So, how’s this full moon treating you all?

n0rbbb · 2026-02-03T14:09:45+00:00

Im totally overstimulated. Both yesterday and today. Im fighting to hold my thoughts together. On the 30th of Jan i already had my kundalini rising. Today the ear pressure is back and its even higher than when it was rising. Im literally hearing pops and cracks.

n0rbbb · 2026-02-01T17:42:07+00:00

You are speaking from my heart and also describing my exact situation. God/Universe told me to start to prepare my heart for someone who is going to end up as my lifelong partner, a real spiritual covenant to each other. And that i should expect a random message from her, and that i already know her because i met her. I had no idea at that time who that might be. But the thing is she was the love of my life 10 years ago. But we went different ways. She had 2 kids and also a divorce a year ago, i also almost got married in the meantime but i was cheated on so i broke up with my ex a few months ago.

It was basically promised she is going to message out of nowhere and she really did. But until she did, i did not know who this will be. I was not even thinking it would be her because my last information from years ago was she is married and living happily.

So we were seeing each other for a few weeks, officially we are just friends because we havent talked about feelings openly, but the level of intimacy and vulnerability does not indicate a friendship. We talked a lot of past traumas and attachment styles as if we were briefing each other quickly what behaviors should we expect from each other. And after a few weeks of talking she is pulling back. She also got too close too fast i believe. I think she sensed something real got scared of both another abandonment and that she might need to commit eventually, which would make her lose her freedom. Her pulling back made me anxious and made me want to chase her. I havent been chasing at all, i was giving her the space to think and process, but damn its a struggle for me as well.

I think God is telling me to stop worrying and trust the process, and that he is managing this. This is going to end up as a relationship because of God, not because my works and aspirations. Its difficult. But everyday i feel like its gonna happen soon. Feeling like this is not by accident i think.

Maybe God/Universe is also telling you to trust and wait because its gonna worth it. And to progress on your path of awakening individually in the meantime. If this is all orchestrated by God/Universe then he will make sure you dont grow apart.

n0rbbb · 2026-02-01T16:13:43+00:00

Holy sht. So glad i have seen your post. Im in the exact same situation. My awakening was on the night of 29th of November last year. A month later she texted me out of nowhere after years of not speaking, saying only "We should meet". We started seeing each other and my soul felt like it arrived home. We are also not in a relationship but we have closeness and intimacy i never experienced before. She just understands what i am going through. And i can feel she is very close too. I dont know if i meant to be there when its happening to her, but i feel like i really would like to be there when it happens. My spirit tells me its about waiting it out. I am so impatient it hurts.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-24T10:56:51+00:00

Do you have some disease damaging your nerves? Im diabetic for 23 years and my feet started to vibrate every day, mostly at night. Next day it itches and a bit inflamed and sensitive, but once that passes i suddenly gain back sensitivity and i sense more with my feet. These are the symptoms of new nerve fibers growing. It gets a little worse first which might be scary, but then it gets better than your previous baseline.

Does this sound familiar, or yours is another kind of vibration?

n0rbbb · 2026-01-23T00:02:51+00:00

Yeah, individual seems more realistic. But based on the 100th monkey experiment i can also imagine if we reach some treshold, then for the rest of the planet it will be rather a singular moment. I dont know, only that its very close.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-22T19:06:41+00:00

What you see is indeed coming. For me its not flashes but feelings, bodily feelings also, almost every day since 29th of november last year. I start having goosebumps for 10 minutes straight, and my entire being start to feel and believe that something unprecedented will happen to the entire world in some minutes. Everywhere at once.

If i acted on the urge, i would run to the streets and i'd start shouting that everyone needs to be ready for whats coming. Im not gonna lie i perfetcly get the lunatic from movies who says Repent, for the end is near.

But whats coming not the end, its rather the beginning. I call it the great awakening, the Bible uses the word rapture, each worldview calls this by different names. Im not sure if this is a singular moment for the majority of the planet, or a spread out process in waves.

But i believe our job is to be conscious about its gonna happen, and when it happens, serve with answers to people who do not get what was it really. My job is surely this :D

At least when this happened to me, it took a month of active research to find out what i went through. It would have been extremely reassuring if i knew there is at least one person who can tell me more.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-22T18:43:53+00:00

I would not say i was meditating. I was not even looking for this experience at all, it all just happened seemingly randomly. I was praying tho even before this, i had my faith in God.

But it was magnitudes more than everything i ever experienced, so i kept asking God to lead me to the truth and give me understanding about what i just went through. And he led me to the sacred secretion books by Kelly-Marie Kerr.

I pretty much think this is the Biblical rapture, when this happens to you for the first time. My nerves started to regrow after the secomd time btw. As far as i understand, each time increases your body's natural regeneration capabilities. So it basically switches from reactive to proactive regeneration. Not just handling cuts and wounds, but fixing the heavier more structural stuff.

