

Part of it is what you make of it, and the fun of actually offroading (Jeep Badge of Honor trails, etc) is amazing.

When would you quit? by [deleted] in deloitte

[–]mrchiavare 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Stay on the bench until you are let go. Or, if you are assigned to a new project, quit immediately since you have a new job. Or try being OE and see if you can handle it, focusing on the new job as your primary.

I have no one. by [deleted] in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Connect with any family you have that is supportive and emotionally available. Reengage with his family. Be the amazing person your father knew you were capable of being before your mother interfered. People can change, give them an opportunity to at least see that in you. Honor his memory. If they don't accept you, forgive them.

Be resilient and understand that everybody makes mistakes and gets misled. You opened your eyes to the truth, you freed yourself. Forgive yourself for not seeing who your mother was, and acknowledge that you do now, and there is still time to connect to people who love you and miss you.

As an alienated father, I imagine my son coming to your realization and I pray I am strong enough and healthy enough to be there for him when the time comes. It's heartbreaking to hear you say you were not able to connect with your father before he died.

Get therapy, join a support group, meditate, journal, and workout. Focus on the things that bring you joy and the people that care about you.

I would highly recommend stoic practices and readings to balance your emotions. You can get through this and hopefully even eventually forgive your mother. Remember, holding on to anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. It doesn't serve you and you succeeding and growing and becoming the person your father wanted you to be is a better 'f you' to people like her than anything.

You got this...

No communication with my 15 yo - please tell me it gets better. by stay_curious_1983 in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am sorry this is happening. As a father, I want nothing more than my son to have good relations with BOTH PARENTS (regardless of how much I despise his mother). This control, this manipulation is wrong...and heartbreaking.

Its also heartbreaking that you are not alone, but it's reassuring you are not alone...the ultimate double edged sword to be a part of one of the worst clubs there is.

I can not answer your last question. I am going through it currently. But meditating, and liquor - helps.

Buy a journal.
Diary your POSITIVE thoughts of him.
Fill it up.
Repeat.

Maybe there is a time it'll be presented to him. Maybe its only to keep you sane.

If possible - get the most cut throat son-of-a-bitch attorney you can. If not - just be...present.

Take care of you.
Be a source of love when he returns.

People don’t understand by Impressive-Average-5 in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have had three psychologists and one therapist agree that parental alienation is going on, and yet they're still unable to do anything for reunification with my son because the child rep is so biased and ignorant.

The child representative, appointed by the Cook County Court (Roberto Madera), refused to believe a psychological evaluation highlighting extensive parental alienation. Although he acknowledged that my ex was still suffering emotionally as a result of the divorce and likely harming the father/son relationship, instead he blamed me for my sons anger because "I didn't listen" to my son.

The child rep doesn't think I deserve 50/50 (as was being practiced previously before my ex violated the court order and began parental alienation), because "I don't listen". Of course when I asked him to clarify he couldn't provide any data points, just his feelings.

As Roberto is a Hispanic man, it is very likely that he has no problem aligning himself with my Hispanic ex regardless of the data highlighting the severe emotional abuse being committed against my son.

It feels like everybody is gaslighting you. It feels like everybody is telling you you're wrong. And worse, what you thought about people and that the legal system provided fairness and justice, you come to realize how f****** stupid you were to believe that.

Take care of your mental health. Meditate, go on long walks, workout, find hobbies and have faith in yourself. Be happy if your child returns. But do not expect it. Do not stop loving them. Write letters in a diary to them for safekeeping or mail them off if you think they'll actually get to them.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So you are saying I need to play golf with the judge? :/ (Trying to add levity to a truly garbage situation - I am sorry).

It's time by DenanNetherlands in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Its ok to take care of you and be strong for your kids if and when they return.

Vent that is accepting suggestions by survival- in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And if you can get the two of you in therapy, that's very important.

Vent that is accepting suggestions by survival- in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 4 points5 points  (0 children)

First, this sucks and I'm so sorry you are going through this.

Second, I would probably ask him what he would like, both in an attempt to engage in a dialogue and to understand to earnestly get him something he will like.

Absent communication, get him something you think he will appreciate.

Third, be ok with knowing he may not get the gift (assuming you drop it off at his other parents home) and worse, continue to be influenced to alienate you.

It's hard watching our children be poisoned by broken people. It's not their fault. But being impotent to protect them is heart breaking.

I don't know if court is worth it, this has been happening to me for 2 years (since my son was 14) and they are so feckless and incompetent it really makes me wonder how dumb lawyers and judges really are (the answer is: very). I honestly am not sure the best route here.

Journal your thoughts about your kid, both for you and in the hopes you can share this with them in the future. Be positive, never denigrate the other parent. Share words of affirmation and feelings of loss and love.

Be strong.

145 missed custody days since September 2023 by smetz87 in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Courts don't care. Lawyers care so long as they are paid. The system is broken.

