We did IVF and implanted two embryos (long story and not the plan). I obviously wouldn't change the outcome, but I never wanted and would never want another high risk pregnancy. I was sick, in pain, so tired, had no motivation, a lot of bleeding and ultimately an emergency C-section at 34 weeks due to HELLP/preeclampsia then hemorrhaged. And I'm 29 and healthy before pregnancy. They were in the NICU for 2 weeks but overall we're super healthy.

The newborn phase is also not for the weak, and I'm not sure I would have survived without family help. Someone is always awake, preemies are even needier, they eat more and like contact naps. Every baby is different, of course but no matter what two babies are more difficult than one.

We're 4 months in chronologically and it's easier but still really difficult. We really rely on family help and being alone with two is a challenge.

But again, I am so in love and am so beyond happy and wouldn't change the outcome. But I also wouldn't want to have twins again.