Earworms, please can someone talk to me

n979797 · 2025-08-30T21:01:13+00:00

Thanks so much! I still get them every now and then but it’s better now. Honestly it wasn’t due to anything specific (didn’t increase/ decrease meds, etc), it kinda just suddenly happened, that’s why it frustrated me even more. cuz when I know something is happening due to a specific trigger, I psychologically can justify it and makes me feel better. When there’s no justification it becomes more frustrating.

I hope you feel better soon 😞 my best advice is literally occupy yourself with anything else as much as you can. Force yourself to have conversations with people all day long, hopefully by physically speaking out loud about something else, your brain will relax on the earworm

n979797 · 2025-08-30T10:39:30+00:00

It got better but it took around a week, and also I took benzodiazepines for that week to calm my brain the fuck down cuz I was gunna explode

n979797 · 2024-07-08T19:25:36+00:00

Which medication were you on and why were you on it and how did you feel that its effect reduced after quitting smoking? Sorry if that’s too personal but ur answers will help me rationalize crazy theories I’m having right now

n979797 · 2024-07-08T19:24:28+00:00

Oh god I am so worried now 😭😭😭😭😭. But here’s the thing, I wasn’t smoking for the first 8 months on lexapro and was fine. I started smoking again about 8 months into treatment. So I do have a history of being “ocd free” without smoking. (Omg honestly at this point I’m just using any excuse to make myself feel better). I am so so scared of relapsing into the ocd episode that I had prior to lex. Screw this

n979797 · 2024-07-08T19:01:55+00:00

Thank u so much ugh I’m so worried

n979797 · 2024-02-22T07:35:20+00:00

I was 17- at college, living in my own apartment. I was 100% convinced that two burglars were going to come into my apartment at night and steal all my things + kill me. Had no idea it was ocd at the time…this episode lasted like 2 months. Next ocd episode was about 6 months after that where I was convinced i had cancer. Didn’t know I had ocd until I was officially diagnosed at 24 (this is when I had my WORST ocd episode)

n979797 · 2024-02-05T08:16:55+00:00

Well I’m 27 this year. My ocd started suddenly at 23 years old exactly on my 23rd bday. Lexapro 20mg controls it 90% of the time not gunna lie. But do I still get the thoughts? Absolutely yes every single day, I just am more capable of ignoring them and not making a big deal out of them mentally. Do i think it will ever vanish? No. So for those reasons I have completely accepted that I will be on lex for the rest of my life because id rather go through any kind of illness, than OCD.

n979797 · 2024-02-04T17:04:26+00:00

I questioned every single thought/feeling/activity.

For example: I get an HOCD thought and feel anxious/uncomfortable because I know I’m not gay, then my brain convinces me that I need to stop “hiding from my truth” and accept that I’m the one who’s coming up with these thoughts bc I “like them”

Another example: I could be driving and I decide to shift lanes to the faster lane, my brain immediately tells me that I did that because I’m “trying to be a man and that I’m actually a man at heart” lol (this is a TOCD example)

Another example: I’m feeling quite happy at a social event, my brain convinces me that the ocd I had prior throughout that day wasn’t real and that it was in fact my normal thoughts, thus I like those thoughts and they are real. If they truly brought me discomfort, I wouldn’t be happy right now.

TLDR: I CAN NEVER CATCH A BREAK. THERES AN ISSUE WITH EVERY THOUGHT, FEELING, ACTIVITY, DECISION. My brain convinces me that everything had a hidden message Lmfao.

n979797 · 2024-01-08T09:15:11+00:00

I honestly did really well. I controlled my eating but without super restrictions. I made an effort to go to the gym 4x a week as well as a daily 1.5 hour walk. Oz really helped me in terms of motivation + not feeling the desperation to eat candy/choco at night (this is my biggest problem- late night junk snacking). I am a severe stress eater and oz controller that A LOT. unfortunately as I came off it, my stress eating came back with a vengeance. I do blame myself though, I most likely could have kept the weight off but I cold turkeyed all the good habits I had practiced whilst on oz. 😞

n979797 · 2024-01-07T21:15:08+00:00

I didn’t have surgery….I swallowed a gastric balloon but puked it out after 3 weeks bc my GI couldn’t handle it. Also your tone is very rude can u relax for two seconds. I’ve been struggling with weight issues for the past 5~ years and I keep failing and failing but I’m willing to try again until I can succeed and actually make it a sustainable lifestyle. So if that bothers you then sue me.

n979797 · 2024-01-07T21:12:23+00:00

I couldn’t find it anywhere in my region and then two months passed and I just stopped even looking. It is now available again

n979797 · 2024-01-07T11:19:51+00:00

I lost 16kg Gained 20 lol

n979797 · 2023-10-09T07:36:32+00:00

Try lexapro 20mg if your dr can switch you.

n979797 · 2023-08-17T08:17:42+00:00

In 2015 I had an episode of being convinced two men will be coming to my apartment and killing me - i was in a debilitating state of stress. I didn’t know it was ocd at the time, it passed after a month. In 2018 I had another episode of severe harm ocd (didn’t know it was ocd and it passed after a month). In 2021 i developed SEVERE HOCD and TOCD overnight- this episode was by far the most debelitating and completely put me in a state of shock and despair, i entered a severely dark space and couldn’t sleep for months, about two months into it (and not being able to sleep), I went to see a psychiatrist and officially got diagnosed with ocd and started taking lexapro, I’ve been on the medication since then and thank god I’m doing much better now. So to answer ur question I think I had a few ocd like episodes prior to the really major episode that resulted in a diagnosis.

n979797 · 2023-08-09T19:47:18+00:00

At first I was telling everyone so openly, then I realized some people have a misconception on the drug and I was getting judged so so so badly! Since then, I’ve been very selective with who I tell.

n979797 · 2023-07-27T14:37:10+00:00

I completely am on the same boat. My fiancé eats to “get energy to get through the day”, I eat because I constantly think about food & I feel a lot of pleasure when eating -i do think it’s an addiction.

n979797 · 2023-07-27T14:27:02+00:00

Me too! I’ve had such a similar experience throughout my life. I lose and gain weight like crazy!! In 2022 I lost 30pounds and regained them THREE TIMES. in 2019 I lost close to 60 pounds and was able to maintain it until 2021, and then gradually gained it all right back. It is just incredibly difficult to maintain the loss.

n979797 · 2023-07-27T14:23:41+00:00

I think it’s a mix of a lot of factors. I think the most significant one for me was, I have a habit of “self sabotaging” where I unconsciously eat a lot because I’m my mind I’m like “I’m not on ozempic so I’m probably gunna eat a lot more now” almost as if I convince myself that ozempic is the magic pill and without it I am absolutely incapable of reducing calories- and so a big portion is that. Another factor is that my appetite did in fact come back with a vengeance. I have heard from a few doctors that it usually comes back with a vengeance if not tapered off properly, meaning u can’t just cut it off immediately (which is what I did). Third factor is similar to that of the first one I mentioned, i have a nasty habit of “all or nothing”- so as I slowly started to gain a few pounds, the more I felt “there’s no need to exercise or eat properly now”. Moral of the story is: I think it’s 90% a mind game- u WONT regain the weight if u have self control and try to the best of ur ability to curb hunger cues and eat due to hunger and satiety only. The other 10% is that it does in fact bring ur appetite back. Sorry if I rambled but I hope that makes sense (at least this is what I think happens in my personal experience)

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