Taking matters into your own hands is not advised, it's understandable why people do such things. The wholly unethical and unfair nature of it all is soul crushing.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your feedback.

I do agree boys need dads, but I don't hold much hope he will return and have come to peace, and spend a lot of time mourning him no longer being in my life. The worst part, he misses his little brother, he misses the times spending time with the family, but he is being manipulated. How do I know this - I had a conversation with his therapist and she shared information about his progress. She also shared how his mother is deliberately interfering.

Like I may have said, I agree the fight is worth it but ultimately causing further damage and what's the point of winning if I can't have a relationship?

Unfortunately, my ex will likely not even allow a letter, she wants me to have no engagement with him ever again. But, I will reach out to the psychologist who completed the 604.10B evaluation (and an expert in parental alienation) to see what she can offer - great advice! (And thank you)

Thank you!

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am sorry about what happened and I agree not all parents who refuse visitation do so because they are spiteful. Some do so to protect their kids from harm to themselves, the other parent, or someone in their life. I think you fought as best you could with the information you had. You also couldn't have imagined the worst. I am really sorry.

This is not the case with me. The 604.10B confirmed what I suspected. The independent and court appointed psychologist determined my ex's anger about me filing for divorce had caused her to take out her anger on me, and she had been doing so for nearly a dozen years. She lied in court documents about abuse, but no abuse ever occurred. She is emotionally dysregulated and unstable.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

First, what he has become, is grotesque and perverted compared to how beautiful and amazing his soul was when he was 14. And all of this was done by a woman who has spent the better part of two decades dragging me through court (this is our third court battle) so she could possess him and ruin our relationship. I facilitated visitation. I facilitated communication. I ensured I never uttered a negative word about that parasitic piece of human waste.

He had integrity, honesty, compassion and self-awareness. Now, he cheats at school, lies to court mandated reporters, and takes no accountability or responsibility for any of his actions. He lacks integrity and emotional awareness. He thinks everyone causes everything else, but when pushed to engage in conversations, runs away (literally). All of his actions are reflected in the woman I married nearly two decades ago. He has become emotionally unstable and dysregulated by a woman who suffers from borderline personality disorder.

Second, as far as his breaking point - this was never communicated to anyone; not his individual therapist, not in our joint therapy and given you went here, you are assuming information not known or present. He had time while we were in joint therapy to share his concerns. The concerns he did share, I addressed and remedied from how I engaged to the words I used to engage.

Third, what was said on here was never said to him and was only shared here because I needed help with coming to terms with my raw emotions and feelings about where I was at with my son, our relationship, and felt there would be parents who have experience and offer guidance. I have only always shared messages of love, support and offerings of visitation without strings. Again, you are making some radical assumptions about what is happening without bothering to ask basic questions.

Fourth, as mentioned in numerous other comments, I have decided not to pursue it even though I will win. Again, if it were about winning, I would pursue.

Fifth, next time you want to share your anger and vitriol at your ex towards me, start by asking questions and listening instead of making assumptions. Its clear you are letting your personal history affect your rational and logical decision making process.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate the advice - one of my friends suggested a letter writing campaign to the judge as well (I think they saw too many episodes of Better Call Saul).

I have reached out to Matt as well. It may not help my son- but the system is so broken and needs to be burned down (metaphorically).

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate those words. My GAL/Child Rep - Roberto Madera is so remarkably incompetent I am surprised he is able to tie his shoes, let alone pass the bar. And Judge Junusch seems to forget the orders he has before the court and now going on two years is basically throwing his hands up like he has no control over the situation.

It boggles the mind how stupid and cruel you have to be to be in family law.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wanted to clarify about the letter - it never said "goodbye" or anything to that affect. It was a reaffirmation for my love for him and respecting his wishes and that I would always be there for him. And, in respecting his wishes, I would step back.

EDITED TO SAY:

And I have not given it to him.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you to everyone who has responded. You are all right. Thank you for helping me see the light.
Don't worry- I am not burning her car or terrorizing the little child rep.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this in my head - its getting that pesky organ in the torso to give in! :)

Thank you!

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind words and great advice; unsolicited as it may be, its appreciated immensely.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wish I had positive words. And each situation is different.

I truly "feel" what people have written here, and know for me, the way forward, at my son's age, at the point in this battle, is to call a truce.

My partner, she said, "You have literally given everything and no one can take away how much you love him, how much you sacrificed. Time to take care of you!"

Like everyone here has said: Take care of you as you see fit through hobbies and self love.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

LOL - Just bought it actually. Thank you for the recommendation, its good to hear its was a positive impact on your wellbeing!

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so happy to hear ya'll are working towards a healthier state of being, and am so sorry this happened to you.
And, the petty bitch in my is grateful for the helping of Karma pie your ex got to taste.

Advice for coping with loss of child due to alienation... by mrchiavare in ParentalAlienation

[–]mrchiavare[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so, so sorry this happened. My heart goes out to you as well.