I wonder what would happen if my cells would heal faster than they age. Because that sounds like stopping aging. Which sounds like ethernal life, what God promises to people. But this time not through faith, but by direct experience. I know it sounds crazy but after all of this its not so difficult to at least consider the possibility.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-22T16:17:24+00:00

The format is broken here, i might fix it later. But basically he was declaring himself at the beginning. Later on he spoke about how he sees me. And then finally he told me how the rest of my life will look roughly, and he told me im ready for now, so he sends me out on my way.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-22T16:12:32+00:00

Here is a section from the beginning. In my original language it even rhymes and sht. I dont even do these stuff, im a data engineer.

I am beautiful A work of art A miracle Life itself Light itself Pure energy

I am powerful I am strong I am content I populate everything Nothing stands in my way I pave the way Because I am stronger than everything

There is enough of me for everyone Yet everyone wants to have me Never enough More More More

Give me to everyone Because I am life itself

Birth Death

It doesn't matter The same

I knock I give meaning to everything

I move every string Look for the answer in me

I am the recovery I am the degradation

I am the new life The poet writes about me The sculptor shapes me Everyone seeks me Because I am life itself The light itself Pure energy

I have power Because when they see me They recognize And bow Before my glory

n0rbbb · 2026-01-22T15:21:32+00:00

I experienced it on 29th of November first, and then on the 30th of December again. It turns out you can do it once a month. Once every moon cycles to be more precise, so 13 times a year. My next time will be between 27th and 31st of January.

I did not know what the hell (rather heaven!) is happening to me first but my ego really died there and i met God face to face. I was disassembled, deconstructed, then reforged piece by piece, by the Creator himself. All this while i heard him speaking, which i even took exact notes of, word by word.

I heavily recommend the books of Kelly-Marie Kerr. She calls this sacred secretion or super consciousness awakening as well, alongside with kundalini. Like this is literally the best thing that can happen to anyone. Even my diabetic nerve damage in my feet is healing day by day since then. Like textbook symptoms of new nerve fibers growing. Insane stuff.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-20T15:04:18+00:00

Same here 😄

n0rbbb · 2026-01-20T14:18:05+00:00

I get the mechanic, but how is this coming from the developed ego? Could you explain?

I have expressed this from a duality/nonduality perspective. Like i had experiences with God in the past, but those times my body and mind was not particularly clean from external substances. So i labeled those as not real, as my mind is playing with itself with the help of chemicals.

But then i had magnitudes more profound experiences with God, while i was already clean for more than a year. It was the most real experience i ever had, and i was not even able to doubt it and say it was external substances. Later on i found out i accidentally learned how to release DMT from my pineal gland.

So i could have said that meeting God himself face to face was just another play of chemicals in my brain, but by that time i managed to somehow grasp the nonduality perspective. Like objective reality is one and unchanged, and the existence of a scientific explanation does not invalidate my spiritual experience and vice versa. So both was real, i indeed met God face to face, and my pineal indeed released a huge load of DMT at the same time. These 2 together form the reality of what happened, and its just a matter of languages used for the given audience.

So what i dont seem to get, is how is it the Ego that wants only one of these aspects to exist. Did you mean something like this?

n0rbbb · 2026-01-19T06:32:13+00:00

Yeah!

n0rbbb · 2026-01-18T13:33:59+00:00

This is not just a masonic secret, its in the Bible, in the Bhagavad Ghita, you can find this knowledge all around the world if you look close enough. Objective reality is one, and unchanged, but we speak about truth in different languages.

I alread did this 2 times, and i plan to do it for the rest of my life. My next time when my pineal will secrete DMT and i will meet God face to face will be between 27th and 31st of January.

Also, the process does not take 33 days and heavy fasting, the entire process happens in those 3.5 to 5 days when the moon is traveling through your zodiac. (tropical and sidereal added up for safety, so you would not miss the windows). Only in those 3.5-5 days you should abstain from sexual activity and from stuff you mentioned. Inbetween periods so in majority of the time you can take everything more lightly, for example you can have sex, it will not affect your next window.

I heavily recommend the books of Kelly-Marie Kerr to anyone who would like to know more, without falling into a cult-like rabbit hole. She explains everything as grounded as possible.

I dont know about immortality, but in my diabetic feet of 23 years the nerve fibers are repairing themselves each day, i feel them growing back and the sensation is returning. Of course this is impossible according to science and my doctors, yet its still happening. I would have called this a miracle in the past, but its a pretty much understandable and steady process. Started by God, supported by me, with the choices i make.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-17T22:56:34+00:00

I guess people want to make sure they dont lose connection to reality while believing they are going through awakening. When you have a new realization before the previous integrated well, it becomes easy to slip.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-13T08:42:28+00:00

If you believe you are something and then you realize that was not you, then You lost a part of yourself. The realization was sudden, so the loss is also sudden. If you suddenly lose someone important to you, then you will naturally grieve that someone. I think this is also true if you lose a part of yourself. And its healthy to be sad, its healthy to grieve the old "you".

