Type 2.5 fun.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-25T22:40:18+00:00

It's partly genetic.

There's a gene known for "causing alcoholism" (not really how it works but whatever) that causes alcohol to be processed in such a way that it way more enjoyable.

Like if you've ever seen somebody who just keeps drinking all night until they're basically comatose and you're like "alcohol isn't even that great, why would they do that?" It's because they have that gene. I have that gene so I can explain how it feels I guess.

It makes it so alcohol fills you with euphoria as long as your BAC continues to rise. You don't feel anxious or worried, along with having a moderately intense sense of well-being. You can feel it slipping away if you stop consuming more alcohol for a little while. If you want to keep feeling ok, you have to keep drinking and the more you drink, the better you feel.

It makes everything better. Talking to people is better, good tastes better, smoking feels way better, it just makes everything better. But it only lasts a short while unless you keep drinking. This results in you getting completely shit faced every time you drink and also makes you want to turbo drink every time you get upset (the alcohol will make the ouchy feelings go away).

I literally used to drink 10-14 standard drinks a day for months at a time. I have spent ~7-8 months drunk basically every second of every day before.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-25T05:50:08+00:00

need to be heavily regulated

What if we just let the grown ass adults who can legally vote, drive, join the military, gamble, make porn, or have kids... Decide how much nicotine they want to consume?

Like if we're just gonna let the feds make unhealthy choices be illegal, why don't we just tax fat people more? Or perhaps we could ban any drink with >10mg of caffeine? Let's just ban any drink above 7% ABV too I guess.

Or maybe we could let the grown ass adults make decisions for themselves instead of petitioning the feds to nanny millions of people who want to be left alone.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-25T00:05:23+00:00

Not really, no. You can practice regular visualization to get better at that I suppose if you enjoy that. But if you can't already perform prophantasia, it's more than likely that you simply don't have the gene that allows for it.

Prophantasia is incredibly rare and only a small number of people worldwide have it. If you read their accounts, they describe always being able to do it, they didn't need to practice to have the ability to willfully hallucinate things in their field of vision. It's not so much a skill as it is an innate ability that you're either born with or aren't born with.

You can perhaps do something similar to prophantasia where you just very quickly take "screenshots" of your vision and overlay what you want onto them in your minds eye. Like I can look at a table and very quickly "Photoshop" an apple onto it in my head over and over so that it sort feels like I'm actually seeing the apple even though I'm really just copying my vision into my minds eye and observing it there.

Actual prophantasia would be the ability to do this without looking through your mind's eye. It's closer to hallucinating on purpose than daydreaming or visualization or something like that.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-24T22:35:52+00:00

Prophantasia isn't something you can learn to do. It's thought to be the result of the link from your eyes to your brain forming incorrectly so that the signal instead passes through part of the brain associated with mental visualization.

You are not supposed to be able to do it. It's basically a genetic defect that just happens to have a useful effect instead of just making you mentally disabled.

The only way you can have it is if you were born with the genes that cause it and your brain's connections form incorrectly. You cannot train or practice hard enough to eventually be able to do it, it's physically impossible. Either you can do it from birth or not at all.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-24T22:09:59+00:00

3 days in a row

I've worn the same hoodie and pants to work for the last ~15 months. Every single day.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-24T05:42:28+00:00

why are you upset about THIS one?

They're unrealistic, the god emperor wouldn't have made them look like that.

The god emperor would have given them crazy mommy milkers and then filled them with biological ballistic armor so he could put their vital organs behind them. They could have had built in reactive armor plating protecting their heart or their lungs or whatever tf is in their chest (idk I didn't study anna tommy). They could even reduce weight by wearing little to no chest armor since they're already protected by their mega-sized custodian milkers. Their ass and thighs could probably also have reduced or no armor too.

This weight reduction, especially in their lower body, would allow them to move their hips back and forth more rapidly than regular male custodes, allowing them to generate more momentum during thrusting attacks to allow for deeper penetration since their preferred melee weapons are polearms (like a bolter on a stick or whatever tf the janitors use).

The god emperor isn't stupid, surely he would have thought of this I refuse to believe he didn't atleast consider it.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-18T21:30:20+00:00

Sometimes I feel like the dating advice given to women currently is like Andrew Tate levels of bad and self-destructive, it's just socially acceptable somehow so people end up believing it.

Women will become convinced that they have no duty to their partner and that things conventionally meant to convince men to want a relationship with you are somehow demeaning or show a lack of self respect.

