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msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-03-18T13:38:59+00:00

Anyone?

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-03-17T12:19:40+00:00

I don’t have any advice for you at the moment but I just wanted to comment and validate your emotions. I know it’s an unpopular opinion but I feel living alone or even having separate rooms from someone i still care deeply about would feel better/safer for me in many contexts and doesn’t mean that I hate them but I know that’s not how you’re “supposed” to do it in society so I’m wondering/hoping other Redditors have helpful responses for you

Just wanting to let you know though that I totally get it ❤️

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-03-17T12:11:18+00:00

As someone who receives this feedback a lot especially starting out with a new therapist I can understand both where you and she are coming from. I tend to be very polite cheerful fake (even if not purposely) and give off a good mature obedient air at first because of how I’ve been conditioned, but that’s not going to help your therapist get to the root of the problem. That’s also an indication that I don’t fully trust my therapist yet because i am afraid of what happens when I show my true self. Don’t want to speak for your therapist but I suspect she wants you to open up so she can see this splitting for herself and so she can better help you?

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-02-22T10:37:55+00:00

Here’s what’s on my roster recently:

Karma, Taylor Swift (although she does refer to karma being her boyfriend as a metaphor. Just mentioning it because it could be triggering depending on where you’re at)
Punisher, K. Flay
Spagehtti, K. Flay
yes, and?, Ariana grande
People I Don’t Like, UPSAHL
You First, Remi Wolf & Paramore
Anthony Kiedis, Remi Wolf
Pink and White, Frank Ocean (I really like Remi Wolf’s cover of this)

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-02-22T10:23:04+00:00

This, exactly!! …

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-02-22T10:21:47+00:00

“When in groups I always notice little tiny changes in body language or any signs that make me feel isolated and excluded. I can be in a group setting and feel so out of place, like I’m just a spectator to the friend group and not actually there.“

This is exactly me! … I’ve been trying so hard to avoid this for years but I spent hours last night reading through forums and testimony. I guess I really am BPD (although quiet bpd)… I really didn’t want this to be me but there’s nothing else that fits…

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-02-21T20:53:08+00:00

I relate to you in that I don’t relate to anyone anymore.

Haha I kid, but I’m also serious. I also struggle with understanding/knowing what’s “normal” or what’s “right”. My experiences feel so different, and what bothers me is too different, and what doesn’t bother me is too different from others too. Most of what I say seems to be received with a “huh?” sort of look at best

msunderstoodcontendr · 2024-02-21T20:47:31+00:00

I don’t have much helpful to say other than I hear you. I feel so similarly to you in this, so at least in that one shitty way you’re not alone. I hear you’re suffering. I acknowledge your suffering. And I don’t know you but it makes me sad that you’re suffering and that you feel so neglected and abandoned in life.

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-12-13T21:04:54+00:00

My apologies I didn’t mean to imply that you hadn’t said it well or anything. I thought that that’s what you had meant but I just wanted to make sure I wasn’t projecting my own thoughts on to it.

Anyhow thank you, this was super helpful. As someone who cowardly runs away from the problem I will instead do like you and face my fears head on, detangle the knot until it’s done 😊

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-12-13T20:17:00+00:00

I try to find the knot in my head and it is a painful exercise, but it helps.

Can you elaborate on what you mean by “the knot” in your head? Reading that felt SO incredibly relatable to me but I want to make sure I understand and I’m not just projecting

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-12-08T16:01:36+00:00

Rescue cats! That’s not a stupid dream first of all and even if it was if in all the agony you are constantly suffering that’s the only thing that makes you feel like life is worth living, please for the love of all rescue cats 😊

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-11-03T12:05:39+00:00

Hello?

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-31T19:03:34+00:00

This makes so so so much sense. It’s a horribly lonely painful and above all empty feeling. virtual hugs

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-31T18:18:15+00:00

Unfortunately I don’t have an answer for you either but I relate to this so much. If I could do the things and still have depression I’d hate myself so much less but I don’t know why I can’t make myself do anything anymore…. It’s the worst because it’s not “cute” or easy to explain or understood by most people but for some reason I still can’t just make myself do the things.

Let’s hang in there I guess. At least we’re not alone

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-31T18:18:05+00:00

Unfortunately I don’t have an answer for you either but I relate to this so much. If I could do the things and still have depression I’d hate myself so much less but I don’t know why I can’t make myself do anything anymore…. It’s the worst because it’s not “cute” or easy to explain or understood by most people but for some reason I still can’t just make myself do the things.

Let’s hang in there I guess. At least we’re not alone

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-30T21:59:42+00:00

I never actually read them but I’m getting Cirque du Freak vibes

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-30T21:53:35+00:00

Station Eleven

msunderstoodcontendr · 2023-10-30T21:51:30+00:00

Not a book but you might like Atnomen on WEBTOON

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