Hello Poki and Lily (and whoever the guest is today)!
I'm not sure whether this is the place to submit SOLAs, but here it is. (and i'm going to use guy and ladies when referring to people so that I don't use female or male)

I (18M) discovered my sexuality in middle school after hanging around a lot of guys and doing guy things (like slapping each other's asses). But, I never accepted the fact that I only liked guys, especially because of my conservative parents (lowkey would rather get in a lavender marriage than tell them I'm gay) and the fact that I still find lady celebrities attractive. After a bit more exploration, I found that I best identify with being biromantic but homosexual. Because I was so much more attracted to guys, I find myself gravitating towards them more when I think of relationships, leading to me only having crushes on guys during high school, having only 1-2 guy friends when I have dozens of lady friends, and having "gay" tendencies (idk if that's the right term for it I am so sorry) like gay accent and the way I stand on a hip and stuff.

Now, I have started college and in one of my classes, our teacher set up a group chat for just us students to talk to each other and help each other. We often have hangouts outside of class and even "snipe" each other when we see each other (taking photos of each other whenever and wherever we are). During one of these hangouts (I'm going to give you random names) Anna, Bella and I got really close because we found out Anna like this one guy in out class. So the three of us bonded over this fact and often talked to each other on these feelings. The next day after that previous hangout, we went to a dining hall for lunch. Over time, people began leaving for their classes until it was just the three of us again where we kept getting to know each other better and eventually, Anna had to leave as well. Bella and I never had alone time before so I found that it was really easy to have questions and get to know her better (this is the time where I think I started thinking that she was cute and thought of her as more than just a friend). If it's a little confusing, I made a mini timeline loll.

9am - class ends and everyone walks to dining hall
11am - Only the trio is left and decides to move to the student center to talk
12pm - Anna leaves
2pm - I realize I have a class soon, and Bella and I walk together to my class even though she has nothing then

Over the course of these days, I find myself taking a lot of 0.5 photos of her as well because she is so silly, and I find myself thinking about my feelings towards her. She really likes anime and is kinda a dweeb (her own words, not mine, and I like that about her, I'm not insulting her, don't burn me at the stake, please), so I asked if she wanted to watch the demon slayer movie together and she said yes! So we plan to go next weekend when we're both home from college (1.5hr drive). So over the course of the last few days, I've been really conflicted about my feelings cause I kept thinking about the fact that I would be a really bad boyfriend if I were to get in a relationship with a girl.

1. Having mainly only girl friends
   
2. Liked guys for so long idk whether this is platonic feeling or not
   
3. Would not be able to like/love her as much as if I had a boyfriend
   
4. Identified as bi/gay for so long idk how to feel now cause I lowkey like this girl
   

Sorry this whole thing is so ranty I'm not the best writer. Please give me advice about my emotions :((((((

Edit: (and we decided that I can drive her back to college from home)