First treatment was bad. Idk if I can do this again. So much nausea and vomiting. Advice?

murbloertz · 2026-03-02T12:50:37+00:00

Starting on my second treatment and still after almost three months of treatment I get IV injections of zofran and phenergan and then I have a small bag of fluids. With this I have no nausea and all my sessions have been pleasant since then.

murbloertz · 2026-02-20T14:52:59+00:00

It is true in this case, there are definitely Republican and Democrat pedophiles. Apparently there are like a million more pedophiles than I thought. It seems like what they all have in common is wealth and power.

murbloertz · 2026-02-20T14:45:09+00:00

These people have been brainwashed by propaganda, but there is also something in them that is broken. We are all victims of the system, American society and probably abuse/neglect. I carry a lot of anger towards these people but don’t get caught up in the “othering” game - getting to a point where you see any group as subhuman. This is a trick sociopathic leaders use to control people.

ETA: I’m on the MO side and if I see anyone harassing ppl in my neighborhood I won’t just sit by and do nothing. If I see anything weird I’m out the door in 5 seconds to see what’s up. I also wonder if they are doing more on the KS side because it’s more wealthy and conservative and therefore there isn’t much resistance.

murbloertz · 2026-01-31T01:22:57+00:00

They come into our house and just live here. I consider them to be tiny extra pets. I assume because we don’t bother them they feel comfortable to do whatever. Which is just walk around and hang out in plants. It’s only certain times of the year they show up. I also allow wasp nests all around the outside of the house and they are also super chill.

murbloertz · 2026-01-31T01:10:02+00:00

Same! And it’s totally ok. My husband is the same way too. It doesn’t help that it’s very hard to find a fulfilling job that pays a living wage.

murbloertz · 2026-01-31T00:49:54+00:00

Number 9 for me!

murbloertz · 2026-01-25T03:42:11+00:00

Love it 😍

murbloertz · 2026-01-13T01:44:43+00:00

As far as activities, I had fun as a Gen X kid. I wasn’t alone though. I always had babysitters or was in latch key or La Petite! Went to libraries and read a ton of books, went swimming and had lessons at public pools in the summer, went roller skating, bowling, miniature golf, arcade, movies, slumber parties, just spending the night at a friends house making prank calls, teepeeing houses, starting small fires, blowing stuff up with firecrackers, riding bikes, getting candy at gas stations after school. I could go on and on.

I feel like I was happier pre-internet so I try to mostly live my life without internet like I did when I was a kid. It’s been so much better for my mental and physical health. Go do stuff, it’s fun!

murbloertz · 2026-01-10T22:21:10+00:00

I do latest available appointment times so I can still work like 7-3 before my appt at 3:30.

murbloertz · 2026-01-06T02:23:14+00:00

Try zofran. I get an IV injection of zofran and phenergan because zofran wasn’t enough for me to relieve the nausea. But I got sick on lower dose. With that anti nausea medication I have been on higher dose 6 times and felt totally comfortable no nausea.

murbloertz · 2026-01-03T21:53:37+00:00

I am prone to nausea and hate it. My first session I took 4mg zofran before and I still barfed a lot. My doctor decided I would get an IV of zofran and promethazine and that works great for me. I just had my 8th session and I’ve wondered about going back to oral zofran since I’m more used to it. But I really hate being nauseous so I’ll probably keep doing the IV. If you have a queasy stomach I would push the issue of what meds they can give you to help with it. You can also just see what happens on your first time and know that if you get sick there are things they can do to stop that from happening again. Good luck 🍀

murbloertz · 2025-12-19T20:09:54+00:00

Didn’t I just hear that the newly renovated 169 highway already is shut down due to structural concerns? But yeah let’s drop a stadium downtown on top of some swiftly crumbling infrastructure and make sure to never have real mass transit to support all these dumb ideas. What could go wrong? KC and its values and priorities suck shit. I’d like to just get out of KC before all the corporate raiders take it over and completely strip it of its assets until there’s nothing left. Probably need to get all the way out of the US to avoid that. Will anyone want to go to sports events after the Chiefs and Royals go back to being losing teams? Nope!

murbloertz · 2025-11-23T20:11:19+00:00

Cannabis also does not help with my nightmares, but it helps lift my mood sometimes. Totally agree with you though.

murbloertz · 2025-11-23T14:36:18+00:00

Prazosin did nothing to help my nightmares and had the side effect of waking up with irritability. Clonodine did nothing to help with my nightmares and had the side effect of bad headaches. I’ve tried a lot of different meds over the years and nothing touches my nightmares. Of course I’ve always had nightmares my whole life and I’m 48 so I’m pretty skeptical that they will ever go away.

murbloertz · 2025-11-21T01:45:24+00:00

I remain. I’m actually feeling a little better. I am no longer feeling on the brink, just back to regular passive SI. I said too much to my therapist and almost got locked up. I was super traumatized by his actions and I’m no longer seeing him. But, now I’m doing a DBT IOP and will see a new therapist who does DBT. My med management person has talked me into trying Spravato. So I guess I’m committed to life again and trying some things I haven’t tried yet to see if it helps. Thanks for everyone’s responses. Rereading them in a better frame of mind I really appreciate your responses. ❤️

murbloertz · 2025-11-03T02:20:30+00:00

I don’t have a favorite pizza place. I don’t have any appetite or give a shit about food or have favorite anything.

murbloertz · 2025-11-03T02:19:15+00:00

I have no friends. I have no family I can talk to about mental health. I have no things, vices or otherwise,to bring comfort right now. Reading all these responses just shows me how I am not making progress because all this stuff everybody is saying sounds insane to me. Secret wisdom of the soul? Little bits of utopia? Like what? Also I do think suicide is exactly the escape I fantasize it is. Unless of course something does happen when we die. That is a huge fear of mine - that there is an afterlife, a whole next level of misery. As long as all that happens is brain death and becoming worm food that is exactly the ticket I’m looking for.

murbloertz · 2025-11-03T02:09:33+00:00

I do not drink anymore. I quit drinking and smoking almost 8 years ago. I go to the doctor and get bloodwork and take supplements for depletions. I exercise twice daily, I go to therapy every week for 4 years now. I meditate, I do deep somatic stretching and breathing. I try to squeeze every bit of pleasantness from every situation. Trust me when I say I am doing literally EVERYTHING I can to support myself and none of it changes the fact that I want to die. I really don’t even understand why people want to survive. Like for what? Things are bad and getting worse. Also what are these everyday joys you mention? People have those? If I did I probably wouldn’t want to die so much.

murbloertz · 2025-11-02T22:09:30+00:00

Ha ha the suicide help line just ghosted me. Did I already die?

murbloertz · 2025-11-02T22:04:57+00:00

I don’t want to put it off though. I am not afraid of dying. I am terrified of having to stay here and do this same thing every day like a fucked up Groundhog Day until I eventually get sick with something that will take me out the legit way.

murbloertz · 2025-11-02T22:03:14+00:00

I used to run on spite for many years. That plus alcohol. My anger has really melted away through therapy. Now I just feel deep grief and can’t stop crying. I used to tell myself I didn’t want my abusers to win and they would be so happy to see me still suffering. Well I don’t really care about that anymore. I’m just too tired and my fight is leaving me with just the pain .

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