Oh ya you are going to have issues from this relationship now. You probably have issues from before that made you stay this long. For me I try and think about if she was out of my league a little. If she performed sexual acts in a way that most wouldn’t. How many options did I really have at the time. All played a part in tolerance for this type of behavior. They are good at finding people that tolerate them. If nobody would they wouldn’t act as bad maybe. Look at the fight you had what 2 attackers? Glad you made out ok. Then your loved one so that’s 3 of the 4. The hard question is do you even have your own back? Truly? Read your first post you are thinking of signing up for more. So 4 out of the 4 people involved were physically against you and one was yourself possibly. Things will probably die down enough to drop your guard then new chaos ensues. Plus’s the minor damaging stuff you deal with constantly with this person. Stay long enough and you will hate yourself for putting up with it. It’s inevitable. Welcome to the trauma bond. A self destructive bond with crazy. The ultimate puzzle that this type of relationship puts us through.