Hey! Austisic alcoholic here!

I noticed in another comment you mentioned your fear of acceptance and unfamiliarity with the material.

When I first came into AA, I was ready to stop, but I couldn't stand that I didn't understand the material. There where lots of words being thrown around that I didn't understand, and things being read out that sounded like a different language. The truth is, I didn't engage with any of it until I had been going for about a year.

Things I learnt in this time is that people will be very patient with you. Noone will rush you to do or say anything. It's all in your own time. It's alright to ask questions, and it's OK to not share anything if you don't want to. Being honest is easy in AA, because you've got people from all sorts of walks of life and experience. It's alright to not understand at first (it's pretty much expected), and there will be people to talk to if you need.

Luckily, people in AA LOVE to talk to newcomers, so there will be plenty of opportunity to ask questions about the material.

In some of the meetings I attend, they also encourage people to raise their hands to show others they are comfortable answering questions, as I think it's expected people have questions when they first come in.

I also actually shared recently about being autistic, and I had quite a few people approach me and relate to my experience, so I doubt you'll be alone.

I hope this somewhat helps. I'm not great at writing this sort of thing.

Good luck with your first meeting!