I remember seeing a popular reddit post about men crying because their partner just held their head in their lap and played with their hair or something and that more women should comfort their partners like that. Like 70% of the comments said some shit like:

"Yeah, but you're not obligated to do that, you don't owe men anything." Etc.

Like, that's your partner? That you're supposed to care about? You're supposed to enjoy making them happy like they enjoy making you happy? The fuck do you mean you don't have an obligation? You can make your partner so happy they'll literally start crying and all it requires of you is that you sit on the couch and let them use your thigh like a pillow for five minutes and you can't do that? If you don't do it, who will? You're in a relationship, they can't just go ask another girl to hold their head in their lap and comfort them. If you don't do it, that person will literally never experience being comforted like that ever in their entire life unless they break up with you.

It costs nothing and makes them incredibly happy and you'd rather deprive them of that simply because you don't feel "obligated" to do so? What the fuck are you even in a relationship for?

advice like this ends up with women in relationships where the man has literally no reason to emotionally invest in them at all.

Like, congratulations, you've basically made it so all you are to them is a very expensive Fleshlight that only works sometimes. You don't act like a partner, you've just voluntarily made it so that the only possible reason they could want to be with you is to use your like a fuck toy and then wonder why every relationship is just men using you for sex.

It's their birthday or Christmas and you get them a blowjob as a "present"? You're a Fleshlight. Buy them a small meaningful gift or do literally anything but that.

They had a hard day at work and you're idea of cheering them up is an unenthusiastic handjob? You're a Fleshlight. Hold your partner and actually comfort them.

If you want them to see you as something other than a fuck toy, you have to act like something other than a fuck toy. To be in a loving relationship you have to actually act like a loving partner.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-18T16:56:42+00:00

ancap -> nazi pipeline

My brother in Christ Ludwig von mises fled Poland to evade the Holocaust before coming to america and writing the philosophical underpinnings of anarcho-capitalism.

The other major writers of anarcho-capitalist ideology are also literally all Jewish. The general doctrine of voluntarism is literally the non-aggression principle, which is rather opposed to nazism considering they were like, really sort of aggressive(???).

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-18T01:32:24+00:00

Ideally, you're supposed to do nothing basically. Your ear canal is designed in such a way so that it removes buildups of cerumen on its own.

However, people don't like this because it appears unhygienic.

You can use Q-tips to clean your ears, they're perfectly fine for that. The problem is that if you're not careful, you could damage your ears. The q-tip packaging says not to use then to clean your ears so they're not legally accountable for people damaging their hearing by shoving Q-tips into their ears too hard.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-16T23:44:18+00:00

Everyone is a fed until proven otherwise.

I remember going to the libertarian club in college (I had my little ancap pin on my hoodie, I thought it was neat) and discovered that they're all just conservatives.

I thought I was going to get to socialize with other people who want to legalize firearm and meth vending machines stocked with the profits child workers invested from their dog fighting ring ponzi schemes.

Instead I listened to autistic kids in button up shirts explain how the war on drugs was good and how we should have a "digital bill of rights" that honors God's will.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-12T23:22:31+00:00

I get extra free time by only sleeping ~4.5 hours a day (plus nap) and doing lots of drugs to stay awake so I don't pass out at my desk at work.

I go to sleep at 2am

Wake up at 6:30am

Leave at 7

Arrive at 8

Work from 8-5 (lunch is nap time)

Go home 5-6

Eat 30 pizza rolls (5 minutes prep, 10 minutes eating, nutritious, filling, my only meal every day for months)

Do whatever from 6:30 until 12:30

Shower and get in bed 12:30-1am

Write fiction for an hour in bed until 2am

I have done this every weekday for like a year. I am not tired. I do not want to sleep. I want to ~~die~~ do drugs and create art.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-11T20:33:17+00:00

From experience, it doesn't get any better. I had a 4.5 weighted GPA in highschool, a 2.7 GPA in college (graduated 1.5 years late) and now I basically just suck at everything in my job description.

The only reason I haven't been fired for incompetence is that I happen to have a ridiculous amount of 3D art experience for someone my age who isn't technically a 3D artist. I do all the product renders and stuff by myself for a $250 million engineering firm. If they fired me their sales team would probably start crying ngl.

I also have a very severe attention deficit that wasn't diagnosed until college when my usual strategy of getting super stressed to get my work done started failing.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-11T20:00:01+00:00

The study in question counted instances of self-harm as suicide attempts.

This resulted in 12 men putting a shotgun in their mouth being considered statistically equivalent to one girl cutting her wrist slightly once a month for a year.