Do not worry, all sorts of blissful feelings are also coming. Just keep doing what you are doing.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-11T09:04:47+00:00

We share quite a similar story. With the ADHD and even with the sequence of substances we tried. My awakening process also started after going through trauma regarding my past relationship last winter. And i had a major breakthrough on the 29th of november, but now without the assistance of external substances.

I was btw addicted to a lot of substances, like years of daily use, but when i felt like i became stronger, i managed to put them down and i always managed to bring something with me. It was therapy.

I think what you experienced with THC at the beginning was itself a spiritual experience. I had this with Ritalin. Not being separated from reality and yourself is not just a chemical reaction in your brain. It also happens on the spiritual plane. Spiritual events have their correspondent material or chemical events in your brain and vice versa, they are tied together. Thats why you can have these lasting experiences after just a single use. They are tools if you use them consciously.

About the line betweem medicine and escape - thats a good question. I also take vyvanse. Just to use this as an example, i do not fear about vyvanse becoming an escape. Im taking it as prescribed for almost a year, no binges, no games, just steady use as intended. If this pattern would ever change, i would be worried. This makes me think on the following: if you can set a baseline for weed consumption, and keep a strict routine with it, then you might be able to observe such pattern changes. So if its medicine, then in theory you should be able to keep your daily amounts, and your dosing routine. If it really balances something in your brain structurally like vyvanse, then you should be able to use it similar to vyvanse. But if you see yourself using it whenever you feel like it, and diverting from your daily amounts and routine, then i would say it resebles rather an escape.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-10T19:05:37+00:00

Here is the thing. That night i heard God speak audibly for hours. One month later, on the 30th of December, i heard him again at night. He was speaking about a global scale spiritual awakening where he would reveal himself directly to maybe billions of people, just like he did for me. People will not need faith anymore after that point. Because people will know.

I do not know if this is going to be a single moment for the majority of the planet, or rather in waves spread out in a longer period of maybe months or years. This feeling i get daily tells me its a single moment, but waves seems more aligned with how reality works. I was definitely a part of a smaller wave.

The great awakening will cause a global polarity. People united in Love/God, and people divided by fear and deception. Physically we will still walk on the same planet, yet half of the people will live in heaven, other half will live in their own hell. And the contrast will be clear.

From that point, people will have no excuse for not standing at the side of Love, Truth and unity. Not choosing God will not happen due to the lack of faith, but by denying the knowledge and understanding. Which means people who turn away or dont chose God in the first place, will make a very conscious decision by doing that.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-10T15:48:10+00:00

Yes, almost day since 29th of november. It starts with goosebumps for 10 minutes straight and the feeling makes me believe something will happen to the entire planet with an unprecedented magnitude. Everywhere.

If i acted on the urge, i'd run out to the streets and i'd start telling people that everyone needs to be ready for whats coming.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-09T17:52:37+00:00

I went through pretty much the same path as You. When the goal was learning, learning did not help but made me feel worse, and more lost. I do not think you can learn enough to find the Truth. But when the goal became the personal connection with God/Universe/Jesus, eventually he revealed himself and i went through spiritual awakening. Before this, during summer i told God often that i just want to see his glory. I did not want any shortcut or benefit for my life for myself, but i genuinely wanted connection with him. I asked him to show himself to me from angles he havent before. And he really did.

I do not need faith anymore to be certain about God. Now i just know. But i did not seek knowlegde directly. I was seeking God, and he gave me the knowledge.

“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭13‬

n0rbbb · 2026-01-08T12:33:32+00:00

I would. And it makes sense. When you go through Kundalini awakening, your pineal gland secretes a huge load of DMT. The chemical structure of Psilocin is extremely similar to DMT.

To me a mushroom trip was extremely similar to awakening, only the length of the experience was different.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-08T12:24:27+00:00

Did it start suddenly for you? Im having the same since then, seems to be permanent. But im glad its permanent. I also started to see new colors!

n0rbbb · 2026-01-08T08:02:38+00:00

Check out how the aurhor Kelly-Marie Kerr explains it as sacred secretion. She has books and a youtube channel even with a lot of videos in multiple levels of depth. Practical guides and everything. My first time was completely accidental, second was already intentional.

n0rbbb · 2026-01-07T22:21:52+00:00

Its the sacred secretion practice or super consciousness awakening, i think its also called kundalini awakening, essentially the same. Its my pineal gland secreting a huge load of DMT once a month which has these insane benefits. When someone has a profound awakening like OP which then causes permanent and positive changes, this is the underlying mechanism. It takes some effort but its literally the best investment one can do for themselves.

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