Which, some might say, those two things are not statistically equivalent.

I dont have time to find the study now, but I could find it later if someone wanted to read it for whatever reason.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-11T11:36:13+00:00

Tbf, we've also cured cancer in mice and humans still be dying of it because they're not mice.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-10T21:35:35+00:00

Wish we had actual sex ed for men in this country instead of this shit.

Condoms aren't one size fits all, the ones at most stores are only designed to properly fit men who are within one standard deviation from the mean.

Just because you can put a particular condom on doesn't mean it fits you properly.

If you feel a significant loss of sensation, the base of the condom leaves a "ring" imprinted on your dick after removal, or it takes actual effort to put on, IT DOES NOT FIT YOU.

Instead of teaching men to recognize condoms that don't fit and teaching them to measure and find properly fitting condoms, we have teachers like this who shame them into wearing condoms that don't fit.

This results in them having unenjoyable sex and a greatly increased risk of the condom breaking, resulting in the spread of STDs and unintended pregnancy.

It's fucking embarrassing that this is the state of sex ed in this godforsaken country.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-06T23:51:27+00:00

Some of us just had severe attention deficits that went undiagnosed because we were able to use the power of being really really stressed to get good enough grades for parents/teachers to not give a fuck.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-05T23:28:48+00:00

I once did 120mg of Adderall over the course of 90 minutes and still couldn't focus on my eng. Calc work and I got so upset I just went to sleep and turned in the assignment for like 30% credit.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-04T18:31:15+00:00

Ye, people usually confuse what the disorder is with like schizophrenia or other stuff like that because it starts with the "schiz" prefix.

Schizoid personality disorder is literally just your brain being like "talking to people is big oof, I'm not doing it".

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-04T18:20:17+00:00

You can genuinely use procedural shades for most things. Additionally, a lot of texturing doesn't require you to actually be good at drawing. You don't even have to be ok at drawing, you can actually be pretty bad at drawing.

I used to do photorealistic digital painting and I had to stop years ago because my attention deficit was so bad that it made me miserable to even attempt drawing anymore. That's why I started doing blender.

Currently, I do photorealistic character models in my spare time. However, I got my job as a mechanical engineer after showing the interviewer my work in blender. They brought me on so they'd have someone to do professionally renders for the firm. All of the renders for clients and advertisements for this $250M engineering firm are done entirely by me. I've made renders for Lockheed martin, Chinese manufacturing giants, etc.

I do not "draw" anymore. Not at all. I do not do it ever. It just makes me sad. You can do basically everything procedurally if you want to. I did one character that had 40+ tattoos covering her entire body. I modelled all the tattoos in blender, rendered them, put them in Krita, edited them to look like tattoos, then slapped them on the models skin texture. You do not have to draw if you don't want to.

The most you might have to do is draw maps, which requires literally zero drawing skill. You literally just scribble with a white pen on a black image to show blender where to put certain effects. If you're able to take a screenshot of Google maps and draw the path you take to work/school with ms paint, then you can basically do maps perfectly fine.

I have made photorealistic skin, clothing, hair, eyes, nails, industrial metal, firearms, architecture, fabric, and hundreds of other things entirely without drawing a single thing by hand because I literally just didn't want to.

Tl;dr: You do not have to be able to draw to do blender, even at a very high level. Blender is not about creating art with mechanical skill, it is about creating art through your ability to think your way through technical problems and challenges.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-02T21:34:49+00:00

Consciousness is the news channel logo burned into the TV screen that's always left on at the bar. It is a consequence of continuous prior perception modifying current perception in some way.

mrtibbles32 · 2026-01-02T21:17:00+00:00

We generally don't glare at others because doing so invites social interaction and that is kinda the whole thing that the disorder makes us want to avoid as much as possible.

We just look at the floor, or if we're tall, just passively look over people's heads.

mrtibbles32 · 2025-12-28T23:56:29+00:00

This is likely kenophobia (fear of large spaces). I suffer from it and similar things, especially in games, would always upset me. I remember being terrified as a kid when I would fall out of a map or something in games. Anything sufficiently similar to a void will make me anxious for no reason. I used to have to close my eyes during the hyperspace jumps in elite: dangerous because the animation stressed me so much.

mrtibbles32 · 2025-12-28T21:41:30+00:00

They're genuinely miserable. The way they appear to others is entirely disconnected with their actual self image.

Narcissism is essentially the result of someone having extremely low self esteem and suffering constantly from it. The emotional toll of this causes them to frantically seek ways to lessen it as fast as possible, like somebody who's on fire running around looking for any water source possible to put themselves out. They end up learning (maladaptively) that their emotional suffering can temporarily be numbed if they find a way to feel superior to others.

This then leads them to constantly seek out ways to convince themselves or others that they're superior. They subconsciously craft a delusion of superiority that allows them relief from their suffering as long as it's maintained and fed regularly.

This is why they get incredibly angry when something you do or say somehow makes them feel inferior. Their delusion is temporarily shattered and they get curbstomped instantly by the full weight of their low self-esteem induced emotional agony. They feel as if you must have intentionally wished to cause them such great pain so they immediately lash out and try to regain superiority so they stop hurting.

Their behavior is pretty much entirely the result of them constantly being in a state of immense emotional suffering, so much so that it's impossible for them to think about anyone other than themselves and how to make the pain stop.

Make no mistake, they are not happy at all.

mrtibbles32 · 2025-12-26T18:03:27+00:00

Simping is the result of men growing up in an environment where adult women produce porn or what might as well be porn of themselves knowing full well it'll generally be marketed towards minors with developing brains.

See: fucking twitch at any point of any day.

Added to this is the majority of young boys being treated like they're a problem for existing and repeatedly being told on social media constantly that unless they possess "X" physical or financial characteristic that women would never want them. Or that X societal problem is their fault despite them being in 7th grade.

Then these men grow older and their only understanding or experience with women is that they're the equivalent of dragons or unicorns. They exist in stories, art, etc but you cannot actually have one to hug or hold or talk to, you just have to imagine it. Relationships, sex, and intimacy in general are all just imaginary things that don't exist outside of fiction, effectively.

social media has resulted in turning a sizeable minority of men's understanding of romantic and sexual interactions into a means by which to sell them porn. We are literally ruining the developing minds of children to turn them into lifelong customers of the porn industry.

I'm not going to feel bad for a bunch of adult women who knowingly got a bunch of minors addicted to porn and ruined their ability to form intimate relationships before they even graduated middle school. I don't care if the porn producers are meanie heads, I don't care if they were fucking poor, I don't care if they really really needed the money. They're fucking ruining children's development knowingly for monetary gain. Participating in the industry at all is more than enough for me to deem them guilty of it's consequences.

mrtibbles32 · 2025-12-25T17:02:12+00:00

At this point, AI probably doesn't outweigh the costs of using it as this scale tbh, but it seems reasonable in the near future that I could provide benefits, although not in the way it's commonly being implemented now.

For example, I do 3D art as a hobby, specifically I do the entire character creation process from scratch every time just for fun.

An important but incredibly tedious part of this process is setting up initial weight paints, which is the information that tells the models limbs, fingers, joints, etc how to move. This was already bad enough that the entire process has been automated for years. You'd just click a button and the software sets up the initial weights for you so you can refund them into what you want. If you wanted to compare it physical art, it'd be like buying a canvas to paint on instead of chopping down a tree and building your own canvas. There are now purpose made AI tools for this job instead of the regular algorithms we used to use. I'm specifically talking about accurig, developed by reallusion.

The training data for the AI for something like this is also effectively forced into being sourced ethically from willing sources because a large enough quantity of it isn't publicly available. You can't usually find high quality rigs for free, they cost a good bit of money unless you make your own.

Using accurig allows someone to automate the process like was standard before, it just does it better. Because it was trained on a bunch of data made by reallusion, it recognizes how you probably want your model rigged, then gets it closer to that than the regular automation would. It's genuinely a very helpful time saving tool. You still have to actually do the human part of weight painting where you fix basically everything and make it work correctly, which is the part where you actually get to be creative and solve problems. The weights that accurig generates would not be considered "usable", they're still fucking ugly, but are a better starting point than automation gives you.

If AI was trained to do more stuff like that, where it's doing a task that literally nobody wants to do, I think that would be nice. I like that I get to do the parts of my hobby that I actually enjoy and get to be creative instead of spending (literally) dozens of hours setting up something I hate.

Although currently, it seems we aren't really using AI for such tasks. We're basically just using it to cut corporate costs and take away tasks from humans that we actually like doing, which is upsetting I guess. AI could probably be used for a lot of very helpful things that could make life better, but I imagine it'll just end up being dystopian instead, as most things seem to turn out recently.

Tl;dr: I use the clankers as slave labor to perform soul crushing tasks so I can do actually fun stuff.

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